crazy people at beijing metro station

#secschool #caitlyn Multiple crazy people (like actually look mentally retarded with twitched faces, weird smiles, and poor dirty messy outfits) Kept wanting to snatch my notebooks if I want to leave the station I cannot hide because these people can see Horrible My notebooks had all my revision notes inside so I couldn’t abandon them because I needed it, and also I didn’t want to just give them away, I put my effort into making them bro

Those crazy people just want to hoard them for no purpose/ to entertain themselves by looking at our dismayed faces

_{(so angry I think I have these poor angry wicked people in my brain so I can’t snatch and retrieve my knowledge in revision)}

After trying multiple times (multiple day and nights), a few friends walked by and about to exit the station I asked my tallest and closest friend to stop and help me carry some of the thicker notes when they were leaving, and they can give me the notes when we arrive at our destination (Because I had a stack and my new plan was to tuck them all under my shirt)

The plan worked, but since I had just that one more notebook I couldn’t put, I secretly held it in my hands. They noticed and one little girl (dressing slightly better I guess) began to chase after me. I ran as fast as I could. I ran until I arrived at my secondary school. I chose a staircase that the little girl can’t use in the dream (because her grade is too low, the staircase is for senior students) _{(no such rule irl)} I ran as fast as I can, I didn’t even take a breather in between the 6/ 7 floors of stairs I ran to the top floor. But because there were multiple staircases, the little girl also reached the top floor. I was desperate. Still holding to my notes, I ran across the corridor and see which room was safer for me to hide. None. Because the classrooms were empty, despite some with lights on and some lights off. Maybe it’s the summer break. I ran till the end of the corridor, where it leads to the main staircase. Luckily the door next to the main staircase opened and out came a staff. It was my friend’s mum. The staff stopped the little girl in her steps. And began to scold her. I looked back and saw the little girl was my friend, Caitlyn’s younger sister _{(irl very obedient, cute and nice)}

She was crying after her mum scolded her. But her mum was showing her her phone with all the videos of her doing these gremlin stuff with other people. And she looked like she’s not sorry for them and was very grandiose. I’m not sure in the dream if she was diagnosed with NPD or not (sorry)

But I didn’t dare to leave. I was scared she was chase after me later, when the staff was gone. The kid could locate me for some reason.

bookstore promotion event w Ts

#arthur #ruth #mum

Wow first collab in dream _{(I’m pretty sure because yesterday I went to sit there and ruth talked to me) (uh ha sorry the others weren’t in the dream)}

So there’s a book store collab event We are gonna promote our uni in the bookstore (I signed up to be a helper) _{(maybe because yesterday I signed up for peer supporter stuff)}

First I get to tour around the bookstore (because it’s not my turn yet and I should know how everything works first) (like a briefing)

( Ai I wasn’t sure what Arthur did in the dream. Cuz I forgot. Maybe he was the one who led me to the room: )

I got my own little room (actually rooms but put together) It looked very secure and soundproof and the doors and walls are solid wood with many locks

I turned the locks, get inside, and locked them again. But the walls were made of fabric..?? Not wood anymore. I tried to lock them more securely with the hooks but bro they are just one sheet of fabric

As I was fiddling with the locks my mum peeked inside and came into my room……… so I went to the room separated by another wall (fabric) But my happy mood of discovering a safe spot was ruined. I was thinking if I could play with my toy and also invite Arthur in the room to have fun together because it was secure but see I can’t n it’s unsafe……….. bruh

So stupid!!

Anyways I think Arthur continued to lead me to other parts of the bookstore to give me a brief look of different sections.

And then finally he brought me to a corner which looked like a cashier. Ruth was there. He handed me to Ruth and he left (probably back to his station by the entrance to warm up? icebreak with new visitors)

Ruth and a few helpers were there. She said hi and started introducing my job in this role- to pursuade people to sign up for the hku tour (which happens in the bookstore) (it sounded reasonable in dream)

And then very quickly right after she finished briefing us, a man and a woman came (probably parents). And it’s my turn to say stuff. I was nervous but the other helpers were just looking at me. Ruth was also waiting. So I had to say something. At first the man looked crossed before I spoke, but after I began to sell our package they agreed to it and signed up.

The tour package is $90 each person if they have multiple ppl joining, up to 4 ppl in total. (At first I thought it was a ripoff, I wouldn’t buy it myself)

After they signed up, the other helpers led them to the other stations where the helpers on that side would begin the tour.

…. Finally there was a grand show at the end of the tour. (Like disneyland parade and fireworks)

We all have to join in canoeing on the stream, where they decorated with lots of fairy lights. (The bookstore was actually very big… and the back of it was semi outdoor, so when we were canoeing we can see the dark night sky) (I didn’t see Ruth or Arthur canoeing though. Maybe all the physical work was done by us students lmao) (I think I saw Ruth on land guiding the canoes) And we had to sing while canoeing And I realised $90 tour fee was too cheap. Lol

physical dream log book & among us

Back to the bookstore. It actually felt like Eslite bookstore btw. I found this dark blue thick notebook I find it really suitable for writing my dream log. But I already have a digital version And I think I can recall better in the digital version, because if I handwrite, I’ll get carried away by writing itself and my dreams were gone, but if I’m just poking my device keyboard the memory won’t escape that easily.

