spooky lift, fake dad

#dad Dad came home from work. There was a ring in the front door. The back door opened at the same time and dad came from the back. We looked through the door hole in the front door and saw another dad as well. But something tells me it was fake, and i was more certain of it when dad was here from the back door It was supposed to be a cake delivery at the front door. And that person wasn’t holding any cake. I didn’t open the door for it. Mum also agreed, dad was just settling down after work so he didn’t really get involved

Later this person left and another colourful monster came. Didnt open After like 15 mins of it standing there, it left and another colourful monster came out of the lift and stood again Didnt open After a long 30 mins it left. And finally a young man carrying a colourful suspicious cake came. Although the cake was unusually vibrant and sus, i opened the door. He apologised profusely for being late because the lift was acting strange. I thanked him and immediately closed the door cuz I was scared monsters will come out of the lift again.

There were no monsters so far. And i was a bit curious so I went to the corridor to look at the lift. It wasn’t going to the floor it was supposed to. (Like in most of the dreams).

I think something happened and I kept trying the lift along with other lift passengers. The buttons on the lift weren’t even in order. And finally, I figured out. Button 31 goes to 4/f. (Like add the two numbers together). But some rules are like sometimes it subtract if the initial sum has a bigger floor number than what the building has. Anyways after figuring out, the dream ended.

second in marathon

#secschool #arthur Someone held my hand and brought me to a headstart. I was mainly competing with another duo of Zoe Cheng and (Ruby i think) (both very bright and competent classmates I liked a lot) With the person leading me, we were rather ahead. But later the person released her hand and I’ll have to continue this marathon on my own. I kept the pace but the duo was slowly picking up the speed because I sort of slowed down compared to before. When we were racing head to head, I tried to run harder. So I was a bit behind but not too much, like within 2 metres. At the final 100 m, I picked up my speed and ran full force to the finishing line. I think I was faster because my side of the finishing line was kinda closer. (It was a curve) So I was faster then them I think And i heard i got second (an unknown guy was the first with 1h 37m?) And i spent two hours exactly.

Random auntie/ meagan yu’s mum was surprised at my final sprint. I explained i kept some energy during the marathon just for it.

But despite winning I felt a bit empty because Arthur wasn’t joining this marathon, and I won’t be there to see his marathon race.

Japan shopping, unsupportive mum

#mum In Japan. At first i was chilling in my dorm with my roommate. Later mum came and interrupted us. And mum lied in my bed as if it was hers. And I just stood there cuz i had no bed. I felt gross for her to get inside my bed and blankets and touch my cushions

Later me and my parents went to an anime department store. Dad was supportive and walked behind me and shopped and offered suggestions although he didn’t really know the anime Mum was just trying to make us stop shopping and leave I feel unhappy.

I was trying really hard to find Rika / チリ’s merch in pokemon store but they only had figures and not the mats I was looking for. There were so many colours of the mats with different trainers and pokemons, but just not her. and mum kept telling us to leave so i was pretty stressed. (Mats as in like those children’s puzzle foam mats where you can buy one piece of different colourful pattern)

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roommate sh

#claudia I was just scratching and making cat scratches on my bed, and my roommate was sitting by her desk. Then she turned around and showed me her freshly cut arm with long cuts and blood slowly coming out like little droplets out of the lines I think she asked me something but I forgot (it was very graphic but I wasn't feeling much from seeing it??)

anyways turned out she was cutting but I thought she was revising by her desk ye _{(maybe because I think she stress herself out a lot and she got a fever by overworking)}

hon's letter

#charlotteh I was sitting at university upper street, and among the crowd walking by, I saw charlotte hon in her law cape ?? walking by. I think she graduated/ was graduating. I waved at her and she waved back. I was surprised and happy because so far I haven't seen her in campus at all since the beginning of uni. She chatted briefly with me and took an elevator next to me and went down and left, cuz she was busy.

