weird I forgot a lot of the dream because I fell asleep after dreaming it and briefly waking up

dissection, straight A classmate 1

I was in the dissection room. _{(irl: Another room – ADL1. I was at around the front entrance of dissection room – around station 1)}. (But in the dream, there was only one entrance, which is the back entrance in the dissection room, so this position was actually “deep inside the room”)

My table consist of me and my friend. (one dream friend) I was operating on the one on the table, and was following instructions like the other groups. Friend found a stack of dried skin somewhere on the bench. The appearance was like a plastic wrapped stacked blanket. But the blanket was skin of once living. He/ She said, “there's three skins inside,” and was ripping the package.

I was kinda shocked and asked her what she's doing in a whispered tone. The corpse wasn't in the package. We should operate on the one on the table. She told me it's alright, and she opened it. I didn't stop her because it was already ripped.

I looked around and the teachers weren't nearby. So I looked at her taking out one of the neatly folded skin. And was holding it like a shirt.

Somehow dissection class ended

As I was walking at school corridor, I found several adults surrounding a schoolmate. I asked my two (or several) classmates next to me. They said it was Sara, she got 4A* so she was answering reporter's questions. (somehow in the dream 4A* was rather rare like IB full mark for some reason...) I asked them, Sara was the vice head/ head prefect, right? They said yeah it's her And I mentally calculate, Sara was one year younger than me, if she's a prefect (f5), then I was form 6 Very studious and nice, I kinda admire her. _{(no such classmate irl btw. I don't have friends called Sara too.)}

movie – the ring

#mum #dad Our family went for a movie show with auntie atlex After watching one show, we wanted to watch another one, which is called “the finger”/ “the ring”?? (I forgot the exact name) But first we wanna get some refreshments We went to the bakery nearby There was a tiny section that was made by Atlex It is a selection of self mixed healthy drinks There were two that were inspired by me? In the way that I once gave her some chinese medicine ingredients and she made a drink (entirely in dream). One of the ingredients I gave her is called 地獄 for some reason 💀

straight A classmate crying 2

I was in the classroom, sitting on the first/ second row. Sara was at my back. _{(Maybe because yesterday I was sharing about my friend sitting at the back of me)(Sara and my friend has nothing alike I guess)}

i asked (genuinely), what is she sad about, academics? but shes 4A*! and used counselling techniques _{(Maybe because of the workshop yesterday night)}

she asked me back if i am sad And I told her yeah I'm sad too because I got raped in anatomy room _{(?????????????????? noooooooo not rape....)}

dream probably ended here

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finding surgeon

#mum #ruth (actually didn't appear)

Mum liked to be close with famous people. In the dream she went for surgery. After coming out, she said there was a famous doctor (a pretty big neurosurgeon in our faculty) who was on the next bed of her surgery (as a patient). She told me to find him for her in order to let her say words like she recognises you and they can be closer or whatever

So, me, still in my scrubs (I work in that hospital), I went to search for that doctor. I walked around in the hospital but there was no sign of the doctor. Maybe he already left after his minimally invasive surgery. I followed two staff to the back corridors where they led to different doors. I entered one door. It was the backdoor of a supermarket (so the hospital and supermarket were interconnected)

I was in the supermarket. I was a bit confused but I briefly walked around to find the surgeon. Seems not here. I saw the staff that went through the door entered another backdoor. And they were talking about mental health team or whatever. So I sneakily followed through the backdoor and it was a staircase. One of the staff went up. After he (I assume it was a man) went up, I stood by the staircase of the original supermarket floor. I want to wait for the man to either come down or I wait long enough and go have a check.

In the middle of waiting, a figure who was wearing kind of punky clothes (in a good looking way) walked by. She ignored my presence. (maybe because I was hiding/ acting low-key). I looked and felt the person was like Ruth. So I kind of act coughing or humming songs because I wasn't sure so I wouldn't directly address her. But when I look closer, it wasn't, so I was relieved and glad I didn't yell and say hi to the person.

Later I went up a floor to see what was it. It was a mental health wellness room. But rather creepy. Because the staircase was dark and was made of old looking concrete. And the mental health room was on the top of the staircase. (There is one more section of the staircase going up, but it ends into the wall, so I wouldn't count that as one more floor, although it said 8/F)

Anyways, I looked inside. There was a young little girl in shocking pink dress, with her back towards me. She was talking to a woman (at first I thought it was my secondary school art teacher, but soon I realised it was Ming Yi teacher aka Cantonese opera lesson teacher – yes our secondary school has niche mandatory courses)

Since the woman was sitting towards the direction of the door, I was scared of being discovered, so I hurried down the staircase.