Anyways so I patted the notebook and put it back to the shelf

Later I was playing among us on my ipad by the shelf. It was a big game (500 people in one game compared to the usual 10) I had the normal role (not imposter) but I had an ability to camouflage as someone alse. Which I didn’t really know what for, because there’s too many people, and no one recognised each other anyways. But I always chose to camouflage when other players walked by and when not in cooldown just to play safe.

Later eventually I died. I checked the player list. 500 ppl around 113? remaining Not too bad actually

Dream ended.

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sorry I forgot my dreams again…

rooftop skating ring

#mum (i think I was with two people. I forgot who they were. We went to a shopping mall with an ice skating ring on the top floor (a recurrent one in many dreams since young)

We were walking. I was cold. Maybe the ice spreads the temperature to the air. Very cold.

We wanted to do some activity, but the ice skating ring is full We opened a side door to the balcony, expecting another ice skating place.

We opened the glass door (feels like festival walk), and outside was raining heavily and the ground has so much water I wasn’t sure if it was a pool or if the rainwater caused it to be like that.

They (the two people walking with me) wanted to step in I told them someone wrote something on the stairs (leding to the pool) on the floor It said there were bugs in the pool (Apparently people fish here so they leave a lot of bugs to attract the fish

We walked away to other parts of the shopping mall.

supermarket shopping

#ivan We went to a Japanese based supermarket (Apita? Aeon?) + another random girl We were shopping around We ate jelly mochi things, it’s some sort of self mix packs, it was slightly sweet because of the sweet sauce and was yummy. I recommended ivan to mix it with milk and it would be even more delicious.

Later we went to the cool isles (those cooling shelves) And ivan was choosing sashimi Meanwhile i was looking at another place where they sell premade dishes in a large quantity but in a low price There was a big dish of eggplants It was too much though _{(i think I dreamt of eggplants because one day my whole meal at uni was eggplants + rice but my mum next day asked me if i wanna eat eggplants so i said no, yet she bought me eggplants meal, i asked why, because she wanted to eat) (so I am tired of eggplants now)}

And i began to look at those snack sausages in bundles. Unfortunately those weren’t exactly the snacks one, but cooked, so I can’t store them for too long _{(i thought of smacks sausages probably because recently I wanted to save money but needed to eat something to make my stomach shut up, so I was planning on buying snacks sausages to bring to school.)}

I forgot what’s next.

Also a bit sad today because they wanted to chat with me, i chatted with them but I don’t trust them anymore. Last time I chatted the next day she scolded me on the same thing again It was too late and I am confused They finally noticed me, but I felt like my heart is torn to shreds I dont know

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All fragments after i woke Seems the plots are all unpleasant but I didn’t feel unpleasant

shenzhen driving trip by dad

#dad He’s the one who drive the car We kept getting stuck in the road because of traffic jam So we didn’t have fun because our day was spent on the road We finally got our car parked on the road but it was already late at night

argumments on TV

Saw an argument on TV A celebrity scolded a mentally impaired person who’s working hard at the cashier (being nice to everyone despite 6000+ people queueing) an egoist and whatnot and she’s comjng to the country just to bear children The woman scolded back, I think she scolded something about his dick i forgot

late night outing in school uniform

#mum Mum gave me an umbrella and an electric fan when I left for school in the evening (7-8pm when the sky was dark) I was in secondary school uniform Anyways it was raining so I got my umbrella opened Mum was calling me on phone so I was having bluetooth earplugs in my ears I turned on the electric fan to play with it I like the feeling of the strong fan on my head I played with the –/+ button on the fan I kept pressing the + button to see if it cycles back to - But it didn’t and the wind gets stronger and stronger And it was like a very strong showerhead that’s beginning to be hard to handle (started to feel like it wanted to fly off my hand)

I was positioning the fan next to my headphones by the ear so mum can’t hear me

But later mum came downstairs and found me And she turned off the fan for me

But actually I do know how to turn off, just press and hold the – button. It’s just that there are many fan strength levels that I need to wait for the fan to get through all of them And I didn’t want to stop the fan either, became it felt good and sounds good when i have my wireless headphones with noise cancelling (if i remove my headphones it would be too loud and I feel scared; but with headphones on, the loudness was pleasant and it sounded like backgrounds white noise, machine whirring.)

Anyways I just stood there listen to what mum has to say

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deep sharing

At a random study room People were writing down what they were aiming for in life/ purpose in life on memo slips

A lot of people wrote the same thing (i forgot what but it sounds good, I think it’s something like enjoy life) but that’s not what I was thinking of because I haven’t sort out what I should do honestly So I wrote something along the lines of discovering new stuff/ fun stuff/ passion/ life/ every day (?? I forgot

gaming and hotpot

#cecilia #primschool I was playing splatoon 2/ 3? in a team with my nintendo switch at the tournament Our team was competing with another team There were spectators

And the opposite team were bots So basically this match was humans vs bots And we lost

The spectators on the bot side were cheering Those on our side just sat there with a bored annoyed face I felt embarrassed because the bots were supposed to be dumb

But because I haven’t played for so long I spent a lot of time learning the controls and I forgot how stuff worked, so I kept getting destroyed by the other team

After that Cecilia (primary school bff) led some primary/ secondary school classmates came to our table with lots of ingredients to make hotpot

And they cooked and shared the hotpot with us happily, because we worked in the tournament

woman singing

#mum Later I was watching a show between two big beefy black basketball player on TV. They were chit chatting with the judge on the basketball ground before starting the competition.