Later I received a digital letter (hmmmm not email), saying things like, friends are meant to support each other, and asked me if I disinfected and how are my thoughts and to reach out to them anytime if I ever feel like it

I was touched, and at the same time wondered if charlotte c told others (like jamie and her)

exhibition fair with mum

#arthur #ruth #mum #caitlyn #cecilia

I wanted to go to the exhibition fair to buy something/ collect something from Arthur but mum kept bugging me like where exactly was I going, what did I bring with me and I accidentally answered wrongly and “invited” mum to go along with me bruh also at one point mum was saying something really stupid and I was frustrated and grumbled during my sleep- (i hope my roommate didn't mind)

and I tried to get away from mum once we entered the fair and I was pretending shopping until I saw Arthur by his booth, I think he was promoting his own organisation we had a brief convo and I walked around to check if mum was there I saw her also walking around and she saw me so we got together again, and I had to pretend nothing happened, and Arthur also just looked at us and pretended nothing happened between us

and then caitlyn's and cecilia's mum came and they gathered together later I think I had a slip of the tongue and caitlyn's mum kind of caught it and inferred that I know ruth, who was her therapist. I didn't have much to explain, I could only say oh she worked at hku cedars (LMAO), and I help out in related fields so yea

and basically they're chatting about therapy is good and caitlyn's mum find it quite rewarding and useful, and then Arthur came around naturally to have a chat/ promote his work I think at some point they also raised the idea of getting therapy to my mum mum was just treating it as casual talk without actually reflecting on this idea i think

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arthur's japanese lesson, drive to Cardiff

#arthur it was actually a therapy session. but later became japanese lesson and he's teaching me japanese in his (home?) and there were other students waiting for him to teach japanese as well (2 pairs of parent + baby, and another 叔叔) but he sat next to me and talked too long with me so one pair of parent baby left and he was like oh shit (cuz he lost a client?) but continued teaching me and then we leaned closer to each other i think his hands were on my breast and body I am also touching his hands and arms We loved each other. I actually wanted a hug from him badly, I guess that counted... so I was kinda satisfied (but not enough) I put my face next to his and i felt his “glasses arm” on my face? (I was wearing con so it wasnt clashing) so much tension and my heart beating quickly hehehehe he dirty talked slightly saying 你唔好喺度叫啊 so I 惡趣味 and moaned to him

later the lesson bell rang and he ended the lesson, the other “classmates” left (they felt like NPCs) and he offered to drive me back

so I sat in his car originally at the backseat his car was kinda big/ tall like those range rover type

I asked if I can sit at the front passenger seat (there was a tablet in front of that seat) he said there are some “male adult oriented tv shows” that I probably won't want to watch this piqued my interest and say bro i am adult too and idc so he just let me change seat

so i am next to him now

I think people who drive had very great charisma to me, they felt dominant and reliable (especially good drivers)

and apparently the drive was slightly longer than i expected cuz he was driving all the way to cardiff

during the trip we started to get silent as there was nothing much to say I began contemplating on myself and I told him im a bit 自卑 and seems that I am doing all this because I am controlling

it felt bad because i am affecting a lot of people by this controlling urge of mine and i only started to wonder if i am controlling after several psych app tests & others asking jokingly and I couldn't deny the fact that I think perhaps I am really quite controlling & all the stuff I did made sense if I associate the cause to this, despite thinking there should be a more “root cause” behind being controlling

and i think i got that because my mum was a bit controlling so I grew up to become controlling too, to try to get back what i deserve from her but i shouldn't blame her for me being controlling to other people/ everyone...

and then we drove past nottingham and i pointed at a building asking arthur if that's the place he studied before he said yes

later we arrived at cardiff but we decided to tour around before dropping me off but there were many stairs and our car couldn't handle that so we swapped to a smaller cart which he had prepared in the car it looked like a pram but can fit both of us

the tourism department spotted us and said there was an elevator service at 2pm every saturday? or wed? (anyways once per week) but for people to book in advance which is literally now but we didn't book so I was planning to carry the pram up the stairs, it wasn't much stairs anyways

but arthur briefly went away and came back to me, saying the elevator lady was willing to give us the elevator pass too so we rode the elevator in gratitude to visit the cardiff museum

predator (of a daughter) in museum

saw a man going after a girl. they were father / daughter they entered a bathtub booth in the museum and the father wanted to harrass the girl quite unsettling anyways finally the father got caught by security guard the daughter quickly escaped in fear

meeting prim/ sec school friends

#primschool I was at the mtr exit, waiting/ gathering for a physics exam soon, saw quite some secondary school people, and zoe cheng from primary school zoe deferred one year and was now in 5A (which means i am in f6?) (she was a very studious and bright classmate I looked up to in primary school – I haven't seen her since then; briefly whatsapped after release of DSE results) she deferred because she had a mushroom skin infection from drinking too much mushroom soup every day

later I realised I didn't pick physics as my elective, so I actually didn't have the physics exam, so I waved goodbye to Zoe, and we hope to see each other again soon.