Back on the supermarket floor of the staircase, actually there was a side path which led to a hidden corridor to all classroom doors. The path was initially blocked by a double door. The first one you need to press a button to unlock it. The second one you can just push it open. Coincidentally a staff walked by and just pressed the button. So I followed through. I used a little rectangular thing on the floor to hold the door open, because I couldn't see such a button on the other side of the door. I was guessing if I needed a staff card to access, then in that case I would be stuck here. The second door was simple, I just push it open, but I am worried again if it shut and it was a one-way door and I couldn't open from the other side. So I was holding the second door open (because there was only one door “holder”? and I used it on the first door)

So the dream ended here with me holding the second door open.

my own loft became family trip

#dad

Japan trip! With me alone. I was checking in a place with my luggage. There were two elevators, I entered the one which came earlier. I checked my tag on the room key, it said 6/F. So I was finding the button to 6/F, when I realised this elevator is for odd numbered floors only. But I was too lazy to get out and wait for the other elevator. I blinked and looked away from the buttons for a brief time. I looked back and the 6/F button was here. I pressed it. At first there was no response (no light after pressing button, lift wouldn't move), but after pressing it multiple times the lift worked. And the lift opened at 5/F which was what it was supposed to do at first place (odd numbers) And I was slightly scared of elevators too so I got off quickly. _{(scared because I had way way way too many nightmares about elevators and escalators not reaching the floor I wanted when I was small. So usually in the dream as long as it opens and it was close enough to my floor, I would just leave. Because they could never put me on the perfect floor)}

I got out and walked for one floor with my luggage. (It wasn't tiring at all) I checked my tag on the key again and found my room. I entered with the key. The room was really nice. Very white, clean, the furniture was sleek. I quickly checked if the door locks work, and then I close my door immediately. I continued to look around in the room. Big TV. Somehow there were three beds. One double bed in the middle, two single beds on the sides. It wouldn't be too worrying if there were only two beds in total, because I can still kind of rationalise why me, one person only, would have two beds (e.g. inviting friends over; room provider only has double person room) But now we have three beds. And then I looked back at the door and found it was open. I tried to close it but it wouldn't click, it would just open again I figured out there was a silk scarf which was tied onto the door knob that was stuck between the locking mechanism. Me, slightly confused because there wasn't any when I just came in, removed the scarf and threw it on the floor outside. Because I couldn't move/ nudge the long scarf away from the lock, the only way is to untie it and throw it away. Now the lock worked. I looked back into the room and saw my dad's shoes. And then I looked back at the lock and it didn't work again. And I heard my parents outside. They were checking into the same room. But seemed they didn't have the key. (Maybe because I took the only key and went in first). But because the lock wasn't working, they just marched in with their luggage.

Turned out this mini studio/ loft was actually our family hotel room and we were going on a trip... I was very disappointed. Because when I entered the room alone, I was overjoyed to see my own new space and I can try to manage my own living as a capable independent and functional adult. (I thought I was either going on an exchange or travelling alone.) But it was a family trip. And family was a stressor.

Mum was like, why are you putting up such a face? We paid for this expensive family trip despite running out of money, so that we can make you happy! I was pretty upset but I didn't reply anything back. Because it seemed like they were deliberately making me guilty.

Really quickly after they put down their luggage and roaming around the room loudly, they wanted to go out together (with me) to explore the neighbourhood (and I think to stalk my friends). _{(which for some reason made sense, because one time our PBL group went for dinner at my neighbourhood, and we sat near the entrance glass panel,,, and they walked by coincidentally and looked at every one of us amusingly. They told me later on when I got home. I was oblivious to this if they didn't say. Rather creepy hhahaah)}

Before going out we needed to turn off the TV. (They turned it on and was blasting mainland TV shows...) It took so long and many tries. Mum tried a few times before giving the remote to me to turn it off. But I couldn't too. It would just turn black for a sec and resumed the show. Anyways finally I figured it out and turned it off. But Dad wanted to try it himself using his own way, so he took the remote and was pressing buttons on the modem also. I was pretty annoyed because I already turned the TV off, he was just wasting time problem solving a now solved problem He turned it on again with the buttons and couldn't shut it down. Mum was yelling at him. I was annoyed. Dad was annoyed we were being impatient. Finally Mum told me to just turn off the TV using my method and ignore what Dad was doing. So now the TV was off.

Now they were picking hats to wear before going out. I thought it was just a simple task. I just see the one which matched my outfit and I pick that. And then I also picked one for Mum because she was wasting time and her taste was awful. And then Mum began to kept praising me for such a good taste. I felt uneasy and a bit scared.

