shower revision

All I remember is putting my revision notes on my toilet next to the shower. And I would open my shower door from time to time to peek at my revision notes to memorise it. I remembered the stack of note was literally the one I printed a few days ago. I haven't finished reading it since it was 34 pages long. (already very condensed) (I downloaded it off our goddisk (common drive for study resources)

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I woke at 9:20. And I thought what a nice time! I finally woke in a reasonable time (though my alarm is 7:20). And then I closed my eyes again to revisit the shower revision dream for the dream log. But I fell asleep. BRUH. And now I got the following dreams to write ,,,,!!! Annoying. And I woke at 12:40. After writing the whole entry it is past 1pm now.

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Thailand trip; exhibition hall puzzle; roasting A

#mum #dad #A #secschool Trip to Thailand, organised by Mum After getting off plane? ship?? literally idk, and stepping foot onto Thailand, Mum told us we would walk up the mountain to reach our hotel. _{(Think like the slope in CUHK, and we started at the foot of the hill and our hotel was near the top)} I asked my mum where was our hotel, because she hadn't mentioned it at all, and maybe because it was close that's why she suggested walking. Plus, I see some people queuing nearby, which, according to my another dream at this nearly identical location, was a shuttle bus stop.

She said it's somewhere in the mountains. I was like whatt and you suggested walking?? How about taking the shuttle instead.

She didn't look pleased. _{(She always doesn't look pleased at my suggestions, and at last she'll like it and take them as her original idea. It happened with my mask. She hated me buying a new design of the mask and also said it was so thin and bad, I shouldn't buy. She wouldn't use it. She said I gotta pay for it myself (but eventually she paid for it too) Guess what! She opened the package when I wasn't there and she tried this mask and claimed this one is the best and she only uses this type now! She doesn't use the one she usually pick !!!! bro!! I only have one pack because I thought only I'd use so I bought little !!!! And now I have to share with her!!! And she denied she disliked the mask at the beginning. She said, “what, I said I liked it! I wanted to buy it! Why didn't you buy more for yourself!” I'm just so fed up)} I said see the shuttle is coming. (Indeed a bus was arriving at the station). It's so near! So we walked quickly to catch the shuttle. We got in.

Since we were the last to get in, we get the seats at the back. Actually it was a “room” in the bus. There are four bidets in the room with no doors and walls.

Later I got off. (I wasn't sure if my family got off too). I arrived at an exhibition centre. Today's event is Children's carnival? Where a lot of companies were selling their kid's toys. I went to a giant booth near the entrance. They were selling magnetic chinese characters kids can stick on the wall and compose their own sentences. There were three types. One was generic colourful blocks like lego, and there are no words on it. but you assemble many colourful blocks to imitate the shape of chinese characters. Second was parts of a chinese words, like 爫 夂 心 亻these. I wanted to assemble 愛, but the kid next to me took away the 心 part so I can only make a 受 _{I think this idea came from a post I was reading on xiaohongshu yesterday, it was about a man sending wechat stickers of 曰十 to make 早 to greet his gf every morning, but eventually his gf told him the full set of sticker was 艹曰十 which was 草} Third was actual magnets with a printed chinese character on itself. The board we were working on during the event was actually pretty interesting. I was originally squatting down with other kids to play with the second type of magnets. There are a lot of messy words, but still generally ordered. And then I stood up. And wow, the middle to top part of the board were all magnets of the third type. And the previous people had made very sophisticated paragraphs with them. The board was full of words. Like millions of ants. wow There were still some space for me to fill in some words. I think they were kind of deliberate because they looked like fill in the blanks. One says, “我最渴望： (blank)(proceed with a large paragraph of other deep stuff)” and then I found two magnets that were unused in any paragraph. So I stuck on that blank spot. It was “自”“由”.

Later I left. While I was leaving Chloe Cheung saw me. A childhood friend. Closest in kindergarten, and one particular year in secondary when we were neighbours again. She started chatting with me. We chatted on our way to the shuttle bus stop (yes gonna take the shuttle although idk where I would be going)

Boarded the shuttle bus. She board it in front of me. A was on the bus. Chloe sat with A. A was smiling at me in a way she was sneering at me that Chloe chose her over me. Anyways I roasted her hard while I was walking to my seat behind them. While I was walking, A yelled, Ouch~ So painful, you hurt me I literally accidentally tapped Chloe only, I roasted her I didn't even touched her, everyone can see on the bus, I won't apologise for things I didn't do, and she should go see a doctor if she's feeling imaginary pain And then I turned to Chloe to apologise for the light tap in front of A, which kinda humiliated A Anyways I kept on roasting her while I was on the shuttle. Maybe I was telling her her actions are incredibly rude to people who cut their thighs. And another girl on the shuttle laughed, she said, I am literally cutting my thigh rn lmao. I looked at her and saw her thigh was rather bloody and the cuts were deep.

garden w Dad, finding new gardens

Dad late for his gathering with his brothers, supposed they meet in the afternoon or noon at Shenzhen, but it was already 5 something pm, almost 6, his bros were finding him on whatsapp Dad looked amused with no guilt/ remorse whatsoever. Before leaving the house, he came to ask me on his whatsapp problem because he said he already replied ok but they didn't seem to respond. I checked his phone and told him he didn't hit the send button.

He sent the message and his bros continued to chat in the whatsapp group So maybe he didn't find it urgent to meet up with them and he walked me around the flower garden instead.

He told me supposed the flower garden was owned by them (the family), but because he was late and irresponsible for everything, he and his bros lost the right to own the garden. He said with a cheeky smile, as if he was “proud” of it. I find it disgusting.