The right dude went inside the changing room and came out. They were putting on a show. The “black guy” started singing cantonese songs. I was very surprised. I looked at him and said to my mum, next to me, hey this was funny I didn’t expect that, and he was pretty good at cosplaying as a woman

And my mum said, she’s a woman the whole time

So I was a bit shocked

_{(thoughts: reminded me of that one time I shared a 小紅書 video to my mum about makeup, and my mum instantly pointed out the “woman” was a man. I denied and said she has to be a woman because she looked like one. She said no, women doesn’t sound like that. We scrolled through the page, she didn’t declare her gender but didn’t feel straight. So I looked again and realised she’s transgendered. And I felt a bit dumb for not realising that. I kept assuming the wrong gender for other people too}

supplementary revision

#secschool #PBLmate #uni On my way from cym/ meng wah complex Someone called me and so I stopped Her face was identical to a secondary school schoolmate but we haven’t been in the same class before. Her name was Melissa (but in the dream I mixed up with Vanessa, and I do have a supplementary friend who called Vanessa) She was asking me about a med question she was confused about So I explained to her in detail (It made perfect sense in dream but I knew irl it was made up) She was very thankful Turns out she’s taking supplementary too She asked me again what my EY choices are, she forgot the sem 2 exchange one So I told her again (i didnt feel like I have met her before in the dream though) And she reassured me. So I encouraged her too. I ask her where she’s going rn She said to the library So we walked there together to revise together Dream ended. (Edit: I think I also say something about me going for therapy, and Vanessa also asked who else was having therapy. And I didn’t tell her about Ivan)

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park & grad gown, chasing game

#mum #dad Went to park w family (seems like a japanese mini amusement park) Different stations in the park, if you have to go to the end of park you have to finish the stations one by one

There was a puzzle with a cannon ball, and if u want to move it to open the exit, u need to follow the guide and collect stuff and activate some fans and push the ball to the right spot Feels like mario odyssey

Anyways I failed, because i think it just cannot be done physically I cant use freaking tissues and feathers to push and shoot the heavy cannon ball

_{(thoughts: It reminded me of my clogged brain for this academic year and I physically couldn’t do it)}

So I gave up the puzzle and walked straight through it to the next station

But then when I sneaked to the next station, it was an empty land with a car (I feel like it’s some sort of bumper car arena)

But because I haven’t finished the last puzzle, this one wasn’t activated (The car works cuz I sat inside and it can move, but there’s no puzzle activated and I can’t see the exit) So I tried to fiddle with the switches that the cannon ball supposed to hit

But it doesn’t work

And I clicked some wrong switches so my car suddenly moved in reverse gear and in circles and it was hard to control, cuz in the dream I don’t think I have a steering wheel

I was scared so I hopped off the moving car and ran back to the last puzzle

I was staring at the cannon ball for a bit when my mum waved and called me. They happened to walk by, but they’re at the area outside the puzzle (the park used those… retractable fences (those metal poles where they have a fabric line that you can pull out like a retractable measuring tape)? To fence off the puzzle area

They called me to come, so I walked nearer Turned out they purchased customised grad gowns for themselves So basically at the cashier, since these Japanese were creative, they designed some little vests to go along with your gown, so it looks cuter and not as dull They bought a light blue one and a dark blue one i think

I told them, but I haven’t finished the puzzle yet, I haven’t graduated

They said nah it’s time to buy one, they’re about to run out of stock! The light blue one was unavailable already! Choose one which one would you like Dad chimed in to say the dark blue linen one was good! I looked at it but find it a bit too grey But the rest was worse so I chose it

After they got the gowns, I asked my mum to help me with the puzzle And we three went to do the cannon ball puzzle (actually I just observed them) And they easily solved it for me (we were doing it the same way but somehow two people were stronger than one)

And then my parents said done and we left

Maybe the empty bumper car park was the finishing area… not sure…

_{(thoughts: this may be the first recent dream that mum was actually doing something useful- I think it’s because mum finally sat down for the first time yesterday night to actually ask me and listened to how I’m doing at school- without throwing a tantrum about me not working hard enough. (uhm although she did yesterday) and she’s normalising my rather abnormal experience of amnesia to the point I got lost at the lab that I went frequently (im not sure if she’s just trying to be nice because I looked like I’m on a strike and gave up or something) (i dont know) (I don’t think she realised my mental health was shit)}

_{(also rather ironic that dad noticed a subtle poor old lady that needs help on the street and so he gave a lot of things to her, but he didn’t seem to realise I also need some help) (And yesterday I finally remembered last summer before I got really depressed I knew it was something to do with covid but not covid itself… I searched through my gallery and my digital footprints but because I was sick I didn’t leave much. Now I recalled something really disappointing. I think I’ll write here in case I forget again. I was terribly sick so in the morning around 6am I finally got up from the bed we were all sleeping in, to throw up in the toilet. I threw up black/ brown stuff. I was horrified because according to my study notes brown vomit indicates something really bad inside- because it was old red blood cells I was having fever and wanted to faint and bla bla bla anyways after sitting in the toilet to ready myself I walked back and woke them up, despite feeling bad because they’re sleeping soundly. But I really wanted to go to the hospital (I hated eating meds and going to the hospital- and this was the first time when I actually wanted to get help) But they told me it was too early and they’ll sleep more and take me there later, despite I told them I can’t and I wanted to go now, they slept again So I waited in great discomfort until around 9? (because I am too weak to go to the hospital alone) (Maybe 9 was fast.. but the hospital was near… and I can’t wait that long) So I was really disappointed in my parents Yeee story time ended I couldn’t remember this till now, surprise}