Dream ended. Sigh! I was picturing a nice quiet overseas exchange me-time! Now it was a noisy and unnecessarily hectic family trip. Awful.

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Ok today I have no dreams/ didn't recall any, but my mum shared her dream with me (that's rare, she seldom does so. She only did it for a few times in my life, and usually before the release of exam results.)

Here is a record of what she said to me

Mum's dream about me, evil man & poo

#mum

She dreamt she was with me. We were on our way to somewhere. Suddenly I stopped in my steps. (“I” means me, not mum) She asked me why/ what And I said, I need to wait for someone. Mum instinct say this person was malicious. So she kind of nudged me to leave with her. But I insisted on standing there. “I need to stand here to wait for him,” I said. “I have to.” “But he's bad! Don't wait for him!”

Mum saw this shadowy figure in the dream, approaching. He looked evil. Soon, there was poo on our clothes. There was poo on the ground. Mum's reaction was like “waaa ew” “let's leave,,,!!”

But I insisted, “No! I need to see him. I need him to give me an explanation. (俾我一個交代)” So mum was rather anxious yet she couldn't pull me away to escape, because I kept standing there.

_{^^ she told me the dream until here, I suppose that means the dream ends here/ she recalled till here. And then she told me after she woke up she was googling what poo means in dream. And apparently it is free money that we can get without earning hard. And she remembers her mum is gonna give me some money as a reward for me entering uni. So she was happy. I was too lazy to tell her then that's my money not yours. lol And I didn't tell her I think dream interpretation is subjective and,,, lol her focus was on the poo not me Meanwhile I was thinking if that means I am gonna fight JY and I get some “apology money”, but I needed to work hard/ I was mentally working really hard this year to get that money though... And whether the poo means I would get my reputation ruined because of it... although I did nothing wrong... BUT! It's not my dream. So it is technically not my own subconscious thought. So it is ok}

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reading books at bookstore

#mum

I was at the bookstore wanting to find story books to read The bookstore feels Chiwah but premium version with collab with eslite bookstore. There was a starbucks and several cafes nearby but I didn’t bother with it. I was here for the books. I found this pile of books with a similar illustrator designing the cover – it reminded me of the cover of one of the books I used to have – Pax

So I was browsing through the pile Turned out there was a series number on the side of the book I was searching for the first book in the series because I want to start from the first one obviously But I can’t find it But instead I found a pre-packaged set of books. From book 1 to book 13. I checked the price. One book was like $140? but all books costs $270 in total So I took the pre-packaged set

I also stood by the shelf to read a book in another pile. It’s more of a mental health related book. I think it’s about PTSD. And in the content page seems the writer illustrated different symptoms of ptsd by sharing various people’s stories about it. I forgot the actual content. I just remembered in the dream I was very engrossed in the book.

I remember during reading, Mum walked by and was searching for good books too. But somehow in the dream she walked up to me and scolded me, and then walked away. I forgot what she scolded me for. Ah! She wanted to buy one of the books in the $140 pile. But she couldn’t find the one she wanted. So she was irritated. And somehow she released her anger onto me. And I told her I got the whole set, but seems she wouldn’t listen in the heat of things so I didn’t bother to repeat. I just let her scold me while I was reading the PTSD book.

becoming a successful lion

#primschool

Setting was primary school.

Somehow I converted from a herbivore into a lion. And I was the boss of all the lions here at primary school. But since I didn’t have experience in catching prey, I followed what other lions were doing. They were standing by the fence. So I stood there too. There were two wired fences between us and a small grassland (the size of a playground) I recalled in my herbivore days these grass must be very yummy. But now we were waiting for our prey to appear.

After a while, a shepherd brought several sheep with him. We have to wait till the fence had automatically fallen before we could catch them.

The fence fell! Some ran out. Since it was like part of the fence falling instead of the one in front of me, I was slightly late. But I ran and caught with much accuracy. I caught two sheep and began munching on them. Many didn’t catch and there were little sheep and many lions so obviously many lions were still starving. But they would stay and wait for any possible new sheeps coming.

Anyways after eating I’d like to have more so I returned to the grassland. But there weren’t new sheep. And I wasn’t that hungry after eating two so I returned to the lower open playground, where we would have our morning assembly soon.

While I was walking, a little herbivore was chatting with me. She’s asking me if I’ll introduce more workers in the tuck shop because there was none. I apologised and asked her if she got whatever snack or drink she wanted now, she said no because there was no staff. I said I’ll find people and figure it out, because currently most were lions but we need herbivores to deliver these jobs. (Because lions may treat this job as a way to catch and eat herbivores since only herbivores need to use the tuck shop- only herbivores eat snacks. So we can’t recruit lions.)