Also the garden is full of big red flowers. Very healthy and pretty. Interspersed were some green watering devices which would auto-rotate and water the plants around it. Looked like a showerhead but somehow in the dream I found it looking like a dick. I stopped to get a closer look. Dad told me another garden had this kind of devices too, but that garden owner used some white cloth, disguised as white flowers, to lightly cover the watering device, so that part wasn't showing.

After that we went to check out gardens that were available for own (sale? rent? idk) There were only around 2-3 available. In the dream we explored the first one. The garden wasn't really big, the size is like a small hall. Actually there aren't flowers in the garden. It was seats. As if like a hall. The seats were ¾ occupied. But it was still kind of spacious.

In the garden there were three animals. Garden owner's pets. One cat, one... maybe hamster?, and one white dog. The environment was slightly messy though. The food is on the floor next to where they laid down. They didn't seem hungry. I used a stick to move the food on the floor closer to their mouth. The cat food looked like diced meat (肉碎), the dog's food is... a piece of human patella (knee cap bone). The cat ate some. The dog ignored me.

While I was strolling, my dad was still next to me. He hadn't left to meet up yet. Bruh.

_{I think it's because Dad actually had a gathering with them in Shenzhen, and he was indeed late (not this much though I think). Mum was scolding him to leave quickly because it's only 30 minutes till meetup time, but he's still at home.}

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return trip from Korea

#secschool #mum I travelled alone to Korea for sightseeing, today was the day I would take the plane to return to HK.

I needed to apply for a “visa” for passing the customs at Korea’s side People told me I needed to use a wechat 小程序 to fill in my personal details, then go to another location for the next step I was confused because I don’t know what’s the name of the 小程序 they were using, and where/ what for next step

Originally planned to do this visa application the day before I leave, but because I didn’t figure it out in the hotel, I was doing it on the metro on the way to the airport

I was kind of lost so I asked a family who’s speaking cantonese on the metro to help

The father was nice and explained to me. The young boy and his mom looked okay too.

During our conversation a 師奶 walked into us, wanting to interrupt our conversation, I just nodded my head while the father continued to talk to me and our convo didn’t stop. Later I saw the woman’s face. It was one of the parents in our dizi class irl, and she’s the kinda annoying and self-centered one who’s into veganism and buddhism _{(oh I remembered my mum telling me they organised a dinner the year when I graduated in order to ask what degree I got into (I was the youngest in the class) and then after my mum answered the group, some congratulated, some were confused they didn’t know what the abbreviation stand for, after my mum explained, the rest of the confused people congratulated too, just except her! She’s making a 🤨 face according to my mum)}

Anyways yeah so I thanked the father

Later I went to a floor in a big station There was a station for making visa (probably) on this floor I wasn’t sure, so I walked around and sit in one of the benches

I met Valerie (f2 neighbour) She brought me to lunch at the canteen downstairs together while I was solving this visa application issue on my phone

There were different restaurants in the canteen- some healthy 米線; KFC; snacks etc We opted for snacks

… forgot what happens next

But I remembered I was lying in my bed again, door slightly open, corridor was dark but eerily my mum’s face appeared within the darkness, looking straight at me. I growled angrily in the dream because she’s doing this creepy shit again

Later I went to jot down my dream. (When I woke up I found that this didn’t happen irl and now I have to write again)

_{But I’m actually confused if the mum’s face is part of the dream or not, because when I really woke up, actually I woke up to my mum entering my room, so I growled again, but she won’t leave, she’s like a robot asking me if I need to turn on aircon, to which I angrily decline, and her hands continue reaching for the button and I growled and bruh she ask me if I want to open the windows I refused again and she continued to walk to my window bruh she’s not listening. Anyways finally after growling and screaming in frustration she left without altering my room. Terrible thing to wake up to. (I mean the fact that I have to scream. Not her.) Seems “going crazy” doesn’t affect her anymore. And she also won’t listen if I am being “normal and reasonable and speak in a normal tone”. She listens to nothing except herself. She lives in her own world.}

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So many dreams every day and they’re not exactly entertaining aaaauuughh I just wanna finish writing and head to studying

high school class

#secschool Morning lessons. In high school. I was sitting front row, second leftmost seat, in front of teacher’s desk (teacher’s perspective would be second rightmost) Aunt Atlex _{(Mum’s friend thatwe go buffet together irl) (doesn’t teach irl)}teaching us … I’m not sure what subject, but she’s using Chinese to teach an English-based subject Classmates were kind of surprised because she was trying to use very layman way to teach difficult concepts, which I think wasn’t bad

Afterwards my BAFS (Accounting) teacher irl, Mrs. Chui, came in. It’s BAFS lesson, but told us to take out our maths textbooks and calculators because she’s gonna teach us maths for BAFS And by teaching maths instead of BAFS she can skip a Mainland study tour she was required to go in the afternoon. We laughed because these F1 study tours were kind of boring and pointless and she’s smart to avoid going

Game server tester

Playing a 3D game again Someone invited me to be a tester for their new map/ game

Point and click on two anime style girls to remove different parts of the drawing- front hair, side hair, limbs, eyes, different parts of the dress etc. The left design was more sophisticated than the right. The right one I directly click the head and whole head gone, but the left one had many hair parts to remove. The right one was darker- black short hair black jk style long dress with red highlights, like a cool assassin; left one was light blonde coloured hair? And pinkish dress kind of like in lolita style. After clicking these parts would disappear. So I clicked till everything disappeared. The story proceeded (new dialogue appeared)