I was in a 1v1 chasing game To this point i think I had too many chasing game dreams so I’ll skip the plot The setting was in minecraft and we can fly and jump into buildings / blocks

Oh the scary part During sleep I suddenly felt there were two palms holding my head, they felt super real but they weren’t my hands. Feel like some old lady witch. And they came from behind me, but behind me was a wall. I was super scared idk what she? Would do to my head..!!!? Rip it off!?????? Hang me !????? And my heart rate goes up, and unfortunately my watch alarm also goes off (vibrations) and those vibrations were kind of fast and sync to my heartbeat Holy shit so i open my eyes slightly, i can still feel the hands, but I moved mine and they really weren’t mine, and there were no blankets around my face so idk where the sensation came from ajahajshsj and it’s not my mum because the door was closed fuck And after i widely open my eyes and move a bit, the hands retreated and gone

Anyways we swapped to another scene:

rushing hw

#secschool #teacher

Doing chinese homework during form period (“classmistress time” that we can do anything) Because next lesson was chinese and we needed to hand it in

My neighbour saw Chinese teacher outside the door (we have a little glass panel by the door) And thought she didn’t come in because it was locked Meanwhile I was thinking she didn’t come in because our classmistress (the f6 one btw) was still inside I didn’t want her to come yet because I haven’t finished the hw, so I pretended I didn’t notice Anyways the class were gesturing the door wasn’t locked, so she opened the door My classmistress was tidying the desk for her

Anyways finally she was announcing she was going to collect the homework by the end of today, at 18:30, instead of during the lesson. So I was relieved. But I think maybe she saw me doing the homework so she extended it slightly.

_{(irl: this chinese teacher was pretty nice. There was a dictation but I failed because I tried and couldn’t memorise the sentences lol, and she wrote some encouraging words. And then in the next dictation I worked hard to memorise the damn passage and got 100, so she wrote some words of congratulations and gave me a stamp hahaahhaah)}

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protect sis, go shopping

#relative #mum #dad

Little sis and her family visited us. We brought them to Hung Hom station because there’s an exhibition

There were so loud af mainland kids (they’re coming in the form of a study tour). Wearing those pe uniforms. The teacher did nothing too Normally I’ll just frown and tolerate but when you have 100 shouting screaming kids I’m gonna explode (internally)

I stared at them. They stared back and made funny faces at me. >:(

Anyways my little sis was also wearing their kind of uniform. But a purple variant. I guess purple means junior form because she was very small and young. And the bad big and noisy ones were mostly in red and yellow (and blue) uniforms.

Her mum reminded us to look closely after her. I was holding her hand. Later we entered an elevator (those big industrial ones). Her mum reminded me to be careful for sis because bad people may touch her breasts. Mum urged us to go to her side to stand. But actually I thought me and sis’s side was safer, because sis was next to the wall and I’m shielding her. Mum’s side was surrounded by several family’s baby prams. Anyways I led sis to stand on mum’s side tgt

Somewhat later it’s time for us to separate and we said goodbye to her family

I went to a restaurant to eat. And then finally i ordered a takeaway fancy orange juice sorbet drink. Costed $40. I was looking at the cashier when she was preparing the drinks. Somehow I detected she was autistic through her actions? Words? so I squealed with joy because we were on the same channel And she poured me slightly more juice than the others. Like $40 worth of content when others are $30. (But others paid $40 too)

I took the drink, paid for the meal and left

And then our family went shopping Mainly my mum and I. Dad went to shop separately.

Mum’s shopping were so damn boring Later for some reason i forgot, she went into a ladies underwear shop to ask if there were dresses for me. I wasn’t interested and i was holding a drink so i tried to stay not as into the shop, while driving the shopping cart for her.

She asked me multiple times whether i like some of the dresses and i said no Because the cutting was ugly

Finally about to leave But she decided to check one more time if there were more shops hidden in the path, so she went in again, i was annoyed because there were signs on the floor. She went into an small branch selling jewellery for investment, which leads to the underwear shop

She was listening to the shopkeeper about how to invest in these jewels and jewellery.

So boring Finally left and it was raining slightly. Not sure who gave it to me but i got an umbrella I ask if mum wants to share the umbrella and she declined. So she was in the rain And we met with dad at the crossroad

madam ho basement

#arthur _{ngl i felt a bit embarrassed for dreaming this} I stood in basement of madam ho building I almost opened the wrong door, which had matte striped glass walls. It was when i realised some people were talking inside so i rechecked the calendar on my watch and found out it’s the wrong room

I took a u turn and about to turn around and back to the main corridor, when i saw a room opened and arthur was escorting his client out

I immediately retreated back to the side corridor i.e, in front of the wrong room

I wasnt sure if the client saw me, because he had his back towards me, but I think arthur caught a glimpse because he looked at my direction for a slightly longer time

i felt embarrassed because i should be upstairs in the waiting room. Idk why i came down

_{i felt embarrassed to write this too because i wasn’t following the procedures}

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Yesterday also dreamt something about arthur and using a messaging app but i forgot what it was about

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Dream from yesterday but thought it was short and boring so I didn’t write

minecraft coop

Opened a new minecraft world with a total of 4 people. We go explore the map sometimes together, sometimes alone. We helped each other and it was efficient and nice. I’d say it was enjoyable.