Anyways I thanked her for telling me and I left. I actually wanted to walk around to look for more prey but most people have lined up, and the host was also almost ready (those hosts were humans. They’re the only humans in the school- not counting shepherd) so I returned to my class queue. I was a bit embarrassed because I turned into a lion. But seems my surrounding classmates didn’t really mind. And for some reason those around me were still herbivores. But in many further away classes they’re all lions.

Dream ended.

(Also the sheep taste like 巴東牛肉 i had yesterday night) (LMAO)

_{(side note: when i was small (before/ during kindergarten), I wasn’t sure if it’s because I kept watching animal world, i sometimes have dreams where I was an animal in the wild. These several dreams were rather vivid so it stuck with me. (0. Had some imagination if I’m some sort of dumb amoeba and algae) 1. I was a mountain goat, and I couldn’t escape from a tiger. It bit me on the thigh and I died 2. I became a tiger but I got killed by lions for some reason 3. I was a lion but alone and old and frail and I got killed by an elephant 4. I am an elephant and I got shot by poachers to get my ivory The dreams always ended when I wss dying. And these dreams appear between months/ years (didn’t reappear) but in this specific order lol Damn and then sometimes I wonder is this why I’m a human now And I sometimes do those random “psychological quizzes” testing what you are in your previous life and I was an animal lol. There were some other options like some identity from space or whatever but nah I’m an animal) I believe it’s just wild imagination but it’s interesting to bring it up}

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crazy people at beijing metro station

#secschool #caitlyn Multiple crazy people (like actually look mentally retarded with twitched faces, weird smiles, and poor dirty messy outfits) Kept wanting to snatch my notebooks if I want to leave the station I cannot hide because these people can see Horrible My notebooks had all my revision notes inside so I couldn’t abandon them because I needed it, and also I didn’t want to just give them away, I put my effort into making them bro

Those crazy people just want to hoard them for no purpose/ to entertain themselves by looking at our dismayed faces

_{(so angry I think I have these poor angry wicked people in my brain so I can’t snatch and retrieve my knowledge in revision)}

After trying multiple times (multiple day and nights), a few friends walked by and about to exit the station I asked my tallest and closest friend to stop and help me carry some of the thicker notes when they were leaving, and they can give me the notes when we arrive at our destination (Because I had a stack and my new plan was to tuck them all under my shirt)

The plan worked, but since I had just that one more notebook I couldn’t put, I secretly held it in my hands. They noticed and one little girl (dressing slightly better I guess) began to chase after me. I ran as fast as I could. I ran until I arrived at my secondary school. I chose a staircase that the little girl can’t use in the dream (because her grade is too low, the staircase is for senior students) _{(no such rule irl)} I ran as fast as I can, I didn’t even take a breather in between the 6/ 7 floors of stairs I ran to the top floor. But because there were multiple staircases, the little girl also reached the top floor. I was desperate. Still holding to my notes, I ran across the corridor and see which room was safer for me to hide. None. Because the classrooms were empty, despite some with lights on and some lights off. Maybe it’s the summer break. I ran till the end of the corridor, where it leads to the main staircase. Luckily the door next to the main staircase opened and out came a staff. It was my friend’s mum. The staff stopped the little girl in her steps. And began to scold her. I looked back and saw the little girl was my friend, Caitlyn’s younger sister _{(irl very obedient, cute and nice)}

She was crying after her mum scolded her. But her mum was showing her her phone with all the videos of her doing these gremlin stuff with other people. And she looked like she’s not sorry for them and was very grandiose. I’m not sure in the dream if she was diagnosed with NPD or not (sorry)

But I didn’t dare to leave. I was scared she was chase after me later, when the staff was gone. The kid could locate me for some reason.

bookstore promotion event w Ts

#arthur #ruth #mum

Wow first collab in dream _{(I’m pretty sure because yesterday I went to sit there and ruth talked to me) (uh ha sorry the others weren’t in the dream)}

So there’s a book store collab event We are gonna promote our uni in the bookstore (I signed up to be a helper) _{(maybe because yesterday I signed up for peer supporter stuff)}

First I get to tour around the bookstore (because it’s not my turn yet and I should know how everything works first) (like a briefing)

( Ai I wasn’t sure what Arthur did in the dream. Cuz I forgot. Maybe he was the one who led me to the room: )

I got my own little room (actually rooms but put together) It looked very secure and soundproof and the doors and walls are solid wood with many locks

I turned the locks, get inside, and locked them again. But the walls were made of fabric..?? Not wood anymore. I tried to lock them more securely with the hooks but bro they are just one sheet of fabric

As I was fiddling with the locks my mum peeked inside and came into my room……… so I went to the room separated by another wall (fabric) But my happy mood of discovering a safe spot was ruined. I was thinking if I could play with my toy and also invite Arthur in the room to have fun together because it was secure but see I can’t n it’s unsafe……….. bruh

So stupid!!

