had multiple dreams where I was spending time/ having different classes with my new PBL group for CFB

shisha with friends

#exchange

After class. Went to a bright cafe to shisha w exchangemates _{(well I did went shisha once with one of the girls recently irl)} I picked the flavour for the shisha- a mix of passionfruit and two other fruity flavours (which is the same as irl) I was wondering if Arthur would come shisha with his friends/ colleagues. But I knew it was unlikely because he was a healthy person who did not have such bad habits.

I was having the shisha and chatting with my friends, who was sharing about what areas of the city was safe for citizens because currently we were under attack/ war. She was drawing a map for us to read. Where we currently were was at the city centre & close to the city border which was the right lower corner, where it was relatively safer, with more commercial activities and markets. While the areas further upwards to the left there was a bricked wall commemorating the efforts of the fallen soldiers and citizens, and there was a waterfall to the left of the bricked wall. And that area was very dangerous as it was in the rural areas and the borders with the neighbouring places were unclear, so it was easy for adventurers to be targeted and killed. Also, the areas outside city centre were generally less secure and you would get traced for speaking something wrong/ more controversial.

I closed my eyes to imagine the map, and I didn't know I took a nap until it was almost time to leave. I looked at my shisha which I haven't took much sips of, feeling kind of a pity because I wasted my money lol. But we paid and left the shop happily.

losing slippers after swimming class

#uni

we had a group session and we listened to Calv*n C's big plans about his AI projects and how he made multiple AIs with funny names like DeepSok

later we had a swimming class, and I separated from my PBL group. I chatted with another classmate casually _{(Ir*s who sit in front of me in exam), until I reached the pool and we parted ways.}

I forgot the middle part of the dream but anyways, I lost my pair of slippers when I finished swimming. And I met with another friend who also lost her pair of slippers. We walked around the pool a bit and she decided to go to citysuper which was directly right of the pool to find her slippers/ buy another pair. I was planning to walk the pool a bit more since we just walked once in one side of the pool, but I decided to follow her. She told me she would just buy a new pair. I was thinking I wouldn't do that because slippers still cost a bit of money and I have not checked thoroughly yet. She went to pay and I went to the discount area. There were a lot of people around the rotating stand where they put a lot of ointments and stuff – like toothpaste, mosquito repellents, soap, wet wipes... And I chatted with a stranger 師奶 about which one had the biggest discount and it was kinda interesting. I didn't buy anything eventually though, and recalled I still needed to find my slippers. I was contemplating if I should also buy a new pair instead.

_{I think I dreamt citysuper because my mum had quite a few vouchers from it and she wanted to give it to me yesterday as she wouldn't use it, but I wouldn't go citysuper either.}

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terrible gigantic argument with mum at wellness team waiting room

#T #mum #secschool

It is my birthday today. I felt a bit bad so I went to sit in the wellness team office. The waiting room was spacious. It was actually a big computer room. I sat there for a long time but couldn’t pacify myself, and my trembles continued, and I was still crying. So Vincci came and check on me. And she gave me a notebook to write what kind of subjects I chose during secondary school. So I listed all 13 from junior high and 7 in senior high. We carried this book with us to our uni entrance, and we sat at the middle of the slope where everyone would walk down to exit school. Ashley walked by and gave me a jellycat peanut keychain as a birthday present. She wished me happy birthday. Then I recalled (knew about in the dream that) it was my birthday. I was very thankful of her for remembering and the birthday wishes and I bursted into tears again. Some other old secondary classmates who also walked by said hi to me. After a quick while Ashley came back and apologetically took away my gift (which weirdly became a white plushy rather than the peanut), saying that she had recognised me wrongly and gifted wrongly. Still crying from receiving the gift, I was a bit sad but thought to myself that it wasn’t a big deal to be sad about yet I sobbed.