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I miss them

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no lecture in morning

In the dream I should have a lecture in the morning and a tutorial in the afternoon. I asked Claudia's bf about it (he also studies psychology) and he confirmed with me that today there is no lecture in the morning

so I was pretty glad about it and slept again

_{irl I only have the afternoon tutorial}

there was more to the dream but I already forgot when I woke up haha oh claudia also complained about my alarm in the dream, so I woke earlier to turn off the alarm

OH WAIT

farewell Arthur, locking arms

#arthur

AAAAAAAAAAA eeeeeehahahehehehahaa

At secondary school I was initially looking around at the corridor to see what other classes were doing. I met some secondary school teachers too? But the main point of walking around was to find Arthur.

It was winter time, and we were wearing dark colored down jackets.

I found him, he was standing by another teacher.

I walked towards him and greeted him. I thought I have something to ask him, he was like a professor or something. He put on a white coat and I thought it was ugly (it didn't match the outfit at all) so I laughed at him. He then put a black down jacket too.

Somehow in the dream I felt like he was about to leave to work on other stuff, but I didn't want him to go away after trying to search for him for so long. So I tried to hold his hand and talk to him. The secondary school teacher left us to head to her class, while I began to interact with Arthur.

As we were walking down the corridor, I wanted more warmth so I leaned closer and locked arms with him. We walked happily together (I think he was happy too??? at least I was super happy and he looked comfortable about it. He smilededddededdeddeded at me), although I knew eventually we had to say goodbye but I forgot how the dream ended.

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hku open day, can't find Arthur, convenience store

#jy #arthur (not there)

psyd biggggg hall

BRO i forgot to write the log

??????

ok went to hku open day. On my way to the lecture halls at cpd LG floor. While I was heading there, I saw the prof (JY) walking towards me and went past me. I was slightly concerned for a sec but he didn't spot me out. He looked a bit troubled though... _{(I think I dreamt this because during the day when I was going to help out at the mid-autumn booth, I saw him queuing at the Starbucks at the lobby looking a bit troubled. He was wearing a suit and looks much taller than I expected (like at least 5 cm taller from like 175ish->185cm or what, so I wasn't sure if it was him for a sec, but I looked at him for a few times and I am pretty sure it was really him. And he looked troubled again, he's like frowning. lol... and then I whatsapped ivan about it)}

Anyways, I continued on and entered the lecture hall which was the furthest down the corridor. It was super big like a grand book store. Super spacious like a museum but it's a book store. There was a mini section (like an area for talks in a book fair), and PsyD people were sitting there listening to lecture. I was embarrassed to walk past them cuz I was looking for Arthur who was possibly deeper down the bookstore.

He wasn't there, so I quietly/ sneakily walked past the mini section to exit the bookstore/ lecture hall, feeling kinda embarrassed.

Later I went to the convenience store with my friend, and we were waiting for someone. (I am not entirely sure why are we waiting though) While we were waiting, the dream ended.

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global uni project, strict guy masturbate for me; wedding with vienne

#arthur #6grass

the fuck lmao

joined a global project where different universities across the world collaborate and stuff. It was held online. So I was going to zoom somewhere with my phone. I walked to a place that was similar to Hung Hom railway station. Somehow there was a security check at the entrance. So I went there, and there was a strict guy (I don't think he was a security staff) came towards me and told me to lie down and stuff. He was kind of serious so I just followed what he said. And he took a tool (like a q-tip or a feather??) and massaged my clit (bruh) I looked at the guy for a while and he looks more like Arthur lol I was a bit impatient because my zoom was about to start. But he said I had to finish the masturbation first. So I try to go with the flow to enjoy it. Ngl I felt rather relaxed and aroused. By the end of it I was breathing heavily _{(I really hope I didn't actually did it irl in my shared dorm bro)}

anyways I was in time for the zoom (actually I was still masturbating during the opening ceremony zoom)

later we're gonna form groups? classes?? and then Vienne proposed to me and we got married? and invited our 6grass squad and other secondary school classmates to come and witness our wedding ceremony?????????????????