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Those below are today’s

h manga on bus

Hahaha!!! #arthur #mum Lmao!

Riding bus home with mum. I was in secondary school uniform so I was probably a secondary school student. A primary school girl was sitting in front of me, and next to Arthur. The seating plan was like:

🚪exit door 💺(arthur)💺(prim sch girl) | aisle | 💺(mum)💺(me) | aisle |

At first mum was talking to me. So I looked at her direction. And then I saw Arthur sitting in front of us. I was thrilled but I couldn’t show it and I couldn’t say hi because mum didn’t know who Arthur was and I didn’t want to tell her. So I just observed him.

At the mean time, he took out his ipad. He turned it on. It was a hentai manga. (Wowwww) The screen was rather bright too so naturally it caught my attention. I began to read the content of the pages.

The ipad was big enough to show the first page and part of the second page. For some reason the pages are in landscape mode. Maybe it’s actually two vertical pages combined together? Idk. The first page was cover page, so it was in full colour. The second page was blue and white, but they slightly coloured the flesh in the normal colour. It looked rather intensive because the mangaka drew a lot of scenes onto the same page, and it’s just the first two page. (Or maybe it’s because it’s a chapter in the middle of the book, idk)

The content of first page included… A hand grabbing a small dedenne and putting it in the anus (sorry!) Glimpses of zhongli from Genshin Impact on top Multiple drawings of girl getting fucked … I couldn’t look closely at the details because my mind was occupied by the cursed vivid image of shoving dedenne into the anus like a dildo💀🙏🏻 oh my god

My reaction in the dream was, see! Arthur plays genshin impact (since he picked a book with such characters) And, oh wow that looks intense, didn’t know Arthur had this side and was interested in hentai. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

While still maintaining a conversation with Mum, I took out my phone to take a pic, because it was interesting. I pretended to text/ use my phone in order to not let my mum know I’m taking a pic of a “stranger” nor letting her see the guy was reading nsfw content, that would be hard to explain?

I snapped a pic. However he looked bored, despite the seemingly engaging and exciting manga. So he took out his phone to search for another hentai manga, and began to read it, while the ipad screen was still on. I snapped another pic.

The primary school girl (she was wearing our school’s primary school uniform) looked directly in front of her throughout the bus ride and seemed unbothered.

We happened to leave at the same station. Arthur picked up the kid’s pink schoolbag and put it on one side of his shoulder. He and the girl were getting off together. Turned out he’s her dad.

While getting off, I tried to ahem to catch Arthur’s attention. But he couldn’t hear it. Maybe he’s too attentive looking after the kid.

After getting off, they were holding hands, walking at a normal/ slightly fast pace. I wanted to catch up with them. But first I need to carry my schoolbag first. However, my hands had no force and the schoolbag was as heavy as a dumbbell. I was stuck standing there on the ground holding the schoolbag.

Looking at them walking further and further away, I yelled at my mum to help me put the schoolbag on my shoulder, but secretly it was to catch their attention. But they continued walking with no response, and soon, they disappeared.

I didn’t really have strong emotions in the dream I guess? (Except at the beginning where we were on the same bus)

_{It was slightly interesting because I would’ve assumed Arthur probably was deliberately ignoring me, but now I gave him (& my mind) the benefit of the doubt and think maybe he genuinely couldn’t hear it because my ahems were too general :0 omg I think I see something}

packing salads

#mum #charlotteh Two recipe- one from mum’s recommended Daisy (literally Donald Duck’s wife)’s recipe, one was Charlotte’s recommendation Daisy’s: delicicate, two half egg, torn chicken breast, salad veggies, green and yellow pepper, spring onion, with sauce on top of everything. Looks nice Charlotte’s: two half egg, 2 whole chicken breast, salad veggies, no more. Simple to prepare and nutrition content was fairly the same I wanted to make Charlotte’s since I was running out of time. However mum insisted I follow her recommendation and make Daisy’s version. I told her the ingredients were similar and we could make a spinoff version by adding similar ingredients as Daisy’s but simplify it using Charlotte’s method (e.g. chicken breasts untorn, I can tear it myself when I was about to eat if I wanted to) Finally after explaining for multiple times she agreed and I got to use my way. While I was preparing she realised this method was smart and praised me. I felt slightly annoyed because she wasted a lot of time rejecting my idea without actually thinking about it

Somehow the story changed into something that happened in the 小紅書 comments section (of what? Our interaction?) And a random client (the comment section was full of clients of different therapists) made an English quiz because she’s proud of being an English teacher. Fill in the blanks by choosing the most suitable word Tested [anxious] attachment Me and others in the comments thought it was a bad quiz because she’s not testing English language, but jargons instead.

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_{There were two dreams (events) initially. But when I try to “revise” the dream by sleeping again, the metro one had a new ending, so the latter event in original dream was gone.}

sexual assault dog, panties, pet cats in cabinet

On a metro. Saw a random guy lying on the floor, there was a big (rather fat) dog lying on top of him. And the guy began to touch his dog inappropriately on the belly. (Not sarcastic but you can see him starting from the legs and his hand started to touch all over the place). And the dog looks like it's frowning. I think the dog is a girl too.

