shower revision

All I remember is putting my revision notes on my toilet next to the shower. And I would open my shower door from time to time to peek at my revision notes to memorise it. I remembered the stack of note was literally the one I printed a few days ago. I haven't finished reading it since it was 34 pages long. (already very condensed) (I downloaded it off our goddisk (common drive for study resources)

---

I woke at 9:20. And I thought what a nice time! I finally woke in a reasonable time (though my alarm is 7:20). And then I closed my eyes again to revisit the shower revision dream for the dream log. But I fell asleep. BRUH. And now I got the following dreams to write ,,,,!!! Annoying. And I woke at 12:40. After writing the whole entry it is past 1pm now.

---

Thailand trip; exhibition hall puzzle; roasting A

Trip to Thailand, organised by Mum After getting off plane? ship?? literally idk, and stepping foot onto Thailand, Mum told us we would walk up the mountain to reach our hotel. _{(Think like the slope in CUHK, and we started at the foot of the hill and our hotel was near the top)} I asked my mum where was our hotel, because she hadn't mentioned it at all, and maybe because it was close that's why she suggested walking. Plus, I see some people queuing nearby, which, according to my another dream at this nearly identical location, was a shuttle bus stop.

She said it's somewhere in the mountains. I was like whatt and you suggested walking?? How about taking the shuttle instead.

She didn't look pleased. _{(She always doesn't look pleased at my suggestions, and at last she'll like it and take them as her original idea. It happened with my mask. She hated me buying a new design of the mask and also said it was so thin and bad, I shouldn't buy. She wouldn't use it. She said I gotta pay for it myself (but eventually she paid for it too) Guess what! She opened the package when I wasn't there and she tried this mask and claimed this one is the best and she only uses this type now! She doesn't use the one she usually pick !!!! bro!! I only have one pack because I thought only I'd use so I bought little !!!! And now I have to share with her!!! And she denied she disliked the mask at the beginning. She said, “what, I said I liked it! I wanted to buy it! Why didn't you buy more for yourself!” I'm just so fed up)} I said see the shuttle is coming. (Indeed a bus was arriving at the station). It's so near! So we walked quickly to catch the shuttle. We got in.

Since we were the last to get in, we get the seats at the back. Actually it was a “room” in the bus. There are four bidets in the room with no doors and walls.

Later I got off. (I wasn't sure if my family got off too). I arrived at an exhibition centre. Today's event is Children's carnival? Where a lot of companies were selling their kid's toys. I went to a giant booth near the entrance. They were selling magnetic chinese characters kids can stick on the wall and compose their own sentences. There were three types. One was generic colourful blocks like lego, and there are no words on it. but you assemble many colourful blocks to imitate the shape of chinese characters. Second was parts of a chinese words, like 爫 夂 心 亻these. I wanted to assemble 愛, but the kid next to me took away the 心 part so I can only make a 受 _{I think this idea came from a post I was reading on xiaohongshu yesterday, it was about a man sending wechat stickers of 曰十 to make 早 to greet his gf every morning, but eventually his gf told him the full set of sticker was 艹曰十 which was 草} Third was actual magnets with a printed chinese character on itself. The board we were working on during the event was actually pretty interesting. I was originally squatting down with other kids to play with the second type of magnets. There are a lot of messy words, but still generally ordered. And then I stood up. And wow, the middle to top part of the board were all magnets of the third type. And the previous people had made very sophisticated paragraphs with them. The board was full of words. Like millions of ants. wow There were still some space for me to fill in some words. I think they were kind of deliberate because they looked like fill in the blanks. One says, “我最渴望： (blank)(proceed with a large paragraph of other deep stuff)” and then I found two magnets that were unused in any paragraph. So I stuck on that blank spot. It was “自”“由”.

Later I left. While I was leaving Chloe Cheung saw me. A childhood friend. Closest in kindergarten, and one particular year in secondary when we were neighbours again. She started chatting with me. We chatted on our way to the shuttle bus stop (yes gonna take the shuttle although idk where I would be going)

Boarded the shuttle bus. She board it in front of me. A was on the bus. Chloe sat with A. A was smiling at me in a way she was sneering at me that Chloe chose her over me. Anyways I roasted her hard while I was walking to my seat behind them. While I was walking, A yelled, Ouch~ So painful, you hurt me I literally accidentally tapped Chloe only, I roasted her I didn't even touched her, everyone can see on the bus, I won't apologise for things I didn't do, and she should go see a doctor if she's feeling imaginary pain And then I turned to Chloe to apologise for the light tap in front of A, which kinda humiliated A Anyways I kept on roasting her while I was on the shuttle. Maybe I was telling her her actions are incredibly rude to people who cut their thighs. And another girl on the shuttle laughed, she said, I am literally cutting my thigh rn lmao. I looked at her and saw her thigh was rather bloody and the cuts were deep.

garden w Dad, finding new gardens

Dad late for his gathering with his brothers, supposed they meet in the afternoon or noon at Shenzhen, but it was already 5 something pm, almost 6, his bros were finding him on whatsapp Dad looked amused with no guilt/ remorse whatsoever. Before leaving the house, he came to ask me on his whatsapp problem because he said he already replied ok but they didn't seem to respond. I checked his phone and told him he didn't hit the send button.