The background was the universe At the place of the two drawings, two “planets” appeared. Upon closer look, one was indeed a planet, the other is a poorly 3D sculpted “thing” of two heads- one women and one men. Sculpting style like those very old classic ones you see in a museum- very western michelangelo ones, but ugly and kind of eerie because they’re just “heads” no “body”

Anyways I can again, point and click to make them disappear As the dialogue box told me the man had died, I coincidentally clicked on his head, so his head was gone, the woman’s head remained

Anyways throughout this whole time my laptop kept being weird as fuck and kept zooming out the universe and lagging. I need to rezoom it with my trackpad

One time it even froze and all my words on the screen are gone, the dialogue and error boxes are empty, system tray empty, taskbar empty, and then an error window popped up, which said nothing, with two buttons, one was empty and another one is “關閉並報警” I just saw the first few words “close” and the button is at the familiar corner where you “ok” and “accept” everything so I clicked it instantly After clicking I processed omg the latter half said “and call the cops” I waited a few seconds to see if new stuff popped up on the screen about calling the cops, nothing happened, I checked my phone, nothing happened, and I got a bit confused and worried what if the laptop is calling silently so I just Alt+F4 and force shut down my laptop And then I restarted it and connected my laptop to power

The zooming glitch still happened from time to time, but nothing as serious as the text bug reappeared

Anyways after that, the game dialogue told me to turn around in game and venture other planets / floating islands, lining up in two columns. Between the columns in the middle, directly in front of the “game host/ god/ dialogue man” was a space station. The dialogue told me to go to the two planets the game had labelled for me But I was lost since every floating place had some sort of label/ lines to indicate their presence. Lines like laser beams connecting the island to the “god” (I can’t tell whether the beams were sent from god or from the island)

Anyways I hopped on a random place

And a gamemaster invited me to join their newly designed game To me, it was like the minigame bedwars in minecraft servers _{(why am I always dreaming about this particular minigame, I don’t play it usually)} Basically you start in teams and you guard your own island, which has your team’s beds for respawning if you die; and you go other islands to try and break their bed and kill them and wipe them out. Last person standing wins for their team

I didn’t tell him my impression of their original game being similar to minecraft (despite the graphics and blocks were very similar) though. The gamemaster seemed kind of cheeky and hard to interpret for me, so I didn’t dare to say it _{(maybe I dreamt it because yesterday night when I was returning home, on the metro was a mid40ish man chatting with a mid20ish guy about… “courses” which can change your poor habits and change your life. Maybe he’s something like a life coach?? But he looked a bit hideous oml, anyways the young guy asked him if it’s related to psychic stuff like souls, and the man was like “our course have incorporated a little bit of psychology”, kind of dodged the question about ghosts and just reassured the boy their courses are 正規, and proceeded to preach about “身心靈健康”… super weird. As if the man was brainwashing the boy. And also sitting nearby was a nicely dressed women who spoke nicely… but to herself… like the speaker announced 本班列車往沙田 and she began to talk to herself explaining to herself now it’s past midnight there’s no train to lokmachau bla bla bla so it is shatin as terminal now etc. originally i was sitting opposite to that woman instead, I didn’t dare to look directly at her, but I thought she wasn’t wearing earplugs and talking to people on the phone because her speech content didn’t seem like what you’d talk about. And she’s using both hands to gesture a lot while she’s making the speech to thin air, as if she was doing a presentation. So I pretended normally and walked away and sat in another bench, and the hard-sell psychic guy sat opposite to me……. Midnight trains were weird. Oh no I diverted the topic, back to the dream:}

Anyways our team won in the first round Second round I was fighting and the dream ended, we were kind of winning though But my laptop was so laggy I went to check if I’m indeed using my dedicated graphics card, but I can’t really understand the icons since the ones in my dream were different than in real life and I can’t pause the game so I had to bear with this poor gaming quality

Anyways that’s it

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lost and found apple pencil

#mum #secschool #sally Mum wanting to go to a Japanese restaurant she wanted to go for a long time. * Idenical restaurant to one of the dreams previously. That time we went too late cuz it was so hard to find and Mum was too insisting to go and it was expensive so Mum only ordered one tray/ set of sushi

I was at mtr station – the floor with the gate machines to enter the “paid area of station” I had my apple pencil and iPad with me Idk what time, I found out I couldn't find my apple pencil. I lost it.

There were a lot of art booths on this floor. They were like little makeshift booths for people to draw individually. Seems organised by an art studio to promote their drawing courses. I was walking around and glance at every booth to see if someone took and was using my apple pencil. (Mine wasn't engraved, but I have stuck a masking tape on it, so it was identifiable) _{(I did that to my tendon hammer when I brought it to OSCA practice so it won't get taken mistakenly)}

Walked several (two?) rounds and found my masking tape on someone's table. Seems like they removed my tape from the pencil, so all I got was the tape. The person using the booth wasn't there, so I took the apple pencil on their desk.

Had a chat with several people on the way, were secondary school people. Sally was talking about the ad on the mtr wall which says Ado's concert. _{(The one we planned to go to but we couldn't buy the tickets)} Some I weren't even familiar with. One group was sitting around a table. Some because of 角度問題 of where I was at, were covered by something. One of the person asked me if I remember her, she's Zoe. I brainstormed who has this voice but name was Zoe. When I was thinking, she revealed the answer. I'm Zoe Tsang! After 1 second of me trying to rack my brain to think who she was, I remembered (one of my group members when I was group leader for my Spanish study tour in F2, when she was F1) I'm like ohhhh I remembered! aaa I was thinking of so many different surnames – Cheng, Wong, Chan... And one of the person sitting, said “and Lau.”, smiling slightly (later I realised that person's called Zoe Lau) (very unfamiliar schoolmate we weren't in the same class in any year from primary to secondary)

After that I walked alone again. Later I had the idea of checking my bag again. I saw something white at the bottom of my backpack. It was actually my lost apple pencil. Now I have two apple pencils. And the one I took mistakenly had engraving of the person's mandarin pinyin name, but I didn't notice when I was taking.