Later I had to exit the metro. I think I was wearing suit with short skirt (formal ones). I liked the skirt a lot but it didn't come with a safety pants component, nor did I wear any. And my feeling was a bit complicated, since I was a bit excited because I was going around with just a white pantie inside, and if I bend a bit others can see the small lace lining. However when I was taking the escalator and walking up the stairs I was also scared of people seeing my panties, but nevertheless it was thrilling. _{(hmm looks like the kind of shame play wearing toy in public setting......?????)}

(ending 2) (the alt ending) Afterwards I arrived in an alley. There were two glass cabinets with two cats inside. I only remembered one was grey with patterns (I think it was just random though). In the dream I interpreted them as my pet cats. I was playing with them by moving my fist outside the glass panel. To my pleasant surprise, they reacted and were attracted to my movements. I was excited because they seldom responded to me. I wanted to call my mum to tell her about it and tell her to come quickly to see it. However, the telephone booth (actually a futuristic large panel projecting an interface) was just an arms length away, but I didn't dare to stop playing with the cats or else maybe they might ignore me next time. So I couldn't move far enough to hit the interface to call mum or others. I randomly pressed a button and it went to the discord help and services hotline, so I immediately stopped the call. So the dream continued with me playing with the cats, and the cats were slightly showing tiredness but they were still interested in me.

_{Interpretation: what if those cats were ivan and charlotte and I'm too scared to take a mental break and find others or else they might be less interested in me from then on}

I think there was more to this ending but I forgot

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(ending 1) two events happened, and then me and #charlottec went to victoria park, and there was a whole block selling pineapple filipino food, which was interesting and I think it would be a shopper's heaven for domestic helpers. _{(there's more to the dream too but I can't remember, the pineapple wasn't the main point of the dream too) I think I dreamt of this because I was watching Uncle Roger's ig reel about tasting filipino food... and yesterday afternoon me and Charlotte were walking around mk and a street with a lot of pet shops (so sad) and there were a lot of domestic helpers on the bridge)}

——— I took a nap in the evening, and woke up at night. I thought I could sleep for longer…

ig stories

_{There was more to the dream again, here is just an excerpt…} Oo i remember Posted a photo on ig story about the ocamp trip me and another person led, because the ocamp was coming into a close. It looked successful. _{(970 invited me to be group leaders tgt for something similar so yeah maybe that’s why I dreamt it)} I posted another photo taken by #charlotteh ‘s dad when their family were travelling to Japan on my ig story. It was photo of the night sky on the beach, there were a lot of stars. And her dad dmed me asking if I was also going on a trip (genuine question not sarcastic) and I told him the pic was his but I posted on story because it was pretty, and I thanked him, and politely hope we may go on a trip tgt? (Not sure)

ENT checkup, milk tea

#mum I went to a clinic in PolyU to check up my nose and pharynx, cuz my nose was cloggy and there was phlegm in my pharynx I sat on the clinic chair thing and they scanned my upper body I thought it would be an xray but it was a CT Anyways the CT scan was pretty cool, the female doctor can rotate the 3D CT model right after she scanned, and then told me to look to my right, it was a screen, and there was an automatic anatomy sketch/ outline drawing of my CT image And then the doctor began to label the different arteries around/ inside my jaw and stuff on the screen to teach me (The doctor was probably standing far, near my feet or maybe even zooming, anyways she’s not next to the screen while annotating) I was slightly nervous during her annotation because I was scared that she may ask me “what is this” and tell me to name stuff, cuz I don’t know. (irl the arteries were wrong, for example naming pulmonary artery inside the jaw, and calling my throat umbilicus or what) And I thought being a doctor was so difficult because I need to explain stuff to the patient and it was hard if I don’t understand what I am doing (…oh the patient will freak out if I don’t understand too...)

Anyways I got a lot of sputum. A blocked nose. She prescribed something for me to drink, but first I needed to take her receipt and pay at the cashier, and come back to collect the medicine.

I went outside the clinic (cashier on campus ground) and met with my mum. Mum gave me her medicine drink to drink. I said we needed to pay to get my own medicine. She said just drink mine it’s the same. But I wasn’t sure if it was the same, and I don’t want to mix things. She said she would bring me to the cashier then.

On our way I walked past a bakery. I went inside, checking out what’s in stock. I saw they have premade boba tea in bakery, lining up on the shelf. But they were expensive, at 88hkd after discount.

I saw another small bottle of milk tea, at 8 dollars i think, or 7.8?

I thought, although theres no pearls it would suffice because the price was affordable. So I took the drink to the cashier. The cashier (mainland part-timer)scanned and insert the amount to the handheld machine, where I can pay by octopus. I saw the price at 90/ 100ish? I told her she got the wrong price, and pointed to her the correct price. She apologised and typed it again, and showed the screen to me while pressing the button. So she pressed the wrong payment option, because she wasn’t looking at the screen. She pressed mainland alipay. I was telling her she pressed wrong again. She was apologetic and asked me if it was ok. I said fine (because I had mainland alipay) But she made the price $9 something and it was probably the transaction fee, which was annoying, and my mainland alipay was glitching and I couldn’t get the qr code to come out, it was somehow on cooldown. I was thinking if I should tell her to switch back to octopus (and correct the price as well), when I woke up thinking I was probably thirsty.