He sent the message and his bros continued to chat in the whatsapp group So maybe he didn't find it urgent to meet up with them and he walked me around the flower garden instead.

He told me supposed the flower garden was owned by them (the family), but because he was late and irresponsible for everything, he and his bros lost the right to own the garden. He said with a cheeky smile, as if he was “proud” of it. I find it disgusting.

Also the garden is full of big red flowers. Very healthy and pretty. Interspersed were some green watering devices which would auto-rotate and water the plants around it. Looked like a showerhead but somehow in the dream I found it looking like a dick. I stopped to get a closer look. Dad told me another garden had this kind of devices too, but that garden owner used some white cloth, disguised as white flowers, to lightly cover the watering device, so that part wasn't showing.

After that we went to check out gardens that were available for own (sale? rent? idk) There were only around 2-3 available. In the dream we explored the first one. The garden wasn't really big, the size is like a small hall. Actually there aren't flowers in the garden. It was seats. As if like a hall. The seats were ¾ occupied. But it was still kind of spacious.

In the garden there were three animals. Garden owner's pets. One cat, one... maybe hamster?, and one white dog. The environment was slightly messy though. The food is on the floor next to where they laid down. They didn't seem hungry. I used a stick to move the food on the floor closer to their mouth. The cat food looked like diced meat (肉碎), the dog's food is... a piece of human patella (knee cap bone). The cat ate some. The dog ignored me.

While I was strolling, my dad was still next to me. He hadn't left to meet up yet. Bruh.

_{I think it's because Dad actually had a gathering with them in Shenzhen, and he was indeed late (not this much though I think). Mum was scolding him to leave quickly because it's only 30 minutes till meetup time, but he's still at home.}

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

return trip from Korea

I travelled alone to Korea for sightseeing, today was the day I would take the plane to return to HK.

I needed to apply for a “visa” for passing the customs at Korea’s side People told me I needed to use a wechat 小程序 to fill in my personal details, then go to another location for the next step I was confused because I don’t know what’s the name of the 小程序 they were using, and where/ what for next step

Originally planned to do this visa application the day before I leave, but because I didn’t figure it out in the hotel, I was doing it on the metro on the way to the airport

I was kind of lost so I asked a family who’s speaking cantonese on the metro to help

The father was nice and explained to me. The young boy and his mom looked okay too.

During our conversation a 師奶 walked into us, wanting to interrupt our conversation, I just nodded my head while the father continued to talk to me and our convo didn’t stop. Later I saw the woman’s face. It was one of the parents in our dizi class irl, and she’s the kinda annoying and self-centered one who’s into veganism and buddhism _{(oh I remembered my mum telling me they organised a dinner the year when I graduated in order to ask what degree I got into (I was the youngest in the class) and then after my mum answered the group, some congratulated, some were confused they didn’t know what the abbreviation stand for, after my mum explained, the rest of the confused people congratulated too, just except her! She’s making a 🤨 face according to my mum)}

Anyways yeah so I thanked the father

Later I went to a floor in a big station There was a station for making visa (probably) on this floor I wasn’t sure, so I walked around and sit in one of the benches

I met Valerie (f2 neighbour) She brought me to lunch at the canteen downstairs together while I was solving this visa application issue on my phone

There were different restaurants in the canteen- some healthy 米線; KFC; snacks etc We opted for snacks

… forgot what happens next

But I remembered I was lying in my bed again, door slightly open, corridor was dark but eerily my mum’s face appeared within the darkness, looking straight at me. I growled angrily in the dream because she’s doing this creepy shit again

Later I went to jot down my dream. (When I woke up I found that this didn’t happen irl and now I have to write again)

_{But I’m actually confused if the mum’s face is part of the dream or not, because when I really woke up, actually I woke up to my mum entering my room, so I growled again, but she won’t leave, she’s like a robot asking me if I need to turn on aircon, to which I angrily decline, and her hands continue reaching for the button and I growled and bruh she ask me if I want to open the windows I refused again and she continued to walk to my window bruh she’s not listening. Anyways finally after growling and screaming in frustration she left without altering my room. Terrible thing to wake up to. (I mean the fact that I have to scream. Not her.) Seems “going crazy” doesn’t affect her anymore. And she also won’t listen if I am being “normal and reasonable and speak in a normal tone”. She listens to nothing except herself. She lives in her own world.}

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

So many dreams every day and they’re not exactly entertaining aaaauuughh I just wanna finish writing and head to studying

high school class

Morning lessons. In high school. I was sitting front row, second leftmost seat, in front of teacher’s desk (teacher’s perspective would be second rightmost) Aunt Atlex _{(Mon’s friend thatwe go buffet together irl) (doesn’t teach irl)}teaching us … I’m not sure what subject, but she’s using Chinese to teach an English-based subject Classmates were kind of surprised because she was trying to use very layman way to teach difficult concepts, which I think wasn’t bad