I think we went to a supermarket afterwards to check out on desserts yogurt and ice cream. _{(irl yogurt is my mum’s favourite and I’d pick ice cream.)}

Vincci was still next to me and we went back to the waiting room. My mum came to the room as she found out somehow that I would be here. Probably she checked my geolocation or she saw my notebooks, which I was deliberately not writing about therapy most of the time. When she saw me, she looked crossed, but when she saw Vincci beside me, she rose from the stool and put up a smiley face full of gratitude and thank her for taking care of me. I was angry and loudly told her to stop being so fake and put on a show when she dislike student wellness team _{(idk if she does irl but very likely, if she knows about it)}. So she scolded me back for wasting time talking to strangers and trusting them. That I was a total letdown and I couldn’t even study properly. I was furious and upset so I also stood and yelled at her telling her that she didn’t even understand how come my study is so bad, she never asked about my mental health and she ignored all the issues that I presented at home and those I told her about. She knew that my mind was so bad I was lost at school. I couldn’t even recall important stuff about myself. That I was in my room abnormally moody and I only showered every five days. I was yelling at her and getting very irritated every day and I never smiled but she didn’t even think anything beyond that! She only cared about the results I bring forward. But it was never me.

When she heard me yelling and screaming at her, it triggered her and she also yelled back with such explosive temper like usual.

At the midst of our argument, I also yelled at Vincci in frustration to see how me and my mum are both double-faced with such dramatic emotions. (To clarify the loudness is simply because I was arguing and I wouldn’t randomly speak in a low tone to another person. Not that I have beef with Vincci)

I’m too tired to write down our arguments, and I couldn’t remember them anyway. But we had a terrible big loud argument and my voice was coarse again. But it still did not reach her.

_{Maybe Arthur is right about I shouldn’t be expecting from my parents as we knew how they’re like. But I am lonely in this little place which is supposedly home.}

post exam driving

#uni

During exchange, I went to a distant place to have an exam, so a prof drove me there. On the way back I drove a part of the highway back with my riolu on my lap, and Cecot in backseat lol. But I got distracted by it after a pause of waiting other cars to pass- as in I forgot to start driving again and I became too focused on my doll. So Cecot said he would drive it and I sit at the back. Reluctantly (because I like driving), we swapped seats. When we reached the urban streets, I asked if I could try to drive. He said “you need more experience to handle the road.” I’m like ok Then I asked “how can I train my attention as I couldn’t see the rest of my vision if I look at the lane in front of me,” He replied, “by training.” I was left speechless because he wasn’t answering me. Maybe he was annoyed by my previous mistake of not focusing on the road. But I asked, “training?” in hopes of clarification. And he said “yes.” … so I asked “what kinds of training?” I think he was planning to answer, but at this point he already arrived at a parking spot and I had to get off. He asked me, “is it over?” (This part starting was all in canto) I asked “what do you mean by it, if you’re talking about my module then I completed it, if you’re talking about the exam then yeah?” And he repeated, “is it over?”

So I was very confused and kept thinking what’s over until I woke up.

But now after typing this down I realised he just probably wanted me to end the conversation.

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#arthur #mum #uni _{Not much dreams, or maybe I didn't actively recall them so a lot was lost}

抬頭又是湛藍天。

feb 20

Session w arthur after a long long time

And I spent the time scolding him for his incorrect thinking/ opinions and ideals that he had for a long time that I didn’t mention my disagreement before.

feb 22

Mystery man.

PBL mass session. Assigned to a group sitting in a rectangle. Pleasantly surprised the tutor is someone I know. He invited me to sit next to him. Turned out he manually put me into his group, haha. Later a uni friend of mine also came to our group and sit slightly diagonally opposite to me. I was happy, I guess he deliberately assigned him to our group too. I leaned next to him (tutor), I told him if he’s guiding the group then I would start to enjoy and love PBL lol.

I woke up peacefully after quality time in the dream. Who’s this guy? It felt astoundingly familiar. And the leaning as well. I’m not sure if I looked at his face in the dream, I probably did at the start, but not once I sat down. And which uni friend? I forgot as soon as I woke up. Feels nostalgic and warm, but a little bit empty because I don’t know/ forgot who they were but they’re definitely irl people. :(

25 Feb

random

Throwing up in dream Saw i have a pair of 麵包鞋 trainers with thick shoelaces

26 Feb

nostalgic touch

Meeting arthur for an informal session Sitting next to him at a food court Leaned my head to his arm as we talk He was wearing short sleeved shirt So I was also touching the sleeves as I was leaning and talking I also recognised the faint scent of him Comfy and cozy A bit nostalgic