Anyways I think Arthur continued to lead me to other parts of the bookstore to give me a brief look of different sections.

And then finally he brought me to a corner which looked like a cashier. Ruth was there. He handed me to Ruth and he left (probably back to his station by the entrance to warm up? icebreak with new visitors)

Ruth and a few helpers were there. She said hi and started introducing my job in this role- to pursuade people to sign up for the hku tour (which happens in the bookstore) (it sounded reasonable in dream)

And then very quickly right after she finished briefing us, a man and a woman came (probably parents). And it’s my turn to say stuff. I was nervous but the other helpers were just looking at me. Ruth was also waiting. So I had to say something. At first the man looked crossed before I spoke, but after I began to sell our package they agreed to it and signed up.

The tour package is $90 each person if they have multiple ppl joining, up to 4 ppl in total. (At first I thought it was a ripoff, I wouldn’t buy it myself)

After they signed up, the other helpers led them to the other stations where the helpers on that side would begin the tour.

…. Finally there was a grand show at the end of the tour. (Like disneyland parade and fireworks)

We all have to join in canoeing on the stream, where they decorated with lots of fairy lights. (The bookstore was actually very big… and the back of it was semi outdoor, so when we were canoeing we can see the dark night sky) (I didn’t see Ruth or Arthur canoeing though. Maybe all the physical work was done by us students lmao) (I think I saw Ruth on land guiding the canoes) And we had to sing while canoeing And I realised $90 tour fee was too cheap. Lol

physical dream log book & among us

Back to the bookstore. It actually felt like Eslite bookstore btw. I found this dark blue thick notebook I find it really suitable for writing my dream log. But I already have a digital version And I think I can recall better in the digital version, because if I handwrite, I’ll get carried away by writing itself and my dreams were gone, but if I’m just poking my device keyboard the memory won’t escape that easily.

Anyways so I patted the notebook and put it back to the shelf

Later I was playing among us on my ipad by the shelf. It was a big game (500 people in one game compared to the usual 10) I had the normal role (not imposter) but I had an ability to camouflage as someone alse. Which I didn’t really know what for, because there’s too many people, and no one recognised each other anyways. But I always chose to camouflage when other players walked by and when not in cooldown just to play safe.

Later eventually I died. I checked the player list. 500 ppl around 113? remaining Not too bad actually

Dream ended.

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sorry I forgot my dreams again…

rooftop skating ring

#mum (i think I was with two people. I forgot who they were. We went to a shopping mall with an ice skating ring on the top floor (a recurrent one in many dreams since young)

We were walking. I was cold. Maybe the ice spreads the temperature to the air. Very cold.

We wanted to do some activity, but the ice skating ring is full We opened a side door to the balcony, expecting another ice skating place.

We opened the glass door (feels like festival walk), and outside was raining heavily and the ground has so much water I wasn’t sure if it was a pool or if the rainwater caused it to be like that.

They (the two people walking with me) wanted to step in I told them someone wrote something on the stairs (leding to the pool) on the floor It said there were bugs in the pool (Apparently people fish here so they leave a lot of bugs to attract the fish

We walked away to other parts of the shopping mall.

supermarket shopping

#ivan We went to a Japanese based supermarket (Apita? Aeon?) + another random girl We were shopping around We ate jelly mochi things, it’s some sort of self mix packs, it was slightly sweet because of the sweet sauce and was yummy. I recommended ivan to mix it with milk and it would be even more delicious.

Later we went to the cool isles (those cooling shelves) And ivan was choosing sashimi Meanwhile i was looking at another place where they sell premade dishes in a large quantity but in a low price There was a big dish of eggplants It was too much though _{(i think I dreamt of eggplants because one day my whole meal at uni was eggplants + rice but my mum next day asked me if i wanna eat eggplants so i said no, yet she bought me eggplants meal, i asked why, because she wanted to eat) (so I am tired of eggplants now)}

And i began to look at those snack sausages in bundles. Unfortunately those weren’t exactly the snacks one, but cooked, so I can’t store them for too long _{(i thought of smacks sausages probably because recently I wanted to save money but needed to eat something to make my stomach shut up, so I was planning on buying snacks sausages to bring to school.)}

I forgot what’s next.