Afterwards my BAFS (Accounting) teacher irl, Mrs. Chui, came in. It’s BAFS lesson, but told us to take out our maths textbooks and calculators because she’s gonna teach us maths for BAFS And by teaching maths instead of BAFS she can skip a Mainland study tour she was required to go in the afternoon. We laughed because these F1 study tours were kind of boring and pointless and she’s smart to avoid going

Game server tester

Playing a 3D game again Someone invited me to be a tester for their new map/ game

Point and click on two anime style girls to remove different parts of the drawing- front hair, side hair, limbs, eyes, different parts of the dress etc. The left design was more sophisticated than the right. The right one I directly click the head and whole head gone, but the left one had many hair parts to remove. The right one was darker- black short hair black jk style long dress with red highlights, like a cool assassin; left one was light blonde coloured hair? And pinkish dress kind of like in lolita style. After clicking these parts would disappear. So I clicked till everything disappeared. The story proceeded (new dialogue appeared)

The background was the universe At the place of the two drawings, two “planets” appeared. Upon closer look, one was indeed a planet, the other is a poorly 3D sculpted “thing” of two heads- one women and one men. Sculpting style like those very old classic ones you see in a museum- very western michelangelo ones, but ugly and kind of eerie because they’re just “heads” no “body”

Anyways I can again, point and click to make them disappear As the dialogue box told me the man had died, I coincidentally clicked on his head, so his head was gone, the woman’s head remained

Anyways throughout this whole time my laptop kept being weird as fuck and kept zooming out the universe and lagging. I need to rezoom it with my trackpad

One time it even froze and all my words on the screen are gone, the dialogue and error boxes are empty, system tray empty, taskbar empty, and then an error window popped up, which said nothing, with two buttons, one was empty and another one is “關閉並報警” I just saw the first few words “close” and the button is at the familiar corner where you “ok” and “accept” everything so I clicked it instantly After clicking I processed omg the latter half said “and call the cops” I waited a few seconds to see if new stuff popped up on the screen about calling the cops, nothing happened, I checked my phone, nothing happened, and I got a bit confused and worried what if the laptop is calling silently so I just Alt+F4 and force shut down my laptop And then I restarted it and connected my laptop to power

The zooming glitch still happened from time to time, but nothing as serious as the text bug reappeared

Anyways after that, the game dialogue told me to turn around in game and venture other planets / floating islands, lining up in two columns. Between the columns in the middle, directly in front of the “game host/ god/ diaglogue man” was a space station. The dialogue told me to go to the two planets the game had labelled for me But I was lost since every floating place had some sort of label/ lines to indicate their presence. Lines like laser beams connecting the island to the “god” (I can’t tell whether the beams were sent from god or from the island)

Anyways I hopped on a random place

And a gamemaster invited me to join their newly designed game To me, it was like the minigame bedwars in minecraft servers _{(why am I always dreaming about this particular minigame, I don’t play it usually)} Basically you start in teams and you guard your own island, which has your team’s beds for respawning if you die; and you go other islands to try and break their bed and kill them and wipe them out. Last person standing wins for their team

I didn’t tell him my impression of their original game being similar to minecraft (despite the graphics and blocks were very similar) though. The gamemaster seemed kind of cheeky and hard to interpret for me, so I didn’t dare to say it _{(maybe I dreamt it because yesterday night when I was returning home, on the metro was a mid40ish man chatting with a mid20ish guy about… “courses” which can change your poor habits and change your life. Maybe he’s something like a life coach?? But he looked a bit hideous oml, anyways the young guy asked him if it’s related to psychic stuff like souls, and the man was like “our course have incorporated a little bit of psychology”, kind of dodged the question about ghosts and just reassured the boy their courses are 正規, and proceeded to preach about “身心靈健康”… super weird. As if the man was brainwashing the boy. And also sitting nearby was a nicely dressed women who spoke nicely… but to herself… like the speaker announced 本班列車往沙田 and she began to talk to herself explaining to herself now it’s past midnight there’s no train to lokmachau bla bla bla so it is shatin as terminal now etc. originally i was sitting opposite to that woman instead, I didn’t dare to look directly at her, but I thought she wasn’t wearing earplugs and talking to people on the phone because her speech content didn’t seem like what you’d talk about. And she’s using both hands to gesture a lot while she’s making the speech to thin air, as if she was doing a presentation. So I pretended normally and walked away and sat in another bench, and the hard-sell psychic guy sat opposite to me……. Midnight trains were weird. Oh no I diverted the topic, back to the dream:}

Anyways our team won in the first round Second round I was fighting and the dream ended, we were kind of winning though But my laptop was so laggy I went to check if I’m indeed using my dedicated graphics card, but I can’t really understand the icons since the ones in my dream were different than in real life and I can’t pause the game so I had to bear with this poort gaming quality

Anyways that’s it

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

lost and found apple pencil

Mum wanting to go to a Japanese restaurant she wanted to go for a long time. * Idenical restaurant to one of the dreams previously. That time we went too late cuz it was so hard to find and Mum was too insisting to go and it was expensive so Mum only ordered one tray/ set of sushi

I was at mtr station – the floor with the gate machines to enter the “paid area of station” I had my apple pencil and iPad with me Idk what time, I found out I couldn't find my apple pencil. I lost it.