A lot of different things in the long dream I think at some point I wanted to masturbate in this little room i got in the dream- and somehow this city I live in was infamous for messed up hostel rooms by too much sex by guests While I was setting up the pillows they were airing 春晚 on the tv as well- and a rather famous hk singer sang the lyrics wrong and switched back to the original lyrics in the middle which was quite obvious. While I was almost done with setting up I noticed the “door” is just a fabric curtain and there is a big angle where I can have eye contact with a random girl outside the door- so I didn’t masturbate

Towards the last scene I was drawing. I was drawing a train ticket. And then I planned to trace the shape of an (/my?) actual ticket onto the drawing to cut it out Dad offered a high quality expensive paper for me to draw but I need to cut it into a strip shape rather than a rectangular ticket I rejected the idea and after a few times and he let me be Later mum came and kept looking at me while I was doing my artwork I felt extremely annoyed as I told her to not look but she kept reappearing- I told her I felt like I am a fish in the aquarium kept being observed and supervised She said you are I told her isn’t there any other things you should be busy on, go work on your stuff But she doesn’t have other stuff to work on I was angry ans I was about to tell her then tidy our messy home- but at this point I became aware that I was dreaming, so I lost a big chunk of anger and I don’t see the point of telling her to tidy stuff in the dream. And I woke. _{I spent the whole day lying on my bed. It’s 2347 and I still haven’t moved.}

27 feb

scratches

I still see scars on my wrist/ forearm- 2 deep ones with the shape of human nail marks other than the light scratches with a blade i guess

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Halloween event: searching Ruth's Guinea pig in Disney

#ruth #chinok #secschool #uni

I was having dinner in school food court, assigned into tables with secondary school schoolmates (weren't that familiar). One of the waiter seemed a bit intellectually disabled + mentally handicapped, a bit schizo some of the classmates accidentally and unknowingly provoked him by saying things that didn't align with what the waiter was saying when he came around to serve dishes. During the most serious time, the waiter seemed he was about to explode. So I spoke up and chatted along with the waiter and agreeing on his points (which were diverted from what he was mad about), so I swap his attention away We sort of had a conversation which was not too meaningful, but enough to stop him from exploding. He's like a damp firepit now

I felt relieved.

Later we all had to go to a computer room. I was chatting a bit loudly until we entered, and I realised the people inside the room were super silent. I was kinda embarrassed but luckily I realised the silence pretty soon so I wasn't that embarrassed. Turned out they were assessing the audio noise in their headphones. So basically we had to record voices and noises using the headphones w microphone and equipment we got assigned with, but in order to eliminate unnecessary noises, like the accidental breaths into the microphone, the school will determine our personal baseline noise level first.

And we had to get the equipment and then participate in a halloween event by wellness team. (I wasn't sure whether the equipment was related to the event, but the event was definitely organised by wellness team)

So we were watching a slides presentation in the room to get briefed about the event. So Ruth got a golden guinea pig. (imo it is a very cute cat, but somehow it said guinea pig so guinea pig it is) And she put it somewhere in Disney. And we were going to find it. There were clues about the guinea pig, like size data, a picture of Ruth dressed in feminine clothes by the shore; (and also more info about ruth- like which district and which building she lives in – I was like SEE i think she lives in mid-levels) _{(not confirmed irl- just purely my imagination)}

And very quickly our group is leaving to catch the Disney shuttle van. But I was far from ready. I needed to wear my socks, my shoes, get my disney headband, pack my bag... and my phone started to glitch as well- the keyboard function broke. And I can't interact with anything, I tried sending messages in our team chat but it would just send random stickers and irrelevant texts. Chinok looked over to check on me as I looked confused. and I was choosing which plushies to bring with me, as I have a few- a disney related kuromi, a momonga, a dumbo...