And then dream ended with me in the bride dress????????? and we were watching Vienne's badminton competition on tv together????? (I don't think vienne was in a bride dress, i think she's wearing sports outfit cuz she just came back from the badminton competition (that's why the tv was airing that))

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typhoon dragon, prepping items, sharing

#relative #mum #A #cecilia #caitlyn #arthur #secschool

There was a big typhoon coming, and it was a bad omen, because it was on the trajectory path to a certain building in North Point, which was infamous for being haunted (?? lol). It had eerie green lights on the outer wall of the building. There was also a Chinese style dragon emerging out of the harbour. It was menacing. The typhoon was scary.

A random relative (dad's sister) wished me happy mid autumn festival _{(this relative's daughter wished me that on whatsapp yesterday night)}

And then I went to gather with my primary school friends, Cecilia and Caitlyn

Mum wanted to buy the dress I bought for high table dinner, but we went to the department store and that shop had sold out on all dresses

I went back to the gathering spot and saw two seats next to Caitlyn (the row has Caitlyn and Cecilia). But Caitlyn was using her arm to cover the seat next to me. So I thought maybe she was reserving the seat for her sister or other closer friend, so I picked the other seat which was further from Caitlyn, which was also fine A and her friends were sitting on the row behind us.

A's friend gave a (motivational) speech on how we should deal with the typhoon.

Somehow when we were all listening, we were all taking umbrellas out. But the shopping mall was indoors.

Later there were sharing sessions about different stuff, one of the session Arthur was the guest, and he's taking a smoky blue fabric long storage box, in which clients would lie inside (lmao?? like a cat) to have their therapy session. And he's sharing about how one client was rather naughty (? not sure about the word), and used his yellow highlighter to scribble on the side of the storage box

lol now i got distracted and forgot the other parts of the dream

eventually me and Jenny led the gathering group out of the shopping mall to another spot to protect ourselves from the typhoon. It felt good to be a leader?? :)

meow meowo moewwmeowmeow

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swimming class, recalling meeting about JY

#jy I put things in locker before swimming class, kind of disgusting because the locker on top of mine was dirty and has unknown liquid like pee, surrounding lockers were dirty too. But the cabinet I chose was the only vacant one so I needed to use it. Saw a small cockroach walking closer to me, it was super gross _{(Maybe it was because I was riding the MTR yesterday and I found 2 seats with unknown liquid like pee, 2 seats with period blood, and 1 whole row with giant poop smear. And I took a seat nearby which appeared clean)}

When I was heading for the swimming class with my uni classmates I recalled I met Julie regarding that incident, and I was rather annoyed when she said JY explained maybe it's his phone, cuz I really don't think phones are sausage shaped. But it wasn't that bothering me because this response was kind of expected and I don't want to deal more with it. But I thought I could question that back then instead of just nodding my head to Julie _{(yea I met with her two days ago)} And then we started the swimming lesson

weird toilet; furious to family, dragging snooker table around

#mum #dad The swimming pool toilet was slightly weird. The compartment was big and L-shaped, but the bidet was near the door instead of within the L shape. And when I close the door, there was still a gap, and students outside can see if I was sitting peeing. So I used my body towel to block away the gap.

Later I met with mum and dad. I think we had an argument, as I was yelling so much in the dream. We were at downstairs of our home, and I was too angry and kind of wanted to escape (?), and had loads of power so I was pushing a giant snooker table everywhere, from home to downstairs, to basement and back up, back and forth _{(hmm my roommate got a bf after going to the bar and pool with him, just 4 days from knowing each other, interesting)}

Psychologist meeting, Arthur shares my dreams, 絵馬 nametag

#arthur #secschool #PBLmate #Joseph They're organising a public meeting in Arthur's room (slightly bigger) with psychologists from various places (like 6-8 people), and took rounds to share? A few of my friends were there too (Ruby and Joseph) And then it was Arthur's turn, he went to the table with his desktop and opened this website. He mentioned a dream about me making stickers from what I drew/ random cute stuff like kaomojis I chuckled and was a bit embarrassed, although no one else knew the dream was mine He actually printed the stickers out for us to pass it down to take a look at And he seemed to be thinking about how to interpret the dream. Since in the dream I knew I dreamt that because Ruby liked to make handmade stickers, so I walked to Arthur's back to tell him about it and no need for him to overinterpret _{(Ruby doesn't make stickers irl)}