There were a lot of art booths on this floor. They were like little makeshift booths for people to draw individually. Seems organised by an art studio to promote their drawing courses. I was walking around and glance at every booth to see if someone took and was using my apple pencil. (Mine wasn't engraved, but I have stuck a masking tape on it, so it was identifiable) _{(I did that to my tendon hammer when I brought it to OSCA practice so it won't get taken mistakenly)}

Walked several (two?) rounds and found my masking tape on someone's table. Seems like they removed my tape from the pencil, so all I got was the tape. The person using the booth wasn't there, so I took the apple pencil on their desk.

Had a chat with several people on the way, were secondary school people. Sally was talking about the ad on the mtr wall which says Ado's concert. _{(The one we planned to go to but we couldn't buy the tickets)} Some I weren't even familiar with. One group was sitting around a table. Some because of 角度問題 of where I was at, were covered by something. One of the person asked me if I remember her, she's Zoe. I brainstormed who has this voice but name was Zoe. When I was thinking, she revealed the answer. I'm Zoe Tsang! After 1 second of me trying to rack my brain to think who she was, I remembered (one of my group members when I was group leader for my Spanish study tour in F2, when she was F1) I'm like ohhhh I remembered! aaa I was thinking of so many different surnames – Cheng, Wong, Chan... And one of the person sitting, said “and Lau.”, smiling slightly (later I realised that person's called Zoe Lau) (very unfamiliar schoolmate we weren't in the same class in any year from primary to secondary)

After that I walked alone again. Later I had the idea of checking my bag again. I saw something white at the bottom of my backpack. It was actually my lost apple pencil. Now I have two apple pencils. And the one I took mistakenly had engraving of the person's mandarin pinyin name, but I didn't notice when I was taking.

I was on my way of returning the wrong apple pencil when the dream shifted to another.

Gojo Satoru's hidden pics

Gojo Satoru (from Jujutsu Kaisen) was very pretty amd shared his photos all the time with others. He's like an internet sensation. Everyone liked his selfies and pics cuz yeah, they're looking nice.

One time me and my friends discovered maybe there was more underneath this “facade”, not exactly bad stuff but we just wanted to know more of his “unknown to the public” side.

We discovered other than the usual pics that he recruit photographers to help him take, he also had several sets of “private photos with private outfits”.

We somehow discovered the next schedule and location in which he would appear for taking these “private” photos. It was the little extension of the main campus bridge/ upper street where you go down to MTR A1 exit.

We went there and peeked. He was posing for photos. But he was bald. Maybe the usual white hair he had was just a wig. And my friend gasped because he was still very handsome even when bald. The next photo I forgot what that was, he either changed glasses or into a more casual shirt. Anyways he got surprised and afraid when he saw that we discovered his “little fetish”, so much he panicked and ran away immediately.

Anyways we got a glimpse in his private side. (* note: not sexual in any way. Didn't even think of that in the dream)

planning family trip

Mum wanted to travel. She told me to plan for the family trip especially on how to ride the mtr + 城際直通車 to get there (like around Shenzhen area, Guangdong??)

I asked her for the details and what exactly she meant but she told me to go find the mtr staff on concourse to answer my questions. She declared she would not help me with it. (I don't want to join the trip at all though, why am I the one planning. I was a bit annoyed in the dream)

anyways I asked a young female adult staff, maybe mid 20s kinda thin but healthy type of thin, and she answered and guided me patiently on different routes to arrive at different parts of the city (because Mum didn't answer my question on where exactly were we staying at, what hotel, what time and date), for example what was the most efficient route/ fastest/ convenient choice, operating hours etc.

I thanked her and I asked my mum for a pen to note down what the lady had said after she left. Something about Line 3 operates from 3pm to 5am; Line 5 operates from 5pm to 3am; I shouldn't take the Shenzhen green line metro because it had too many stations until airport east; I should consider the “城際直通車” which had only around 6 stations and therefore faster _{(no such thing in SZ i think, this idea was like the airport dark turquoise line in HK?)}

Suddenly Mum yelled at me to get on the metro. (Because she found out the metro can reach the Japanese restaurant she wanted to go) Mum and Dad were already on the metro when I was still concentrating on taking notes about the metro on the floor on the concourse

grab all my stuff (piles of paper – mtr map; pens; correction tape; heavy backpack) and ran on the metro, metro beeping and I got in Mum a bit surprised I made it Dad silent the whole time, he was just standing by the door It felt a bit tiring to catch up with all these “sudden matter”.