I was on my way of returning the wrong apple pencil when the dream shifted to another.

Gojo Satoru's hidden pics

Gojo Satoru (from Jujutsu Kaisen) was very pretty amd shared his photos all the time with others. He's like an internet sensation. Everyone liked his selfies and pics cuz yeah, they're looking nice.

One time me and my friends discovered maybe there was more underneath this “facade”, not exactly bad stuff but we just wanted to know more of his “unknown to the public” side.

We discovered other than the usual pics that he recruit photographers to help him take, he also had several sets of “private photos with private outfits”.

We somehow discovered the next schedule and location in which he would appear for taking these “private” photos. It was the little extension of the main campus bridge/ upper street where you go down to MTR A1 exit.

We went there and peeked. He was posing for photos. But he was bald. Maybe the usual white hair he had was just a wig. And my friend gasped because he was still very handsome even when bald. The next photo I forgot what that was, he either changed glasses or into a more casual shirt. Anyways he got surprised and afraid when he saw that we discovered his “little fetish”, so much he panicked and ran away immediately.

Anyways we got a glimpse in his private side. (* note: not sexual in any way. Didn't even think of that in the dream)

planning family trip

Mum wanted to travel. She told me to plan for the family trip especially on how to ride the mtr + 城際直通車 to get there (like around Shenzhen area, Guangdong??)

I asked her for the details and what exactly she meant but she told me to go find the mtr staff on concourse to answer my questions. She declared she would not help me with it. (I don't want to join the trip at all though, why am I the one planning. I was a bit annoyed in the dream)

anyways I asked a young female adult staff, maybe mid 20s kinda thin but healthy type of thin, and she answered and guided me patiently on different routes to arrive at different parts of the city (because Mum didn't answer my question on where exactly were we staying at, what hotel, what time and date), for example what was the most efficient route/ fastest/ convenient choice, operating hours etc.

I thanked her and I asked my mum for a pen to note down what the lady had said after she left. Something about Line 3 operates from 3pm to 5am; Line 5 operates from 5pm to 3am; I shouldn't take the Shenzhen green line metro because it had too many stations until airport east; I should consider the “城際直通車” which had only around 6 stations and therefore faster _{(no such thing in SZ i think, this idea was like the airport dark turquoise line in HK?)}

Suddenly Mum yelled at me to get on the metro. (Because she found out the metro can reach the Japanese restaurant she wanted to go) Mum and Dad were already on the metro when I was still concentrating on taking notes about the metro on the floor on the concourse

grab all my stuff (piles of paper – mtr map; pens; correction tape; heavy backpack) and ran on the metro, metro beeping and I got in Mum a bit surprised I made it Dad silent the whole time, he was just standing by the door It felt a bit tiring to catch up with all these “sudden matter”.

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I remembered the dream, but the memory was fading so I tried to recall the whole dream once in my brain, I thought I was jotting down in my log but wasn't, now I woke up and I cannot remember most of it

bonus marks, messaging

#secschool #arthur #ivan Went to hotel with my family. [Something happens I forgot], I had a competition/ presentation against other schoolmates about academic stuff also in the hotel. One of my “competitor”/ “schoolmate” was Bernice. _{(an irl friend who was pretty smart and went to Cambridge; supported me since way back in F2 when she was F3)}

One of the teachers assessing us was Arthur. _{(hmph I am still angry and guilty)} I did the presentation first, and followed by other classmates and then Bernice. I left midway during my presentation

After the whole thing, they announce the marks. I didn't know and didn't bother. Bernice was very excited to bring me the good news that I score like 90% and I got a bonus mark of 40 marks so it made my mark like 350 over 100 marks (yes the calculation doesn't make sense) I find my 90% fair enough since I left midway and I didn't do the last 0.25 part of my presentation I asked how about her, apparently her base score was 100% and she also got bonus mark i forgot it was 40 or 30, but it made her mark like 400 over 100 marks Anyways the average marks other classmates got was like 20 marks (low base mark and Arthur didn't give them any bonus marks) so our marks were ridiculously high, and Bernice and I were number 1 and 2 respectively I glanced at Arthur who was still sitting at the 評判 table, he was smiling in a loving way at me. In the dream I was wondering maybe Arthur liked me a lot and I was pretty happy.

_{HUHHH >:oooooo}

ok second part [something happened in between but can't remember] Morning at home/ dorm/ whatever place with a pantry, with Ivan

I was checking out Arthur's instagram and I initiated a simple conversation on ig (can't recall what it was about) I was very cautious about it since I thought it was my first time actually DMing him so I was pretty polite and stuff but then after I messaged I swiped up and saw I actually had a lot of past conversations with him, and they were like super casual stuff, like I sent a post about different outfits and I asked him which one did he prefer on me. And he'll answer (I didn't look at what he answered when rechecking the convo though)

And then I went to do other chores for a while (I think I went to wash dishes and make breakfast for Ivan and me) I came back seeing a new convo in my phone screen, apparently I sent multiple messages and Arthur replied. Turned out Ivan used my phone to pretend to be me and messaged him wild stuff when I wasn't looking. I forgot the content of the new convo, but it was something out of the blue like, can you be my dog or something, and he was super chill about it and replied yeah lmao

When Ivan saw me noticing the chat, he took my phone and wanted to type more And I got very anxious and embarrassed I was like aaaaaa why did you text him THAT, and I snatched my phone back to send “Sorry it was Ivan, not me”

And later I was chatting with Arthur about other stuff, like I bet you're ENTP, and we discussed that

oops i got distracted and didn't jot down the rest, i forgot what happened next, anyways it felt like a pleasant dream

at last I apologised for something, and then he apologised for “a person chatting with me on instagram” (like he didn't admit the account was his but he “apologised” on behalf of “a user” that contacted me).