Also a bit sad today because they wanted to chat with me, i chatted with them but I don’t trust them anymore. Last time I chatted the next day she scolded me on the same thing again It was too late and I am confused They finally noticed me, but I felt like my heart is torn to shreds I dont know

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All fragments after i woke Seems the plots are all unpleasant but I didn’t feel unpleasant

shenzhen driving trip by dad

#dad He’s the one who drive the car We kept getting stuck in the road because of traffic jam So we didn’t have fun because our day was spent on the road We finally got our car parked on the road but it was already late at night

argumments on TV

Saw an argument on TV A celebrity scolded a mentally impaired person who’s working hard at the cashier (being nice to everyone despite 6000+ people queueing) an egoist and whatnot and she’s comjng to the country just to bear children The woman scolded back, I think she scolded something about his dick i forgot

late night outing in school uniform

#mum Mum gave me an umbrella and an electric fan when I left for school in the evening (7-8pm when the sky was dark) I was in secondary school uniform Anyways it was raining so I got my umbrella opened Mum was calling me on phone so I was having bluetooth earplugs in my ears I turned on the electric fan to play with it I like the feeling of the strong fan on my head I played with the –/+ button on the fan I kept pressing the + button to see if it cycles back to - But it didn’t and the wind gets stronger and stronger And it was like a very strong showerhead that’s beginning to be hard to handle (started to feel like it wanted to fly off my hand)

I was positioning the fan next to my headphones by the ear so mum can’t hear me

But later mum came downstairs and found me And she turned off the fan for me

But actually I do know how to turn off, just press and hold the – button. It’s just that there are many fan strength levels that I need to wait for the fan to get through all of them And I didn’t want to stop the fan either, became it felt good and sounds good when i have my wireless headphones with noise cancelling (if i remove my headphones it would be too loud and I feel scared; but with headphones on, the loudness was pleasant and it sounded like backgrounds white noise, machine whirring.)

Anyways I just stood there listen to what mum has to say

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deep sharing

At a random study room People were writing down what they were aiming for in life/ purpose in life on memo slips

A lot of people wrote the same thing (i forgot what but it sounds good, I think it’s something like enjoy life) but that’s not what I was thinking of because I haven’t sort out what I should do honestly So I wrote something along the lines of discovering new stuff/ fun stuff/ passion/ life/ every day (?? I forgot

gaming and hotpot

#cecilia #primschool I was playing splatoon 2/ 3? in a team with my nintendo switch at the tournament Our team was competing with another team There were spectators

And the opposite team were bots So basically this match was humans vs bots And we lost

The spectators on the bot side were cheering Those on our side just sat there with a bored annoyed face I felt embarrassed because the bots were supposed to be dumb

But because I haven’t played for so long I spent a lot of time learning the controls and I forgot how stuff worked, so I kept getting destroyed by the other team

After that Cecilia (primary school bff) led some primary/ secondary school classmates came to our table with lots of ingredients to make hotpot

And they cooked and shared the hotpot with us happily, because we worked in the tournament

woman singing

#mum Later I was watching a show between two big beefy black basketball player on TV. They were chit chatting with the judge on the basketball ground before starting the competition.

The right dude went inside the changing room and came out. They were putting on a show. The “black guy” started singing cantonese songs. I was very surprised. I looked at him and said to my mum, next to me, hey this was funny I didn’t expect that, and he was pretty good at cosplaying as a woman

And my mum said, she’s a woman the whole time

So I was a bit shocked

_{(thoughts: reminded me of that one time I shared a 小紅書 video to my mum about makeup, and my mum instantly pointed out the “woman” was a man. I denied and said she has to be a woman because she looked like one. She said no, women doesn’t sound like that. We scrolled through the page, she didn’t declare her gender but didn’t feel straight. So I looked again and realised she’s transgendered. And I felt a bit dumb for not realising that. I kept assuming the wrong gender for other people too}

supplementary revision

#secschool #PBLmate #uni On my way from cym/ meng wah complex Someone called me and so I stopped Her face was identical to a secondary school schoolmate but we haven’t been in the same class before. Her name was Melissa (but in the dream I mixed up with Vanessa, and I do have a supplementary friend who called Vanessa) She was asking me about a med question she was confused about So I explained to her in detail (It made perfect sense in dream but I knew irl it was made up) She was very thankful Turns out she’s taking supplementary too She asked me again what my EY choices are, she forgot the sem 2 exchange one So I told her again (i didnt feel like I have met her before in the dream though) And she reassured me. So I encouraged her too. I ask her where she’s going rn She said to the library So we walked there together to revise together Dream ended. (Edit: I think I also say something about me going for therapy, and Vanessa also asked who else was having therapy. And I didn’t tell her about Ivan)