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

soil, argument, smartwatch

I was travelling in Japan with someone (I think it was a classmate) (edit: was my mum). We went into a clothes shop with two storeys. My classmate stayed at the bottom floor while I went to the second floor Suddenly someone (not my travelling partner) handed me a simply but nicely wrapped gift. It was a bday gift from Jamie. The wrapping style is also very “Jamie-style” in which she uses transparent plastic sheet as a wrapping paper around the bunch of goodies she bought for me, and sealing the wrapping paper with neon masking tape. Goodies included some candies (those very fun Japanese candies) and a bag of Zimbabwe soil. It was for my plant. She bought it while travelling/ doing charity service there. She wrote in the note she would have travelled to Hawaii during her African trip too. Meanwhile I wonder wasn't Hawaii in the US. _{(irl I was planning to buy soil for my plant for a while but never did. Last night before sleeping I checked the soil, seems like there's some mould, or excess salt building up on the soil again. Either way it was kind of unsatisfactory. Also kind of weird how oddly specific that it was Zimbabwe lmfao.}

After exiting the shop my friend needed to buy something in 7-11. (wait now I remember it was my mum) _(bruh)

I happened to be carrying my plant with me, so I wanted to put in the soil and get it done. I first wanted to isolate the “suspected mould”, so I picked the mould patches and put them in my mouth. Then from the second patch onwards I realised these were supposed to be inedible and bad for health (didn't realise it was bad because they looked like smashed oreo cookies and it was crunchy albeit tasteless), so I kept the next patches inside my mouth without chewing, and the final patch on my right palm. _{(irl back in Jan I didn't know why but I had a strong urge to swallow stuff, and I commented exactly to my friends the plant soil looks like oreo and I want to eat it. And how my anime acrylic holographic decorations looks yummy but they were too big so I can't really swallow them.)}

We were walking on the street finding 7-11, while I was also searching for rubbish bins so I can spit it out.

We saw a 7-11 right across the street and at the beginning of an upward slope so we went there. I waited outside 7-11. I saw a bin not that far away so I went and tossed my mouldy patches. I also tried to spit out those in my mouth, but the first few patches I can't because I already chewed and swallowed them.

There was a table for me outside 7-11 to sit and unwrap the gift. I opened the bag of new soil. I wanted to replenish the soil. But I accidentally 倒 too much and it overflowed the pot. Mum happened to place down a chocolate drink she just bought for me on the table. Some soil went on the surface of the drink. They blended in with the decorative chocolate powder which was already on the drink.

So after I was done with my plant I went to drink the chocolate, while clearly feeling the soil texture in my mouth (because although it looked similar to the chocolate powder, the powder wasn't crunchy, only the soil did. I didn't really much care, I tried to avoid eating the soil while sipping the drink though. I also tried to wipe away the soil around my mouth with my arms (the connecting area between forearm and arm). Because my fingers were already dirtied by the soil so I couldn't use my hands to wipe away.

While that, a group of kids were walking by the street, seemed like some kind of study tour, led by a teacher as their tour guide. They walked past our table. Nothing special though, they weren't really interested in what we were doing. Some noticed but didn't do anything. They behaved like typical pedestrians.

-

I remembered I was very angry at something that happened between these two events, but I forgot what it was the second I woke up :O I seem to remember a little.

I was in my parent's bedroom. I was standing on their bed, arguing with mum who was standing on the floor by the bed and I was throwing a tantrum, basically I was arguing whatever topic she threw at me. She started the argument first (She said something provoking and I escalated it). I forgot what the content was. But the main theme was her urging me to shower but I have other things to do; and I don't want to share my schedule or whatever with her and she's mad about it. There was more, because I was putting older “not that related” stuff to the table (She did it first). The argument was long, say like 20 minutes. After that she finally left me alone.

I was mad and infuriated during that time.

-

Afterwards I was scrolling reddit, I was on a subreddit that felt like r/AskReddit lol, and people were commenting some people's names. (I forgot the op's question). One of them were commenting a familiar name. I think it was one of the professors teaching public health (irl). Anyways I looked and find the user who posted this felt like ChiNok (the rhythm game boy), because the username was something like his name and gave me some music production vibes which he did. His previous profile picture was Loid (from spyxfamily) hugging his dog at an aquarium. Upon clicking inside his profile, I can see an updated profile pic, which were some pokemons running together (say like 4 Oddishes running together or 3 Poliwags running, I forgot what exactly was in the photo, I just remembered it was dull coloured (grey? blue? purple? tiny balls running) (doesn't feel like klink but it was that colour).

I looked at other comments he posted in other subreddits, he was giving advice on what smartwatches to buy.