They asked me/ looked like they wanted to wait for me, so I told them not to wait for me, and go on the 6 shuttles and I will catch them later

I eventually took dumbo I think because it was the most comfortable and softest to touch. _{(Dumbo was a high school christmas present from 6grass to me during school christmas party- and jau touched it during the party so I was overjoyed)}

i rushed out in the rain, keeping dumbo under by coat in my chest/ where the heart was, to get on a shuttle metro cuz the road led me there (i was kinda lost and I thought the metro won't be too far from the shuttle van destination as they were both Disney related) But the metro actually went back to the urban districts (there was a hidden mini side / another Disney park)

I was like oh,,, and then I wondered what if we got kinda tricked and actually Ruth hid the guinea pig there instead. And I checked the slides and saw one of the photo is the disney receipt and there was the disney address it was actually this one that I was heading alone

The metro line was brown, just like the Tuen Ma line. _{(maybe because I rode that line during the day to get to my driving school)} I got off around that disney station (the station didn't say there was a disney though) Hopped on a bus. But later it was in a traffic jam as it was Halloween and there were so many people on the street. (The road was like shared with pedestrians, so the bus cannot force through) I got off immediately and walked along the street to find the place where Ruth took her picture.

I walked past the crowd and went up an alley. There were many rats running around but I still walked up quickly. I wanted to find the guinea pig. There were less and less people gathering there as it was more unhygienic and secluded. I imagined her exposed legs. Rather slim and smooth. I looked at her hands. Ahaa. And she put on kinda sexy eye makeup. _{(huh interesting she always wore long pants irl)}

Eventually I arrived at a cliff on the mountain, and looking down was the coast. It was the place Ruth took her pic. But not the exact spot. There was an escalator down to the seashore so I went down to see whether that would make me closer to the spot. Tried and didn't. I planned to took the escalator back up when I saw a mini museum thingy, so I asked the entrance security guard about the guinea pig, whether she knew about it or even was taking care of it in case someone gave it to her. She had no recollection of it, and she seemed uninterested in our convo

I took the escalator back up and found the exact spot. I imagined Ruth in a beach dress just like in the pic, standing by the rock “fence” thing by the cliff, and just enjoying the wind and beautiful scenery.

I can't find any guinea pig though. Then my phone received a group chat message (group of all participants including those from other teams), people asking whether it was the location on her receipt. I was like shit, they discovered, and I don't like the fact that they would be the one finding guinea pig and this nice secret destination that should be just for the both of us

So I kinda panicked and tried to run around back and forth to find the guinea pig. I wanted to be the one who find it. (And get noticed by Ruth.)

And I woke up.

_{Now after I wake up I think I could read the guinea pig data file, what if the guinea pig is so small that I can't see without really checking every bush/ every blade of grass? What is the Guinea pig? Something atypical? Who knows? Maybe I need to make use of all the given information.}

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actually had a long dream but I can only remember this so far

med tutorial presentation

#uni #adrian #sally

I was sitting at the far corner at the back of the classroom again. It was a class where med students present their group projects. I didn't need to present though.

After the presentation, the presenters would initiate a Q&A session. The teacher at the back picked the person to answer questions. I was pretty scared cuz I didn't pay attention during the presentations, and I didn't really know what they were talking about. (very boring stuff like immunization in the community)

But the teacher said my name !! So I became alert and sat straight immediately. Turned out the teacher wanted me to pick a person. I immediately searched through the class to see who I wanted to pick. But all were either not really familiar, or I thought they wouldn't be paying attention and such, wouldn't know the answer. I picked Adrian eventually, while hoping he would know the answer.

I looked at him anxiously, and was relieved again when the teacher told Adrian to pick another person. And Adrian picked Sally. (I wouldn't think Sally would know the answer as well, actually I didn't think the whole class paid attention. But Sally was sitting next to her group of friends, so they could come up with an answer. (me and Adrian were sitting alone))

And Sally discussed with her friends and answered the questions/ raised questions during Q&A. Kind of relieved hahaha

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late for gathering late for lecture

#secschool #PBLmate #uni

So at the first part of the dream it was so funny that I chuckled out loud while sleeping, and woke myself up for half a second. But I forgot why...!!

In the later part of the dream I was late for a meal gathering with school friends. My secondary school classmates ate some snacks on the road while waiting for me. And when I arrived, it was time for them to leave. Jamie, Ashley and a few others were walking down a stopped escalator. I tried to step on it but instead, I moved the standing conveyor belt so my classmates almost tumbled down the escalator. They were jokingly asking if that was deliberate, but I really didn't mean to, so I felt a bit sad, but I laughed with them, and I slid down on the handrail.