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_{bruh I had nothing to do in the evening, I was a bit tired of pokemon, I ate dinner, so I slept at around half past 8, but I woke at around half past 1 am... What am I gonna do with all this time?? (No revision please I hate it) (Had a bucket list of all the shows I kind of wanna watch but I'm unmotivated)}

collecting coupon for roy

（面交代收） #roy #dad #aiden

I was (with my dad??) at a mtr concourse in the evening, there was a miku concert hosting soon herea (literally on the concourse. (the vibe seems Mong Kok East, no platform doors) (but I felt it was at Yau Ma Tei)

Anyways I received a whatsapp chat from Roy (my driving coach). He asked if I am free to help him collect something he ordered, on the concourse later at night. I agreed to help him. (because in the dream I like him)

He told me it would be around midnight. He said around time he would call me to give me more information. And after the transaction he would have someone drive me (to his or my???) home to stay for the night. So I waited for the seller to come meanwhile I was also waiting for the concert to start.

However at midnight/ past midnight I hadn't received my instructions yet. And dad was accompanying me. I told Dad I would come home later because I have things to do. Dad say better come home before 7am, (other than that he didn't say other stuff, and I think even if I come home later I'll be fine, he was chill anyways. The reason I told him was to want him to leave + he would explain to Mum when he went home in behalf of me)

I said yeh ofc (I assumed the transaction would be already done before 7am), and he left.

The concert seemed to be finished. There was no music. I was still at the concourse, waiting. I was slightly worried because I kind of want to leave the station because I was bored, and could come back anytime when Roy called me, but, it was probably past mtr operating hours, so if I left the station, I couldn't reenter the station. So I had to stay.

While I was waiting I was scrolling on my whatsapp. I checked my group chats. One of them had me, Aiden (970) and Adrian (3-day-boy). I accidentally hit the group call button. I didn't hit the end call button right away though. I waited for the call to get through to apologise for the wrong call. But they didn't instantly pick up the call, and I thought it would be awkward, so after like 5 seconds on the call by myself I apologised into the empty (solo) call and ended the call. After ending the call, Aiden messaged in the chat saying this group wasn't needed, and kicked me out of the whatsapp group. (instead of disbanding)

After a while when I was still scrolling whatsapp, the music returned. And Roy messaged me to find a guy who was waving his hand and acting special. (it was already 7am too)

I found a guy waving his arms. He reminded me of Ursmar, but with a bigger build ?? lol anyways I approached him and asked him if he was looking for the buyer, and showed him my chat with Roy.

He then walked me aside to talk more about the transaction. There was a women next to him too, in her 60s? looks rather old and frail (slightly short and quite thin) She told me, these bakery coupons may require their membership in order to be redeemed, and asked if I know the buyer had membership or not. I called Roy on whatsapp. He answered my call right away. He looked professional on the call, with a headset and rather fancy backdrop and transitions (quite fancy as if he was live streaming) Initially I couldn't hear what he was saying. (Also the music got really loud as if the concert was back, and it was difficult to focus on the conversation) Maybe I deafened myself, or he was muted. I told him I couldn't hear him, and he fumbled to fix it, meanwhile I was also hitting different buttons to change my output headphone option. Anyways we quickly solved it, and I asked if he has membership and repeated the situation to him.

(In the dream, I was thinking if he didn't have membership, I had friends who have membership, and if I really wanted to, I can ask my friends to help him redeem the coupon. On the other hand I was wondering if I had helped too much, and I didn't expect it to take such a long time well past 7am, and if I helped once he would ask again in the future. In addition, I was slightly upset/ disappointed because if I knew it would take so long, I could've spent the night at his home and possibly sleep with him aka get fucked for the night before meeting the seller. Especially when Dad let me free, and Mum wasn't here in the dream at all. Such a missed opportunity * sigh *)(<— all thoughts in the dream, but holds true even after I woke up lol...)

anyways before he responded anything, the dream ended.

— _{I was playing relatively loud music on my phone next to my bed while asleep though. Also rather unfortunate that I was thinking of Arthur while playing those love themed music, but I dreamt of Roy. Sorry Arthur! LMAO I feel so bad LMAOO I feel like as if I'm stepping onto so many boats at the same time, but in fact there are no boats because these are all imagined intimate romantic relationships.}

—- _{finally slept at around 7:30am. I have beaten another pokemon gym, it’s starting to get boring.}

last chinese lesson before public exam

#pblmate #secschool _{tbh i think it’s because mainland gaokao is about to start (like tmr??) so i dreamt of something related. The dream was boring so I’ll skim through it}

Last chinese lesson The classroom was full But our teacher hasn’t arrived After like 10-20 minutes, at the :16 mark our monitor, Heidi, decided to go upstairs to grab our workbooks from the shelf because we needed to anyways They decided if they came back too late at :27 they’ll probably skip the lesson So a bunch of people went upstairs with our monitor There were only three people remaining in the room, including me. I was sitting at the back corner furthest away from the door, just like back in f6. In front of me was Matthew, _{(uni PBLmate, had appeared in one of my recent dreams exploring hotel too, wait OMG he’s the other guy who was going on the macau trip with sus guy)} At the other side of the classroom there was a girl. _{(I found her really familiar in my uni chinese tutorial class, I was wondering yesterday during class that maybe we have met in previous unrelated tutorials.)}

After a long while, our teacher came. She was doing chinese exercises with us. Since I sat right behind Matthew, I leaned closer to his seat. He looked back at me and our faces were very close. I got a bit closer until it’s like 1-2 finger distance, so … 3cm?