After a while Mum returned to the bedroom I was in, and excitedly showing a pic of a black small cool smartwatch (looks like apple but apparently it was Huawei), asking me if she should buy it to 送人. (I was suspecting it was grandmother, whom she always complained to me about her being stupid, arrogant, rude, reluctant to listen to ideas etc. in real life) _{(Side note I aren't sure how bad grandmother is, but iirc she isn't that great. She tied the cat my aunt adopted and given to her (because 表妹 turned out to be allergic to cats so they can't keep it) to the balcony (every day) (she doesn't untie it) so that it wouldn't be a hassle to manage where it would go. Also I think my mum was going to be like grandmother, and I possibly would be like my mum/ grandmother in the future if there was no intervention :( going to be like the person you don't want to be like, because that's the type of “education” you grew up with and being instilled into your brain?)}

I was imagining grandmother would prefer a gold coloured smartwatch instead. Anyways I told her to gift to those who would be truly thankful instead, and stop wasting time on someone that wouldn't value your work.

Dream ended.

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

I remembered the dream, but the memory was fading so I tried to recall the whole dream once in my brain, I thought I was jotting down in my log but wasn't, now I woke up and I cannot remember most of it

bonus marks, messaging

Went to hotel with my family. [Something happens I forgot], I had a competition/ presentation against other schoolmates about academic stuff also in the hotel. One of my “competitor”/ “schoolmate” was Bernice. _{(an irl friend who was pretty smart and went to Cambridge; supported me since way back in F2 when she was F3)}

One of the teachers assessing us was Arthur. _{(hmph I am still angry and guilty)} I did the presentation first, and followed by other classmates and then Bernice. I left midway during my presentation

After the whole thing, they announce the marks. I didn't know and didn't bother. Bernice was very excited to bring me the good news that I score like 90% and I got a bonus mark of 40 marks so it made my mark like 350 over 100 marks (yes the calculation doesn't make sense) I find my 90% fair enough since I left midway and I didn't do the last 0.25 part of my presentation I asked how about her, apparently her base score was 100% and she also got bonus mark i forgot it was 40 or 30, but it made her mark like 400 over 100 marks Anyways the average marks other classmates got was like 20 marks (low base mark and Arthur didn't give them any bonus marks) so our marks were ridiculously high, and Bernice and I were number 1 and 2 respectively I glanced at Arthur who was still sitting at the 評判 table, he was smiling in a loving way at me. In the dream I was wondering maybe Arthur liked me a lot and I was pretty happy.

_{HUHHH >:oooooo}

ok second part [something happened in between but can't remember] Morning at home/ dorm/ whatever place with a pantry, with Ivan

I was checking out Arthur's instagram and I initiated a simple conversation on ig (can't recall what it was about) I was very cautious about it since I thought it was my first time actually DMing him so I was pretty polite and stuff but then after I messaged I swiped up and saw I actually had a lot of past conversations with him, and they were like super casual stuff, like I sent a post about different outfits and I asked him which one did he prefer on me. And he'll answer (I didn't look at what he answered when rechecking the convo though)

And then I went to do other chores for a while (I think I went to wash dishes and make breakfast for Ivan and me) I came back seeing a new convo in my phone screen, apparently I sent multiple messages and Arthur replied. Turned out Ivan used my phone to pretend to be me and messaged him wild stuff when I wasn't looking. I forgot the content of the new convo, but it was something out of the blue like, can you be my dog or something, and he was super chill about it and replied yeah lmao

When Ivan saw me noticing the chat, he took my phone and wanted to type more And I got very anxious and embarrassed I was like aaaaaa why did you text him THAT, and I snatched my phone back to send “Sorry it was Ivan, not me”

And later I was chatting with Arthur about other stuff, like I bet you're ENTP, and we discussed that

oops i got distracted and didn't jot down the rest, i forgot what happened next, anyways it felt like a pleasant dream

at last I apologised for something, and then he apologised for “a person chatting with me on instagram” (like he didn't admit the account was his but he “apologised” on behalf of “a user” that contacted me).

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

caffeine

I think I had a long dream but didn’t really recall what exactly happened. I was in a school setting All I remembered is drinking a can of Monster in the morning (caffeine amount = 4 cups of coffee) And then espresso at noon And in the afternoon I needed to be present for something (a tutorial?) but I was late Bought a can of Monster again but before opening it I realised I had it in the morning already, too much caffeine may be dangerous for the body Anyways while I was thinking whether to drink or not, I realised I was too late for the tutorial so I just ditched it

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

room decoration

Saw a post of a photo of how another med student was decorating his room. Room also had a piano and he put his med stuff on top and make stuff tidier I wanted to try and I told my mum to come and redecorate All she does was to remove my own photo stands and kept all the photo stands of her and my dad on the piano I was annoyed

Getting downstairs leaving home, wait lift with 大媽 neighbour, wait so long, it was full Waited two lift both full We walked the stairs instead I thought I lived on 6/F (like irl) but in the dream i was at 2/F or 3/F, so close to ground floor, should’ve walked the stairs at the beginning.