Later I collected their trash (like food wrappings), and I went to take a lift to go down to the food court so that I can discard it.

Carrie (another primary/ secondary school classmate) was going to take the lift with me. The lift was very narrow and very... squashed. Carrie entered first. She “rolled” inside the lift, and there was still space for me to enter. So I roll inside as well. As we were descending, I grabbed my dress and any flying parts that might get stuck in the edges of the lift, as the lift is like a basket and there were no complete walls to protect us. It was quite scary honestly, but Carrie seemed to be used to it. And I felt a bit more reassuring when she's accompanying me.

I kind of not remember what happened next but anyways we got to the basement food court safely and stuff

oh and I went to eat with our PBL group in a relatively busy but okay-ish restaurant in the food court.

oh yeah the heading, so basically i was late for that meal as well, and later I was also late for lecture. And I was also writing an assignment essay in the dream, idk for which lecture though. But anyways I was pretty busy in the dream but I kind of liked how I am being productive. I was kinda upset on how I was late to everything though.

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nice library study tables

Maybe because I went to the library pretty early so there were a lot of vacant solo tables with just about right amount of sunshine that was shining the table but not too hot. It was nice.

mum threw away my phone

as a punishment I think mum threw away lots of stuff like two of my phones. Actually the family were doing a biggggg tidy up at home. But finally mum gave me back my two phones, she was just trying to scare me because I wasn't polite to her. I felt annoyed

Also I was chatting with quite some people (regular amount) on WhatsApp, and the interface design was like Line, which was very cool, but slightly confusing when there were many ads and non-friend official accounts.

practical stations at bookstore. wilted plant, solo practical

#ivan #jy #uni #mum #dad

We had a practical session at a large facility which was half clinic half bookstore. There were a total of three stations (initially, clinic waiting area, vaccine area and bookstore) (idk why later on there were many different stations). Ivan was in a different station for rotation.

I was being super loud with my friends, because I discovered the plant I had been caring for had wilted, and I was cleaning away the dead branches. And my classmate was saying there were bugs on my plant and I insisted there wasn't, cuz there wasn't, so she picked up a giant bug and put it on my shoulder, so I shrieked loudly. So the very strict teacher in Ivan's station were scolding the students in their station, including Ivan (cuz the environment was loud). They looked like they were used to the scolding and so they apologised in a very hea manner. I felt bad for them because I was the one who made it so loud.

Next I was a bit distracted by the surrounding, and when I turned around, they rotated, but I couldn't find which station my groupmates had rotated to. I searched the clinic and the bookstore and asked other students, but they didn't know too. Ivan had finished a clinic session called “vaccine”, but my groupmates weren't there. So I just randomly started following an unknown group at the bookstore, listening to how the teacher was teaching drawing styles for anatomy I think?

And later this group had rotated to a nearby station also in the bookstore, it was a tech/ vr session by JY (aka that dude). I began to start feeling a bit nervous and slightly shaking. I was also holding a book with both hands and I put the book behind my back covering my butt. I kinda shrink in a way I wasn't standing straight. I was among the front row people though. So not exactly hiding. I think the people sitting at the waiting area nearby were looking closely at me for my reactions. Not the group that I was having the practical/ this station with though. However it kinda surprised me because JY was trying to teach and speak in cantonese entirely, and his cantonese was kinda broken. I was wondering if it was because the faculty forced him to use cantonese instead of mandarin, and I found it slightly funny. I am still stressed though, so I abandoned this group and went searching for another practical group that I can stick to.

The next group was a very boring chinese poem analysis group. The teacher was having KY Yuen vibe but not him. We had to follow his words to write notes.

After this station I went to read (actually just watch) a couple of drawing books, and then I went back to the place where I had the drawing style practical. There was a new station where we can read art techniques books and look at the samples, and the teacher also talking about it. This was like my favourite station in the whole practical.