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_{Actually had a lot of dreams the past few days but I wanna focus on my exams so I skipped recording them, I now forgot all of them lol}

_{This one is also a pretty brief log and I have left out quite a lot of details because I don't want to divert too much mental effort into recalling the dream. The actual dream was quite long as usual.}

secondary school simui

#secschool #primschool Went to school as a freshly graduated secondary school student. Rode the bus to school. Actually didn't know what is the number of the bus but I just hopped on cuz everyone was doing so.

Got on the bus, there was a digital sign like irl buses, so I know the destination and the number. Terminal station would be Western harbour tunnel

And during the trip the sign also kept reminding everyone there will be a violent homeless getting on the bus soon so it was not advised for us to stay on the bus any longer. But every passenger on the bus didn't give a shit about that including me. Maybe partly because this line is the only bus reaching western harbour tunnel. And we can't really get off anyways because we were on the highway the whole time.

Somehow the bus first drive past Ocean Park and those South Island line locations before making the turn back to western side of Hong Kong Island. During the trip, I was half hoping I can see Arthur whenever we reached a station. _{(Because yesterday noon I had lunch with Ivan and we were gossiping, and Ivan was guessing you live around that area lmao)}

One kid wearing the school uniform from my school + her mom boarded the bus during one of the bus stops at an estate

The mum began to chit chat with me after recognising my appearance (idk what she find but she just “recognised” I am some sort of famous alumni I guess). She was asking me for tips to get into Element (aka a pretty prestigious chemistry tutorial centre)

When I am about to answer, a classmate ^[1] began to chat with me and dragged me away, I couldn't really refuse or tell her to pause for a sec and wait for me to answer the parent first, because the classmate was kind of talking about her childhood trauma all of a sudden and I need to listen to her troubles first

[1] _{rarely talked irl, I just remembered in primary she was being isolated because she was chubby, and I was the only person lending a mechanical pencil for her, she needed one and needed to borrow for 10 mins and she would be back. And then after she left, my surrounding classmates were making a big fuss about it because I lent it, so I pretended and fake-explained I didn't like her as well, but deep down I thought she just needed a pencil so I just gave and I didn't dislike her at all and I don't understand why people dislike her because of her appearance. But I felt guilty still because I was untruthful to the chubby classmate and faked I didn't like her; and when she returned and thanked me for lending my pen I look completely normal, so she would think I am okay with her (which I do)(but I acted in front of others I didn't)(I feel I was fake as fuck, such a shitty person)}

And then we arrived at school and got off the bus. It was recess time. This secondary school's appearance was a mix of my irl secondary + primary school. The people inside were pretty childish, I thought they looked like primary kids.

The kid found me and so I started explaining study tips and stuff. The kid was just secondary 1, pretty young.

I was talking too much and they had an assembly. I needed to pretend to be part of the teachers standing by, instead of queueing in my class because I was too late, and somehow in the dream I thought pretending to be an adult is easier than to walk through all the classes standing still to return to my own line, that one was too cringe and I would be easily discovered by discipline teacher

I was also wearing school uniform, so even if I stood still like a teacher, other teachers also noticed lmfao, but they didn't point me out

After the assembly, I saw many parents entering the campus. I guess it was probably after school hours when parents arrived to fetch their kids back home

I was searching for the parent and the kid which I owed an answer for, as we got lost after getting off the bus.

I walked around the playground and also came across another friend (the bi one who confessed to me back in f2) and her mom

Finally the mom and kid found me and called me, so I went and explained how to get into Element in detail + other stuff her kid should do to prepare esp when she was just form 1, and then I motivated them

_{yeah dream ended It felt like back then when I just got into hkumed along with my friend M, and we made a google drive to share our notes and experiences with different tutorial centres with simuis (師妹s). :)}

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long dream again (last few days were dreamless) I was sleeping from around 6pm till I woke at 5am, and I scrolled taobao. Then I fell asleep at 7am till around 11am I only had dreams from the 7-11am segment. It was a lot though. Interesting how I have many stories within just 4 hours.

shopping

#mum #dad skirts shop choosing between a lot of skirts finally selected like 5 final candidates to choose from

later mum came and I showed her. She disliked all of them, found them ugly and revealing for my age I was angry at that