shopping/ game

Some stall/ booth thing selling clothes. Me Mum and Dad were checking out the clothes. Mum show me a top she found. I said that’s what she bought for me already previously, she said yeah, I just want you to see again Me checking out skirts again (yes cuz irl I haven’t bought any yet aaa). Dad was playing a game at the shop (those “if you purchase from the store you can try this game for x times”). He was just throwing plush toys to a target basket. The sign says can only try 4 times per customer, he obviously has exceeded the limit. I was scared the shopkeeper would be angry, so I told my dad to stop and see the sign. My dad saw the sign and was a bit sorry, but he continued playing because the shopkeeper didn’t stop him. I apologised to the shopkeeper on behalf of my dad, she says it’s okay, and gave dad the “proper bigger plush for the game”. And demonstrated how to play the game properly, but from now on we have a total of 4 chances to play. It was way more difficult now because the bigger plush is heavier and the basket was pretty far. I played once, missed, gave to Dad to try, also missed, we were deciding who’s going next because Dad seemed pretty confident but I don’t think he can throw it in

And I woke up briefly

massage :D

Fuckkkk !!!

Part 1

Doing a psychological test This one required me to close my eyes and sit He began to massage my abdomen gently down until the pelvic region Exposed my clothes until he can see and touch my hair at either umbilical region or upper part of pubic hair, not sure cuz I closed my eyes I was already pretty horny lol And then we walked to a bed nearby (looks like my irl bed) (actually the room looks like my irl bedroom) And began the psychological test First he told me to get him my id card for verification purposes, I was searching for quite a long time cuz I forgot where I put it but found it He told me to lie down, and I kinda collapsed and 靠左側瞓 because I was too horny and no energy (like that type of no energy after sex, because I was already getting too excited)

And then he unbuttoned my tight black low-rise trousers and unzipped it Omg super super horny _{(omg wait you were wearing tight black trousers yesterday)} Ok by this time I was already breathing heavily And then he told me to close my eyes and lie straight, he would ask some questions and I would answer him by making a circle👌🏻 or fist 🤛🏻 with my right hand And he stroked the hair at my bottom and massage while asking the questions, I forgot exactly what were the questions but they’re more like “would you do [some sort of thing] if [certain scenario] happens?” And “would you rather [A] or [B]” I was already 嬌喘中 at the first few questions, my god And apparently I would answer more truthfully if I got aroused, that’s what the “psychological test” explained

Midway he stopped asking another one I waited a long time there was none But he was still standing in front of me (still dressed normally)

I briefly woke irl because nothing was happening in the dream But I didn’t want the dream to end So I forced myself to return to sleep

Part 2

At a lobby thing. Doing a health checkup. Conducted by him again. I was fully naked. Surrounding me were my mum and some younger relatives/ 表妹, but since they weren’t doing the checkup they were wearing clothes, they didn’t find me weird fully naked though, seemed like a normal thing. The theme of today’s health checkup was woman’s health, so female genitals _{(I guess the idea came from my osca exam)} This time he massaged with a bigger range. From upper abdomen like below my chest, and then slowly making the way down to my waist. Then he located my uterus (superficially over the skin), and the two hands divert again to palpate for my fallopian tube and ovaries _{(why is this getting academic wtf lololol)} Fuckk, so horny, anyways he then moved his hands onto my hip lol Also during the massage he said into my ear “I thought you fell asleep” The general examination part finished, we will wait for a vacant room to proceed to other parts of examination So he 公主抱 me to another place at the lobby (I’m still naked) He put me on a big white bed like those hotel big double bed And I get to watch the TV from the bed while we wait in the lobby He then also got in the bed and lie next to me and we watch tv together Hmmmm idk what he’s wearing, …… maybe only a pair of boxers Omg And then my mum followed and sat on a stool by the bed, on Arthur’s side of bed I whispered to Arthur’s ear saying I don’t want her to follow us later… Arthur immediately started a convo with my mum saying like later the area would be rather hectic and loud because the kids would be coming, so she could wait outside meanwhile we proceed with the examination. I glanced at the clock shown in the TV screen, it was around 6:40pm? The children from a nearby kindergarten would use the lobby at 7pm every day. My mum agreed, “yeah! [xxx idk what name] kindergarten right!” Arthur said yep Mum moved to sit on the bed, but in front of us (like in front of our feet, sitting by the bed)

Meanwhile I was just fantasising the next part of examination, which was something like cervical examination and he’ll put his finger in and masturbate for me, I was imagining if I’ll get all wet and all onto his hand

Bruh and I was trying to sleep and make the dream continue but apparently the TV show just started and I needed to wait for the TV show to finish for the dream to proceed, but the show was stuck at that same screen

Aaaaaaaaa >:000 still nothing happened so I woke up

Fuck! So horny _{Maybe because yesterday I found him slimmer (probably because he was indeed sick or maybe he actually started keeping fit) and his jawline was prettier bruh I kept looking at his chin Eyes also very pretty Oh my god outfit also pretty Can’t get angry and scold at this pretty face Fuck so cute Got him super west face on the bus though, felt nostalgic and familiar… F2 classmistress also put on this type of face… Next time I will lie on the couch instead, damn…}

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

_{Actually had a lot of dreams the past few days but I wanna focus on my exams so I skipped recording them, I now forgot all of them lol}

_{This one is also a pretty brief log and I have left out quite a lot of details because I don't want to divert too much mental effort into recalling the dream. The actual dream was quite long as usual.}

secondary school simui

Went to school as a freshly graduated secondary school student. Rode the bus to school. Actually didn't know what is the number of the bus but I just hopped on cuz everyone was doing so.