Finally, somehow my mum and dad gave me a chance to get an extra station with the boring KY Yuen vibe guy. Initially I was trying to dodge it by going into different book aisles to find books I liked. But eventually I think they spotted me and so I was back with learning the poems and stuff. I got a cool fountain pen where stuff I wrote would became popping out- like plasticky feeling pop out words. So I was writing down the poem sentences the dude was talking about on the corners of my book. Maybe he found that I was quite studious, so finally he played some music while he read a paragraph in the book (he had a copy of the book too). He was crying while reading it. I used my pen to frame out this paragraph, while thinking, this pen design was pretty interesting, and the texture was super fun to touch (* repeatedly touches my notes *) maybe the blind people can learn braille with it. Or maybe if the teacher only had like two students, the teacher can just set up exercises and exam papers by handwriting them with this pen. And there was no need for a braille printer. This was so good. Eventually the KY Yuen dude ended his class in tears (he's too invested in his paragraph and it was about time as well), and my mum and dad were gonna talk to him about the class. Meanwhile I walked off again to check stationery and books I liked, and I put down all the books I planned to buy/ liked, because they weren't necessary anyways.

Later my dad came to find me. He sort of ask if I wanted it- I was holding a memo holder. And then he asked what are the places nearby to have lunch, we're gonna have lunch with the KY Yuen dude. I just kinda froze and looked at him, because I was thinking, you guys wanna have lunch and you're asking me for ideas and do all the stuff again... (I also didn't want the memo holder too) _{(Maybe it was because they were pushing me to have a haircut, but urged me to do the reservation for the haircut. I did it but I was annoyed)}

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“broken static screen”

Turned out I didn’t connect my laptop to power After connecting it my external screen static was gone and it was fixed perfectly Mum kinda laughed at me, we laughed together

fried pork bento for Adrian

#mum #dad #uni Travels I got a bento for Adrian But he’s pretty quick in walking back to his dorm So I had to walk quickly to chase but he’s just too quick (he didn’t know I had gotten a bento for him though) Mum and dad were following me to ask me what I was doing I haven’t gave him his bento yet

Travelling w friends/ classmates, chocolatier

#Ivan #PBLmate Sharon A. Y., Ernest, Matthew #cecilia ’s grandma (cut croissant) #caitlyn

Friends travelling together I was a bit hungry while Caitlyn couldn’t finish her meal (chocolate drink), so I finished it up. When we were leaving The serving/ return tray counter, gave me a free set of milk+ chocolate croissant set, as she apologise for “Poor chocolate made”

Other than this set I got two more croissants too. C’s grandma came and seemingly wanted to eat. Me, thinking I couldn’t finish them all anyways, welcomed her and she immediately started cutting croissants as if they were all hers. I was slight slightly surprised but didn’t mind. The grandma cut them very quuckly and well, and I recalled they operate a bakery shop (in the dream). She cut the two horns, and then cut the middle, to show me what fillings were inside. One is a very rich dense chocolate, another has cream inside. Another one feels like matcha. I shared the croissants with her.

I saw the receipt also said I was full year free customer as well.

Anyways they look delicious

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very annoying mum always at my back

#mum In this dream I have a little bro and mum and also a schoolmate Mum liked to follow me EVERYWHERE i wanted to find new rooms to hide but she just always found me im so so so annoyed oh my god

I wanted to team up with little bro and schoolmate to hide from her but little bro liked to stick to mum bruh

So annoying !!!! Onl9… maybe let’s rename it to be ln9 Bruh

scary people outside home

#uni #secschool #dad

More and more strangers were crowding/ walk by my home some people that looked like young construction workers went in my home when mum didnt unlock the ftont door, just to put down random items (that mum had left before) Mum forbade me to go out, and I am scared too. Dad was also forbidding me to go.

More and more crowds were outside, and wearing weird clothings. Colourful vibrant exotic clothings, As if a 百鬼夜行 was going on. One tried to enter again. I yell at them to try to make them go away. He was just trying to return something Mum had dropped before. I thought it was lying, so I continued to try to shoo him away, but Mum told me she really had dropped this before so it was real.

I could also see Ashley and Audrey via the door hole, along with other adults. And a creepy clown. They all came from the corridor (idk where exactly because the door hole had a limited view angle), and left from another small door (not there irl) by the emergency staircase. It was really like a parade rather than staying in front of my door. And they looked happy. (happily chaotic evil???)