Later dad came too, he was helping me choose skirts But he laid all skirts from the shop on the floor (or folded in piles) in order to take a better look at them in one glance He asked me to come and look That's when I realised about the huge pile he made I was very annoyed because if he took all the dresses then other shoppers have nothing to look at and he was taking up all the space on the floor to place the dresses, we all dont have space to walk in the shop but the other shoppers seemed to be not bothered by it, which made me even more anxious

finally I chose two skirts from my original 5 candidates. mum paid for the two skirts, quite expensive (I think it was 2xxxx yen in total, wow) one of them ran out of stock for my size, so they gave me a random pair of pants with marking saying that next time I take this as a token to claim my “right sized” skirt + I get to bring the wrong sized skirt with me to wear temporarily? Not sure, cuz the several staff at the cashier were speaking in japanese, but I took both items + the other correct skirt when we left and they didn't say I can't mum is crossed while paying and i forgot why I think she was scolding me while paying too, couldn't remember what it was about I was crossed at my mum later on too. forgot why too So this happy occasion of buying my favourite new skirts ended up to be a bit upsetting I wasn't happy

fire

#secschool back to class, with my newly bought cute skirt big big classroom many old classmates from secondary and primary celebrating our own bday many bday cake everyone have candle on bday cake many lit up candles = fire hazard fire started my seat closest to door, and I already forsee the fire I immediately tell everyone about the fire and I ran out Borrowed phone from passerby to call 999 fire department I saw and met mum and dad outside I borrowed phone from mum to watch, because I forgot to take my phone with me while escaping, and I miss my phone I saw my whatsapp on my mum's phone in the form of whatsapp web but I need to re-log in and I don't have my own phone to verify so I can't use but I saw a notif from a high school teacher (preview of notif goes like: this is Mrs L Lam speaking, xxxxxx something about thanking me for saving/ alerting about the fire and stopped it from getting worse) (phone number is C Po's _{(a nice chem teacher) (but the chem teacher I like the most is not in this dream) (L Lam is a worse chem teacher + uni admissions dept head and she didn't help me process some JUPAS DSE stuff so I don't really like her; I heard her own A Level class hated her too because she wasn't fair to a lot of people in class; and my DSE friends also dislike her because she only process A Level stuff and delayed all DSE matters until my classmate's mum called and scolded her via phone at school)}

I also asked dad about my phone inside, in the dream he also had an apple watch, we tried to “use” my phone via the watch which didn't work

I revisited the classroom and some were still leaving the room slowly. I yelled who can help me get my phone, my seat is closest to the door, I can give you $100 But maybe people didn't help me because the door I was standing at lead to another side of the room, so it was further away from my seat. (so basically the large room has multiple doors)

Some standing in the corridor asked me when were the firefighters coming, I said soon, I already called them. Another person in the classroom also answered the person that he called them as well.

I was waiting for the fire truck on the street. It came but was stuck in traffic on the road. The firemen in the truck saw me. They threw me a pin and I was supposed to use the pin to activate the extinguisher to use it inside the room

Another guy and I went to find extinguisher and I found it. But I wasn't sure how to use because the diagrams and symbols were kind of hard to read in the dream.

Anyways I was holding the pin and the extinguisher and I reentered the room, apparently many didn't bother to escape and the fire died down, I cannot see the fire, but I felt it was still there

I walked very slowly to observe where there would be a potential fire.

I look at a mini blackboard next to the door, there was a message from C Po thanking me. There was some words blocked out by scribbling over with black marker, and the guy who was with me finding extinguisher tried to erase the scribbles and colour the space with the background colour. I told him there is no need for that, just leave that be _{Supple info: I recalled one of the words being scribbled over is “hate”. That one's for sure. I am not sure about the other ones, but they are probably “dislike” and “love”.}

Later two police/ security guards came to inspect, and found nothing yet, and the two of them sat in the front row in the classroom. I looked at them. They were my primary school/ junior sec classmates. I kind of miss the time with them (but we weren't familiar). After gazing at them for long enough (I was reminiscing our school life), they asked me if I am looking at them as if they are like children at school. (I think they forgot about me already, they were asking “children” in general) I answered, “before they raised the question, yes.”

later the firefighters came and we slowly investigated the power supply of the room since one wall plug was sparkling from time to time. I wanted to deal with that wall plug first, but they asked me to go check and fix another wall plug at another side of the room. I was unwilling because the sparkling one looked more worrying to me and I refused, and they said we can investigate the sparkling wall plug first.

We fixed the wall plug, but the sparkling has transferred to the wall plug I was unwilling to fix initally. So we went to fix that.

Forgot what happens next

dancing

I felt like I was a part of a story book in the dream. The art style in the dream was very different, it is not realistic. It is like hand-drawn. The words used in the dream were very story-like and simple too. (I'll try to remember the words, though I remember the images/ scenes more vividly)

I was a whale learning how to dance. (Drawing depicting a bunch of flies (or mosquitoes) around me, we were all learning how to dance. But there were some strings on my arms/ whale fins, as if I was a controlled doll)

I learnt dancing and was matured into a “human-like being” (in the dream the specific word for it was “似人” (something like 我進化成一個“似人”。) (There was an animation of the strings pulling me up and out the story book page, and the whale appearance of me transformed into a human being with different colour. Again the page depicted me surrounded by a crowd of humans, we were all standing)

(I think the flies from the previous page would mature (after learning dancing) to become... matured flies with similar appearance, but during the page when I was being pulled away, they were not matured yet)

The story ends here, or maybe I experience the story book till this page and it doesn't end yet (because the “ending” is too abrupt)

bracelet

Back in a realistic dream and I was observing an interaction between a young girl (around 4 years old?) and her mum.

The girl said, I learnt dancing! I made myself a necklace! (Shows wonky DIY necklace to mom)

Mom: That's great! (something along the lines, I forgot)

Young girl: Can I wear your necklace? (points at box holding necklace) I see the pendant on your necklace has its back side facing up for a very long time. I think it died, so you are not wearing it. Can you give me your necklace?

Mom: Sure!