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park & grad gown, chasing game

#mum #dad Went to park w family (seems like a japanese mini amusement park) Different stations in the park, if you have to go to the end of park you have to finish the stations one by one

There was a puzzle with a cannon ball, and if u want to move it to open the exit, u need to follow the guide and collect stuff and activate some fans and push the ball to the right spot Feels like mario odyssey

Anyways I failed, because i think it just cannot be done physically I cant use freaking tissues and feathers to push and shoot the heavy cannon ball

_{(thoughts: It reminded me of my clogged brain for this academic year and I physically couldn’t do it)}

So I gave up the puzzle and walked straight through it to the next station

But then when I sneaked to the next station, it was an empty land with a car (I feel like it’s some sort of bumper car arena)

But because I haven’t finished the last puzzle, this one wasn’t activated (The car works cuz I sat inside and it can move, but there’s no puzzle activated and I can’t see the exit) So I tried to fiddle with the switches that the cannon ball supposed to hit

But it doesn’t work

And I clicked some wrong switches so my car suddenly moved in reverse gear and in circles and it was hard to control, cuz in the dream I don’t think I have a steering wheel

I was scared so I hopped off the moving car and ran back to the last puzzle

I was staring at the cannon ball for a bit when my mum waved and called me. They happened to walk by, but they’re at the area outside the puzzle (the park used those… retractable fences (those metal poles where they have a fabric line that you can pull out like a retractable measuring tape)? To fence off the puzzle area

They called me to come, so I walked nearer Turned out they purchased customised grad gowns for themselves So basically at the cashier, since these Japanese were creative, they designed some little vests to go along with your gown, so it looks cuter and not as dull They bought a light blue one and a dark blue one i think

I told them, but I haven’t finished the puzzle yet, I haven’t graduated

They said nah it’s time to buy one, they’re about to run out of stock! The light blue one was unavailable already! Choose one which one would you like Dad chimed in to say the dark blue linen one was good! I looked at it but find it a bit too grey But the rest was worse so I chose it

After they got the gowns, I asked my mum to help me with the puzzle And we three went to do the cannon ball puzzle (actually I just observed them) And they easily solved it for me (we were doing it the same way but somehow two people were stronger than one)

And then my parents said done and we left

Maybe the empty bumper car park was the finishing area… not sure…

_{(thoughts: this may be the first recent dream that mum was actually doing something useful- I think it’s because mum finally sat down for the first time yesterday night to actually ask me and listened to how I’m doing at school- without throwing a tantrum about me not working hard enough. (uhm although she did yesterday) and she’s normalising my rather abnormal experience of amnesia to the point I got lost at the lab that I went frequently (im not sure if she’s just trying to be nice because I looked like I’m on a strike and gave up or something) (i dont know) (I don’t think she realised my mental health was shit)}

_{(also rather ironic that dad noticed a subtle poor old lady that needs help on the street and so he gave a lot of things to her, but he didn’t seem to realise I also need some help) (And yesterday I finally remembered last summer before I got really depressed I knew it was something to do with covid but not covid itself… I searched through my gallery and my digital footprints but because I was sick I didn’t leave much. Now I recalled something really disappointing. I think I’ll write here in case I forget again. I was terribly sick so in the morning around 6am I finally got up from the bed we were all sleeping in, to throw up in the toilet. I threw up black/ brown stuff. I was horrified because according to my study notes brown vomit indicates something really bad inside- because it was old red blood cells I was having fever and wanted to faint and bla bla bla anyways after sitting in the toilet to ready myself I walked back and woke them up, despite feeling bad because they’re sleeping soundly. But I really wanted to go to the hospital (I hated eating meds and going to the hospital- and this was the first time when I actually wanted to get help) But they told me it was too early and they’ll sleep more and take me there later, despite I told them I can’t and I wanted to go now, they slept again So I waited in great discomfort until around 9? (because I am too weak to go to the hospital alone) (Maybe 9 was fast.. but the hospital was near… and I can’t wait that long) So I was really disappointed in my parents Yeee story time ended I couldn’t remember this till now, surprise}

I was in a 1v1 chasing game To this point i think I had too many chasing game dreams so I’ll skip the plot The setting was in minecraft and we can fly and jump into buildings / blocks