Idk anyways because I needed to leave for whatever reason (maybe I needed to go to school), I had to change clothes. Mum was giving unsolicited advice again, while Dad was giving me more clothes to choose from, which was fueling Mum's points and ideas. Anyways I chose a relatively original outfit despite Mum saying it was ugly and bad.

I checked the outside situation again, and there were still a lot of people outside. But looking at all the stickers and encouraging words people have left for me/ I have written myself on my bedroom door, I thought it was time to actually try to go out despite it looking scary.

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huge argument bt me & mum

#mum Im legit yelling as hard as I can in the dream. She was very stubborn I felt very frustrated But she gave me a can of soft drinks later, so I was less furious but still angry.

proposed by unfamiliar classmate

#secschool #CCH #jamie #charlottec

Secondary school people all gathered in the hall (it was a dining hall by Vivienne Westwood??) for a special occasion. Apparently I’m gonna get proposed by a person. So I was guessing who’s the person. I almost thought it was Valerie, but I would be hesitant to accept it. And then I start thinking if it would be Jamie.

I saw the gifts they’re gonna give to me. They were commissioned drawings by really famous artists. I felt surprised and happy, but also worried because they must’ve spent a lot but I was hesitant…

Later CCH walked by to tell me it’s Joanne H. I was confused and double checked the name with her. I told CCH I didn’t really know her. CCH asked on what occasions had we met. I said EITP. CCH was confused so I explained it’s an IT extracurricular activity at school. That’s it. CCH asked if I wanted to accept the proposal. I was hesitant, and finally firmly said, no. CCH couldn’t really hide her slightly shocked face, and asked me how I would reject her. (Because the board at the hall had the names of pairs of proposed couples listed, there were like 6-7 pairs. It would be awkward if we were the only failed pair.

Meanwhile CCH walked away to ask for other teachers for advice (for me/ herself) And I’m brainstorming my script to reject Joanne. Jamie, who were on my left (in front of me in the queue), warned me she might be an NPD and she’s not gonna give up that easily.

I finished brainstorming my script and signalled CCH to come back because I got the idea. I’ll thank her first for the gifts and effort, and then I would explain we weren’t familiar with each other, so I’ll decline the proposal for now, but I’m willing to know more about her. I think that sounded appropriate! (What about the gifts! I don’t know too so I’ll leave that out of the speech.)

Anyways it’s time for all students to get up the stage. Somehow now Jamie was in front of Charlotte which was in front of me. I was locking arms with Charlotte, lol. While walking, I saw a girl holding a phone showing women rather suggestive images (but fr it’s just bikini photos… but more exposed) at the row behind us.

Interesting… 🤨

escape using pastel car

#uni After the rejection I guess (the dream didn’t show that section) I rushed to a nearby carpark. There was a man welcoming me by the gate, leading me down to the cars. He asked me embryology questions and influenza vaccination questions. I said I didn’t revise and I’ve forgotten them already, (it’s summer give me a break!) maybe I’ll revisit them when school starts. Anyways we went down to this empty carpark (no people, some cars) but occasionally there’s sounds. There were some random wild animals like skunks.

Suddenly I felt the urge to rush and hide. Seems Joanne was coming. I saw more cars suddenly turning on and steering away. I wanted to grab a car tok and I was about to grab this pastel pink? Purple car. (I have a cool dream item remote that can remote anything as I concentrate on it- exclusive to this current dream I guess) When I wanted to turn it on I noticed a car flickering its lights on me. It was a person in a car’s passenger seat. He wanted me to take the driver’s seat. The car was cuter and was the original design that I wanted to drive. It has a combination of multiple pastel colours, petite and had decorative wings on the sides? I got in and started driving. But the side mirrors were pretty bad, I can’t get them to open wide enough to see the back/ even side of my car. And the middle mirror was pretty unfair too because it leaned towards the passenger side. _{Somehow I felt unfair due to gender inequality because it was leaning towards the man’s side. But now outside dream it doesn’t really make sense. It’s just poor design.} Also it was very cramped inside. Anyways so I was driving blindly. I was planning to ask the male passenger to help me look at nearby cars, but I figured out he might have some blind spots too. So I haven’t asked.

Dream ended.

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