I (still in the dream) thought to myself, I was pretty angry because I can totally see it coming when the girl started the convo, she just wanted her mum's necklace, it wasn't about her dance at all. And I was equally pissed by her mum's agreement to give the girl the necklace because that would spoil the girl, instead she could say something like refusing the girl first, explain this is her own necklace and she likes it a lot, she wasn't aware the pendant was upside down when placing and it doesn't mean it was dead, and then proceed to tell the girl if she wants one she can buy another one for her (either as a reward or maybe theyre simply rich and just buy) because i think the mum was not really willing to give the girl her necklace, but still did so because the girl asked her to do so, feels like being bullied voluntarily. this whole thing is stupid

and then I woke up I think I dreamt of necklace and particularly That necklace because I was taobaoing and the last ting I was looking at and kinda wanting to get was That necklace LOL

Also about the skirts. I was browsing for skirts in taobao with similar patterns (checkered patterns) before bed too.

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(Oh hey I discovered I can add tags so I will be tagging people’s names on their first appearance in each entry)

Previous (maybe a month/ 2 months ago?) dreams: wants to go visit 格仔舖ish store with a section hosted by driving coach, sells squishies, rather 童年回憶 plastic toys(?), and some pet items (turtle? Fish food?) _{To clarify, he does not have such a shop in real life. But I was stalking his fb back then in winter 2023 and I was suspecting if he has a side gig of running a small shop in Kwai Fong. I still don't know if it is true or not, because I don't have direct proof of the shop being owned by him. Anyways, maybe this led to me dreaming about such a shop in the dream, despite selling different things.} Visited once in dream. Didnt buy anything cuz things were behind the locked glass cabinet and i didnt ask the staff to open for me. Meanwhile some of the cute items were sold out, so I was pretty upset and a bit frustrated when i woke up. But back then I didnt know why, since i instantly forgot the dream when i woke up.

Also had a dream previously about him teaching me driving again (not the same as the one this week titled reckless driver- idk what person is that in that dream) _{(wanted to come back to supplement this paragraph after I was done with today’s entry, but I completely forgot what this was about)}

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This dream:

school admission day

#ivan #mum Visited a new school today with my mum. We are applying for school. I was around junior sec level probably. It’s called DGS girl school (?) with light green uniform. While walking there my mum told me this school was more chill than a DGS third form (????) school because the “third form” one required students to graduate and take the public exam by form 3, and thats hard. (That school has the same uniform as DGS irl, blue and white dress)

It was admission day so many students and parents were going there too

Entering the school hall, we struggled to find seats. We arrived at the back left corner if the hall, and coincidentally I saw Ivan, who was my best friend (in dream). In the dream, I recalled we used to sit tgt in this school hall for other school functions too, also at that corner. However this time, there were two friends of him sitting next to him.

I planned to take the opposite two seats (this hall corner is a table with 4 seats opp to each other) which were the only ones empty. However, Ivan made up a reason and told his two already sitting friends to reallocate to the opp two seats, and I can sit next to him, and my mum next to me.

I was delighted by his arrangement. I was rather excited and “extroverted” and began to chat with him.

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I forgot what happened next Maybe a very abrupt change of scene? Actually idk which dream came first. But these few events are within the same “dream” in a sense that I didn’t feel there is a blank space/ black period between the events which to me separates the dreams.

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Macbook gaming

I was using macbook to run windows. Maybe because I installed a virtual desktop. I downloaded a minecraft world. Inside, I was guided through a prebuild path thing. The world/ path inside with stationed tasks is built as a tutorial for something (I didnt recall). And then I reached the final station/ big area with built pink trees and fancy houses. (I forgot the content that got announced while I was inside that area)

As I was playing that macbook, i realised I didn’t plug in the power supply. But the macbook still was almost full. (Macbook battery is pretty longlasting) Anyways I plugged it in.

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Throwing congee

Another section of the dream

I was staying at home, sitting on the bed. I was sick (I forgot the reason. But it wasn’t a physical illness)

I remembered a random scene of seeing one of my older relatives (one of dad’s older brothers) sitting on my bed and pretended to be really baby-ish- like he was eating some congee with a spoon but he couldn’t/ deliberately didn’t (? I’m not sure which) put the spoon in his mouth properly so he spilled the congre on his belly. There were loads of relatives (like 20-30 ppl) gathering around him, laughing at him for his stupidity and immaturity.

Some started to play with the remaining congee and tried to throw the congee onto each other’s belly too, those who got hit also laughed. I think they looked like they had a fun time but kinda sarcastic.

Throwing red juicy giant grapes

#secschool #charlotteh

Me and my mum went into a store. As I was leaving, they began to promote a premium fruit – red juicy giant grape. (Giant like two coconuts big) My mum was interested so she went to have a taste. I remain sitting at a tall table. Someone accidentally stepped me lightly- it was Charlotte Hon (that other charlotte from dream titled cats in store) I forgot if she apologised but idc because she wasn’t intentional and it was just a light step.

Later we left/ store set up changed and I was sitting on the floor.

The crowd with the red premium grapes began to throw them on each other, since the red juicy grapes would look like fake cheap bloodstains once it got into the clothes.

Gladys _{(another secondary school classmate, not that familiar, but recently I kept watching her instagram story cuz she went exchange abroad and shared different stuff every day)} and Charlotte Hon took away something from me, and they escaped with the item. All I can do is to take pics and record live photos of them escaping. I can’t get up to chase after them (I needed to sit for some reason I forgot)

Gladys walked past me after a while, I think she wanted to look and laugh at me so she came over to see what I’m doing. Coincidentally, a staff was telling us (the group who was sitting) to report to them for any eye witness? And there was already a queued up group slightly far away from me which composes of people like me + their witnesses

I instantly wanted to grab Gladys by her arm, but she wanted to escape. As she was running away, there was a security staff (actually a police in uniform) near me, so I told the staff to catch her for me.