Got on the bus, there was a digital sign like irl buses, so I know the destination and the number. Terminal station would be Western harbour tunnel

And during the trip the sign also kept reminding everyone there will be a violent homeless getting on the bus soon so it was not advised for us to stay on the bus any longer. But every passenger on the bus didn't give a shit about that including me. Maybe partly because this line is the only bus reaching western harbour tunnel. And we can't really get off anyways because we were on the highway the whole time.

Somehow the bus first drive past Ocean Park and those South Island line locations before making the turn back to western side of Hong Kong Island. During the trip, I was half hoping I can see Arthur whenever we reached a station. _{(Because yesterday noon I had lunch with Ivan and we were gossiping, and Ivan was guessing you live around that area lmao)}

One kid wearing the school uniform from my school + her mom boarded the bus during one of the bus stops at an estate

The mum began to chit chat with me after recognising my appearance (idk what she find but she just “recognised” I am some sort of famous alumni I guess). She was asking me for tips to get into Element (aka a pretty prestigious chemistry tutorial centre)

When I am about to answer, a classmate ^[1] began to chat with me and dragged me away, I couldn't really refuse or tell her to pause for a sec and wait for me to answer the parent first, because the classmate was kind of talking about her childhood trauma all of a sudden and I need to listen to her troubles first

[1] _{rarely talked irl, I just remembered in primary she was being isolated because she was chubby, and I was the only person lending a mechanical pencil for her, she needed one and needed to borrow for 10 mins and she would be back. And then after she left, my surrounding classmates were making a big fuss about it because I lent it, so I pretended and fake-explained I didn't like her as well, but deep down I thought she just needed a pencil so I just gave and I didn't dislike her at all and I don't understand why people dislike her because of her appearance. But I felt guilty still because I was untruthful to the chubby classmate and faked I didn't like her; and when she returned and thanked me for lending my pen I look completely normal, so she would think I am okay with her (which I do)(but I acted in front of others I didn't)(I feel I was fake as fuck, such a shitty person)}

And then we arrived at school and got off the bus. It was recess time. This secondary school's appearance was a mix of my irl secondary + primary school. The people inside were pretty childish, I thought they looked like primary kids.

The kid found me and so I started explaining study tips and stuff. The kid was just secondary 1, pretty young.

I was talking too much and they had an assembly. I needed to pretend to be part of the teachers standing by, instead of queueing in my class because I was too late, and somehow in the dream I thought pretending to be an adult is easier than to walk through all the classes standing still to return to my own line, that one was too cringe and I would be easily discovered by discipline teacher

I was also wearing school uniform, so even if I stood still like a teacher, other teachers also noticed lmfao, but they didn't point me out

After the assembly, I saw many parents entering the campus. I guess it was probably after school hours when parents arrived to fetch their kids back home

I was searching for the parent and the kid which I owed an answer for, as we got lost after getting off the bus.

I walked around the playground and also came across another friend (the bi one who confessed to me back in f2) and her mom

Finally the mom and kid found me and called me, so I went and explained how to get into Element in detail + other stuff her kid should do to prepare esp when she was just form 1, and then I motivated them

_{yeah dream ended It felt like back then when I just got into hkumed along with my friend M, and we made a google drive to share our notes and experiences with different tutorial centres with simuis (師妹s). :)}

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ

_{I was taking too many afternoon naps this week. Lacking time to practice my osca}

passed away relative

Oh! I think yesterday (Friday May 3 before therapy) I dreamt of my relative who have passed away recently (I had a long long dream but I didn't remember a single thing, so I didn't write about it) (the one I didn't attend the funeral + cremation + 拜山) (I remembered she was nice to me irl) I dreamt we were in a relatives meal gathering, but only me can see her Her seat was next to me and I was apologizing to her for not coming and she comforted me and said it is okay she encouraged me and I cried pretty hard in the dream and then afterwards I led her to a garden outside the restaurant where we said farewell and she walked out of the garden gate (very bright white light outside the gate) and she left

final therapy session

(May 4 dream) By the time I typed it all out, I would have forgotten the latter half of the plot, so I just scribbled it in my iPad

Also green backpack in dream looks like 970's backpack in real life. But initially in the dream I thought it was Ivan's

Right click and open image in new tab in order to zoom in if it is too small

· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ ⊹ · ₊ : ⊹· ₊ʚ ɞ