He didn’t flinch, neither did I. After a while, I decided he wasn’t embarrassed because he didn’t look away or did a nervous chuckle or anything, so maybe he wasn’t interested in me. So I made distance and leaned back to my seat. (* To clarify I am not interested in him both irl and in the dream aaaaaa idk what am I dreaming bruhhshshshhaha) _{(very interesting i think maybe it’s related to that one time I leaned on the sofa thing to look at Arthur’s face, it’s not THAT close though =_=)}

Anyways I withdrew and we continued working on the worksheet. I was jotting notes with many different coloured pens, so maybe that’s why the teacher kept skipping me when asking questions, because she knew I was paying attention. _{(maybe this is related to how the tutor in my chin tutorial didn’t ask me questions because I was late to class and I haven’t signed the attendance yet, so he didn’t know I was here, so he skipped my name. I signed it back after class though, cuz the guy allowed it)}

After a while each of us had to answer one paraphrase question, as there were 3 questions for 3 people. We have to change the sentence to not use the “不得不” in the original sentence. The girl’s answer to her question was meh. But ngl it was rather difficult. I answered my question very well. It was also a difficult question. The original sentence has an attached photo, of Alexander the Great’s right shoulder slightly broken, left shoulder almost gone, both arms were holding a fried chicken because he was hungry and wanted to eat. Something along the lines of 由於亞歷山大失去左肩，他不得不用右手托著拿著炸雞排的左手。 ？？ Anyways i had to paraphrase that and did it successfully (bro i forgot my sentence already) And I got praised by the teacher, I felt happy and content. Also felt a sense of motivation.

Around 5 minutes later we heard a crowd of people outside, but they seemed hesitant to enter the classroom. I heard them putting down our workbooks at the umbrella rack by the door in the corridor, and they left. Probably because they thought they were too late, and they have the necessary knowledge in their workbooks already, so they didn’t need to attend class and waste their time.

We continued having class after that. Finally the class ended and we thanked our teacher. I bowed to the teacher before heading to the door. Dream ended.

_{(this chinese high school teacher was one of the only few who still gave us support during study leave, recorded videos explaining our marked exercises for each of us. I got at least 10 marks improved just during study leave – well the help from my friend M also contributed. The rest of the teachers just abandoned our class. So sad.)}

— I think I had some other dreams too, but they were more fuzzy.

waiting for Mum at hotel

#dad #mum Dad Mum and I were travelling. It was at night so we were returning to the hotel. About to enter the lift in hotel lobby. Mum decided she had to buy something? So she left. We waited so long for Mum partly because she was leaving/ entering at another entrance of the hotel and got herself lost. And she buy stuff very slowly. Me and Dad were slowly losing our patience. Dream probably ended here. _{Mum always had to go buy extra stuff when we were walking home every single day. It was annoying. Because usually I was already having a long day at school, carrying a heavy schoolbag, and she decided to shop at multiple supermarkets for hours, despite already shopped for groceries. If not, she would go to dessert shops to have a look. Or maybe she’ll go to those small pharmacies to buy toilet paper- wait so she’s borrowing me as her labourer? (I now seldom walk together. Partly because I now have the home key I can leave early. It was back in primary/ junior secondary when this situation was the worst)}

_{Side note: usually I kind of see why some themes appear in the dreams, so I used small font to share my interpretation. Idk if it’s useful or not. Or should I keep it as a literal dream log. Because the thing is over time I’ll forget the real life context, so I’ll forget why I dream about certain things if I reread it perhaps a week later. :)}

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hide and seek (flying)

In a game. If I get caught I will have some bad punishment (I genuinely forgot) (i think the punishment is getting raped)

We all flew high and try to camouflage in the corners/ obstacles in the building. However since I haven’t flew in years (I flew the most in primary and junior sec, I only flew for a handful of times in high school), my flying skills deteriorated and I couldnt fly to the ceiling. So I perched on some lower ceiling, which was unsafe. There were many ppl who couldn’t fly as high as me, but there were also some who can fly higher than me.

Also a rule of the game is that the catcher has a superpower to look through the eyes of those whom they caught. (Example: catcher C caught a hider, A. Catcher C will gain the ability to see through the visual memory of A, before A was caught. In other words, if you hid with A before she was caught, and you didn’t change your hiding spot/ you spoiled your next hiding spot to A, C would know your location.)

So it is the best to avoid everyone’s sight when finding a place to hide.

_{my insight: i think the first part is related to how I wanted to hide from the sus men. The catcher superpower part is related to how A once played hide and seek with me, we hid in the same spot, then A revealed our hiding spot to my best friend, and I got caught, and I was very upset cuz A betrayed me (omg, the catcher’s initials start with C, wtf, i was just making up an example.,.,…, the initials A and C matched, wtf)}

sus brother in restaurant room

#mum #dad #relative 表哥 seems to have a big… urge

Our family and their family were travelling tgt and going to dine in a restaurant we own. 吉野家 style, but many mini separate rooms (those for families)

This bro was renowned for fucking everything/ everyone

While we were walking to the restaurant, he went to fuck a cat on the road

(I legit forgot again in the dream whether he fucked my 表妹 (not blood related, bro is step-bro) or not)

Anyways we arrived at the restaurant. We meant to order omlette rice from the machine. My family walked to the other rooms. I was feeling horny so i was masturbating. In front of him. But actually I was a bit scared of being assulted/ attacked by him.

He looked at me masturbating and yelled/ complained, “if you continue doing this, I cant hold back anymore!!”

So I stopped masturbating in front of him.

_{Holy shit ?? The connecting family room with sus classmate??????}

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