(Forgot what happens next)

driving coach’s CA

#roy

Finally revisited the store this time. I think it was a mobile services store. Something like CSL. Because I rushed/ speedwalked so quickly into the store I hit my head on one of the signs they hang at their booth. It was loud, I didn’t notice who asked me if I were okay, and I replied I felt very painful, but it was better than last time when I crashed onto something hard and that’s even more painful, so this is nothing.

I walked inside the store with a sore head. I found the driving coach’s little store area. Unfortunately the two cabinets was locked still, but there was more stickers/ notice on them: “for cancer patients only” And there are some other memo stickers with different deep words and one with a equation Some people left notes like add oil in your cancer recovery journey!! _{(OMG… I am so sorry I realised..) (though I think I dreamt about it because I was preparing for PBL yesterday about different carcinomas and the one in the dream belongs to the same type as the one I studied i.e. adenocarcinoma)}

A staff walked past and I asked them what happened, they asked, “ooh you like him?”, then said “he went for treatment in the hospital and is not coming back any time soon”

Apparently it was a stage 4 cancer and he had a metastasis. I looked at the memos with those deep words. They are all medical jargons that I supposed to know by this time, but I completely forgot their meaning. I just remembered I saw those words before and I should’ve learnt it The memo with a equation has many α β arithmetic stuff. it’s a fraction. I think it’s for calculating his stage or mortality or something. _{(Note: very sure I made that equation up, you don’t calculate like this. I think my brain just mixed and recreated the QALYs and DALYs I had tutorial on a couple of days ago)}

So I couldn’t purchase anything.

The staff asked if I want to learn it or something. I said yes. He lent me some laminated documents for me to take pictures of. _{(Really similar to pathology practical where they laminate the A4 docs for us to read and take pics and revise too)} And then he rolled up some of the laminated paper, and told me to face him (i.e. orientate myself towards him). He hit me very hard on my head using the laminated paper he rolled up. It was kind of painful, but since I injured my head while entering the store already, the soreness and pain aggravated. He laughed (in a menacing way), saying I am so cheeky trying to look for tips from him for the exam. But I just wanted some more materials for revision, I was not asking for tips. I didn’t reason with him though.

I went back out and sat on the road (being specific here the location is the mini slope for cars to drive into the three resitential halls and madam ho, but I sat slightly out into the big road with traffic, but it was late night so there’s no traffic yet), studying the materials I got. I just feel like I need to study to learn more about the driving coach’s cancer and I want to treat it. Also felt a bit unhappy back then when the staff told me the coach had cancer because that means I chose the long queue for nothing and they would assign me another teacher anyways. _{(Slight recap: need to retake driving exam, can choose short queue (3 months) or long queue (1 year). Short queue: fast, reassign another random teacher. Long queue: slow, keep being taught by same teacher. If one day I need to take other courses I get to keep being taught by him too. IRL I chose long queue)}

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After waking up: Anyways I woke up tremendously sad But luckily it’s just a dream (hopefully… or is it) (I hope it’s not a sign) _{(omg so sorry again I hope you’re okay)}

I suddenly missed my coach and I was stalking my coach’s ig (we exchanged ig back then) around 2-3 days ago but seems he didn’t update anything as always Idk if I have mentioned, but his following list are mostly pretty girls, so that night I just binge watched one of the ig acc he followed, it was a female japanese pornstar lol I heard she was famous but I am never interested in any particular pornstars so idk the names The pornstar is slightly visibly older though so not really my type. Maybe he followed years ago when she’s younger lol I think he didn’t expect me to ask him to add ig so he couldn’t “cleanse” his ig (if he has to) (i dont think he’ll do it anyways) (and now it’s too late or maybe he doesn’t care so yeah)

Hmmmmmmmmm everyone’s horny :p

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large group bday meal

#secschool _{(Btw, bright colourful top heading is a random title for the blog entry; dark smaller headings are titles I give for different dream) Suddenly remembered this dream I had today morning} I was at a large round table dinner gathering thing with many not-that-familiar secondary school classmates We were having general conversations _{(I didn’t remember the content)}, and I’m mostly listening instead of talking, as always Then we mentioned something about birthdays, and one of the classmates say it’s her birthday today _{(I wasn’t close to her irl, we were in the same class in… Primary 1 (and P4?) only; but I think Charlotte mentioned her name when we’re chatting two months ago randomly) (yes in the dream it’s Secondary school gathering) (well our primary and secondary are connected so the people are the same)}

Anyways this person has short hair and quite boyish irl Lol And then in the dream I’m the first to react and wished her happy birthday

Lmaoo that’s all I can remember

_{Ok I think it’s because although my secondary school squad has mentioned about organising a bday dinner on 22/3 aka the day, they eventually didn’t do anything so I went to my usual cat cafe alone for the night lol But the next day they whatsapped about organising the meal on 29/3 (someone started a vote but seems two can’t come) (well I don’t think they can make it, idc) (maybe I care a lot cuz I dreamt something similar, but LMAO ok I don’t care, yeah… just a bit :P cuz I “reserved” a night for them haha)} (Regarding the people in my dream, none of them are part of my squad lol) And there are 6 people (including me) in my squad, but I think there are >10 in the dream, it’s like the chinese 一圍檯

_{Wow as I’m typing, the person who started the vote started another vote with way more timeslots for us to choose hahahahaha awh so determined (Oh btw the person is Jamie aka the girl who didn’t notice I was suffocating from the cake; unknowingly helped me explain about me “naturally pressing the search bar on prnhub” etc, she’s a nice person lol)}

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