Oh the scary part During sleep I suddenly felt there were two palms holding my head, they felt super real but they weren’t my hands. Feel like some old lady witch. And they came from behind me, but behind me was a wall. I was super scared idk what she? Would do to my head..!!!? Rip it off!?????? Hang me !????? And my heart rate goes up, and unfortunately my watch alarm also goes off (vibrations) and those vibrations were kind of fast and sync to my heartbeat Holy shit so i open my eyes slightly, i can still feel the hands, but I moved mine and they really weren’t mine, and there were no blankets around my face so idk where the sensation came from ajahajshsj and it’s not my mum because the door was closed fuck And after i widely open my eyes and move a bit, the hands retreated and gone

Anyways we swapped to another scene:

rushing hw

#secschool #teacher

Doing chinese homework during form period (“classmistress time” that we can do anything) Because next lesson was chinese and we needed to hand it in

My neighbour saw Chinese teacher outside the door (we have a little glass panel by the door) And thought she didn’t come in because it was locked Meanwhile I was thinking she didn’t come in because our classmistress (the f6 one btw) was still inside I didn’t want her to come yet because I haven’t finished the hw, so I pretended I didn’t notice Anyways the class were gesturing the door wasn’t locked, so she opened the door My classmistress was tidying the desk for her

Anyways finally she was announcing she was going to collect the homework by the end of today, at 18:30, instead of during the lesson. So I was relieved. But I think maybe she saw me doing the homework so she extended it slightly.

_{(irl: this chinese teacher was pretty nice. There was a dictation but I failed because I tried and couldn’t memorise the sentences lol, and she wrote some encouraging words. And then in the next dictation I worked hard to memorise the damn passage and got 100, so she wrote some words of congratulations and gave me a stamp hahaahhaah)}

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protect sis, go shopping

#relative #mum #dad

Little sis and her family visited us. We brought them to Hung Hom station because there’s an exhibition

There were so loud af mainland kids (they’re coming in the form of a study tour). Wearing those pe uniforms. The teacher did nothing too Normally I’ll just frown and tolerate but when you have 100 shouting screaming kids I’m gonna explode (internally)

I stared at them. They stared back and made funny faces at me. >:(

Anyways my little sis was also wearing their kind of uniform. But a purple variant. I guess purple means junior form because she was very small and young. And the bad big and noisy ones were mostly in red and yellow (and blue) uniforms.

Her mum reminded us to look closely after her. I was holding her hand. Later we entered an elevator (those big industrial ones). Her mum reminded me to be careful for sis because bad people may touch her breasts. Mum urged us to go to her side to stand. But actually I thought me and sis’s side was safer, because sis was next to the wall and I’m shielding her. Mum’s side was surrounded by several family’s baby prams. Anyways I led sis to stand on mum’s side tgt

Somewhat later it’s time for us to separate and we said goodbye to her family

I went to a restaurant to eat. And then finally i ordered a takeaway fancy orange juice sorbet drink. Costed $40. I was looking at the cashier when she was preparing the drinks. Somehow I detected she was autistic through her actions? Words? so I squealed with joy because we were on the same channel And she poured me slightly more juice than the others. Like $40 worth of content when others are $30. (But others paid $40 too)

I took the drink, paid for the meal and left

And then our family went shopping Mainly my mum and I. Dad went to shop separately.

Mum’s shopping were so damn boring Later for some reason i forgot, she went into a ladies underwear shop to ask if there were dresses for me. I wasn’t interested and i was holding a drink so i tried to stay not as into the shop, while driving the shopping cart for her.

She asked me multiple times whether i like some of the dresses and i said no Because the cutting was ugly

Finally about to leave But she decided to check one more time if there were more shops hidden in the path, so she went in again, i was annoyed because there were signs on the floor. She went into an small branch selling jewellery for investment, which leads to the underwear shop

She was listening to the shopkeeper about how to invest in these jewels and jewellery.

So boring Finally left and it was raining slightly. Not sure who gave it to me but i got an umbrella I ask if mum wants to share the umbrella and she declined. So she was in the rain And we met with dad at the crossroad

madam ho basement

#arthur _{ngl i felt a bit embarrassed for dreaming this} I stood in basement of madam ho building I almost opened the wrong door, which had matte striped glass walls. It was when i realised some people were talking inside so i rechecked the calendar on my watch and found out it’s the wrong room

I took a u turn and about to turn around and back to the main corridor, when i saw a room opened and arthur was escorting his client out

I immediately retreated back to the side corridor i.e, in front of the wrong room

I wasnt sure if the client saw me, because he had his back towards me, but I think arthur caught a glimpse because he looked at my direction for a slightly longer time

i felt embarrassed because i should be upstairs in the waiting room. Idk why i came down

_{i felt embarrassed to write this too because i wasn’t following the procedures}

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Yesterday also dreamt something about arthur and using a messaging app but i forgot what it was about

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