As they were passing down the sheets of stickers, Joseph took a medium sized sticker. It looked like a design about the secret garden and the rabbit from Alice in the wonderland, very cottage vibes and felt vintage. I was slightly surprised when Joseph took it, as it was just “sample stickers” Arthur passed down that I thought was for viewing only. But then I thought it was a good idea as stickers were meant to be used and we could always print more if we needed. So I encouraged others to take them as well if they wished to.

When Arthur started talking, I looked at his front and saw he had a nametag on a lanyard. I was very curious of the tag so I stared at it. He kind of didn't want me to look at it/ focus too much on it though, so he tried to turn away but I grabbed the tag firmly, I think I kinda pulled on the lanyard so it made him kinda uncomfortable. :P Actually the nametag is an 絵馬 (both shape and size and also wooden) (kinda big), on which was a project sekai card of 4 girls _{(I think it's the character card my friend got and posted on her ig story like a week ago, not sure)}

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wii with Arthur

#Arthur

Lecture hall activity Wii ?? Demonstration gaming by Arthur (didn’t wear glasses)

Me and person next to me went to Arthur’s sessions so we know him Arthur seemed to want us to answer questions but we ignored him- the guy next to me kept chuckling, while I put my hair down and covered my face because I didn’t want to see him. I also kind of hid behind the boy. I felt embarrassed.

He didn’t pressurize us, but often walked to our part of the lecture hall (I mean- we sit at the middle), which I was happy about. and eventually the session ended. When ending, he was giving away masks, and someone in our row took one. We looked (kinda eagerly) at him but he didn’t give them to us. But it’s fine lol- it’s not about the mask but his presence anyways.

Later I had to dance with my class???

Idk

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pokemon party w friends; ummm Arthur’s affair *cough *

#arthur #PBLmate

At first I was heading to an office room to take something/ meet with someone

But later me and my pbl mates (and arthur) were watching a pokemon movie. Arthur was on my right. We were all on a bed / people further away from me were on big individual sofas, chilling. During the whole dream I really wanted to pee (because I fell asleep before going to the toilet irl) But I was right next to Arthur.. I was a bit worried if my spot next to Arthur would get taken if I went to toilet and return afterwards. So I stayed in bed. I began to burrow into his shoulder for more closeness. He didn’t flinch as I think we were both kind accustomed to being this close to each other. (in the dream) I was burrowing into his neck again when he received a phone call. It was from his wife. He’s updating his wife that everything’s fine and the party’s still going on and not ending anytime soon. When he’s on the phone I was sticking my face to his, and I could hear what the opposite side was talking. (Umm but now it felt like a call from his friend instead), she’s saying how his SCM was well trained and looking very smexy. I thought they’re talking about levator scapulae so I was touching that instead. Arthur signalled and whispered to me, it’s this one, while loosening the collar to expose his neck more to point at it and let me touch it.

As I was touching it, Arthur looked a bit flustered but tried to hold back and speak normally on his call. I found it fun so I tried to whine a bit by his ear. After like two to three sentences he ended the call. We were cuddling each other again. I feel so blessed and in love. The tension was growing stronger, but so was my urge to pee. We gazed at each other and the vibe was getting more and more intimate. Then I thought maybe this would be enough for me to keep my spot when I return from toilet, so I got up and left to pee.

I peed quickly and got back to my spot. Nobody has taken up my spot when I was away. I felt relieved and happy.

After the pokemon movie had ended, all of us were walking to the mtr station. We were sitting on the seats on the concourse to wait for the train. I was sitting next to Arthur on my right again, and another PBL mate (male) on my left. We were all wearing shorts. I held hands with Arthur firmly. I invited him to touch my thighs lol.

_{Yayayayayayayayayy (there’s another dream but I forgot after writing all this! This one feels pretty good so yeeahah it’s fine if I forgot the other one i guess)}

_{probably dreamt it because I had a crush on Rika aka チリ in pokemon horizons and I binge watched like 30 episodes yesterday aaaaaaawoooogaaaa}

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